Overwhelming:: how do you know when enough is enough? pushing your limits further and further just to cope with life just surviving with your small grip on reality people testing and constraining you demands and criticism slowly causing you to erode why is it so hard but they say they had it harder as if it is so easy but thats what they think everyday they think that you do nothing sitting in class with your head in the clouds but is it so easy? one day in there shoes then maybe they'd understand but would that be enough? can someone say when enough is enough. it's all to overwhelming.

Soft Kisses:: softly kissing my flesh the blade smoothly cut leaving my arm crying with tears of deep red the intensity the passion, the steady rush the feeling of desire, the pressure of another cut my breath now staggering adrenaline pumping, yearning for more pain not physical but, emotional my deep red lacerations lay open, shuttering to the thought of closure trying to cut deeper releasing the inner torture my insecurities attempting to suffocate me the fury of the cold, thin, sharp metal the tool of my anger release the tension of a deep red, soft kiss.

Crimson and Jade:: Petals of crimson so soft and so permissive a stem of jade green sharp to the touch a sight of beauty, pure perfection a predilection of desire, a symbol of lust A blessing of the alluring rose the deadly colors of crimson and jade.

Screaming Infidelity:: Inside me screaming as i looked in your eyes all so painful that you swore it wasnt a lie deep into my heart you drilled a miniscule little cry a screaming infidelity so painful i wanted to die a screaming infidelity it started as a little white lie a screaming infidelity it started as a cry another lie to add on top i thought it was for real a screaming infidelity it was all so surreal the beating of your words pounding on my chest a screaming infidelity a love with no trust it helped to cry a little while until the words came back why did i even deal with it you got a second chance it hurt so bad to realize you found another love a screaming infidelity the slaughter of a dove unfaithful love has turned its back for the final time as if being yours was embarassing as if it was a crime a screaming infidelity an unfaithful love a hated truth as if i were invisible you turned your back on me you disowned me as if i were trash you just piled more on top of me the last time i heard your voice it rang so loud and clear you raised your hand i shuttered back i dwindled down in fear a screaming infidelity you hurt me for the last time that little cry inside me turned into a murder my heart was dead it was an empty void filled with nothingness a screaming infidelity i was stricken for the very last time, an innocent life was taken, an angel lost its wings when i fell from high on the rooftop my heart began to sing it was singing its own song the melody was of a tortured soul a screaming infidelity this angel fell to earth everything is so metaphorical my body had hit the earth My own screaming infidelity

Painful Love:: I love you, I hate you the burning desire my blood is like acid, only you fuel it's fire. The fire the rage the intense burning my body i felt it could'nt resist the yearning my eyes flood with tears my chest hurts so bad no longer pumping blood my soul's full of lead shattered to pieces after buliding it up you got me excited i thought it was luck i guess i was wrong to think such a thought i guess true love could never be bought a soul is a soul, a mind is a mind, for a moment our hearts felt entwined the feeling was misplaced you squeezed my heart in your hand i yearned for your touch, i grabbed for your hand a crazy illusion , now they torture me so i dremed of your grasp pulling me close now this touch was different it wasnt a dream as your hands clinched my shoulders, slowly i couldnt breath the sensation was illuminating all my nerves were alert our love was so sensual a thousand knives in me like i was dancing on their tips slowly yet fastly my clothes began to rip, i murmurred i clinched i let out a sigh i sware to you that night i felt i was high the ripping continued till we were both in the nude we made a connection , we were in deep solitude slowly yet fastly in our own gentle way our bodies began to rock, the bed began to sway i felt like a prince and you were my princess as i lay their beside you, we laid and we grinned but three weeks now is passed and is done our love is discontinued like a cheap children's toy and dont you know you got the best of me you let me go and it hurt so bad but i loved you now i hate you the rage continues to burn why was i so stupid why didnt i learn that gurls can be trouble, and love can be so painful while i stand on the roof damn..... aint this a brainful a 4 story drop to a quick sudden high as my body quickly glided my heart was beginning to cry i felt it stop before i hit the ground but thats whats so painful i loved it, but i hated you so much....

Painful Love:: I love you, I hate you the burning desire my blood is like acid, only you fuel it's fire. The fire the rage the intense burning my body i felt it could'nt resist the yearning my eyes flood with tears my chest hurts so bad no longer pumping blood my soul's full of lead shattered to pieces after buliding it up you got me excited i thought it was luck i guess i was wrong to think such a thought i guess true love could never be bought a soul is a soul, a mind is a mind, for a moment our hearts felt entwined the feeling was misplaced you squeezed my heart in your hand i yearned for your touch, i grabbed for your hand a crazy illusion , now they torture me so i dremed of your grasp pulling me close now this touch was different it wasnt a dream as your hands clinched my shoulders, slowly i couldnt breath the sensation was illuminating all my nerves were alert our love was so sensual a thousand knives in me like i was dancing on their tips slowly yet fastly my clothes began to rip, i murmurred i clinched i let out a sigh i sware to you that night i felt i was high the ripping continued till we were both in the nude we made a connection , we were in deep solitude slowly yet fastly in our own gentle way our bodies began to rock, the bed began to sway i felt like a prince and you were my princess as i lay their beside you, we laid and we grinned but three weeks now is passed and is done our love is discontinued like a cheap children's toy and dont you know you got the best of me you let me go and it hurt so bad but i loved you now i hate you the rage continues to burn why was i so stupid why didnt i learn that gurls can be trouble, and love can be so painful while i stand on the roof damn..... aint this a brainful a 4 story drop to a quick sudden high as my body quickly glided my heart was beginning to cry i felt it stop before i hit the ground but thats whats so painful i loved it, but i hated you so much....