We hold one another close.
We kiss each others lips.
Gently caressing each other and loving each other.

Our intimacy pours out on one another, the love so pure and deep and caring.

You mummer a name, so softly it can almost not be heard. But I heard it. What was that I heard? It was not my name, But the name of someone else. Someone you secretly love.

The tears slowly roll down my face as I turn so you do not see.  And I continue to love you.

Another night goes by, I hold you close and love you again.

You mummer a name, so softly it can almost be heard. But I heard it again, and again it was not my name.

Weeks go by, and once so often you call my name, but it’s not enough.

I slowly begin to slip away, wondering who will I be tonight. My heart starts to turn.

My mind slowly blocks out the pain. Still, I am wondering who will I be tonight or tomorrow.

I am gone now; I pretend to be everyone that you wish me to be. I hide my tears and go on loving you. I give you all the love I can, and hope that it is enough to satisfy. 

Now I try to love you, hold you, caress you. Make love to you. And no name comes. I can not fulfill what you are wanting or needing anymore. I try but to no avail. Nothing comes but the tears that silently roll down my face. I realize that who I am tonight, is no one sitting by your side. Wishing that I could be what I once was in your eyes, heart and soul.

Who will I be tonight? I am a ghost of what once was, and will never be again…

---Tatty---