it all seems so unclear
when i look at all that happened
i dreamt about you
for nights on end...
dreamt of your kiss,
your embrace,
the look in your eyes when
we sat together in silence
it all seemed perfect
even though it wasn't
at the time
because though you were free
i was not
and though i could have stopped you
i did not
i look back sometimes
and wonder why
why i didn't stop you
and save us all this pain
i have no clearer answers
than i did then
but sometimes it seems to me
that your love for me
is seeping into the cracks
in the walls i've built
and sometimes it seems
that i can't hang onto the
safety of my hiding places
sometimes i panic
thinking i might fall in love
and get my heart ripped apart again
yet other times it seems the sweetest thing
i could ever dream of
even now i dream of you...
of your kiss, your embrace, your eyes...
and as i wake, i wonder
if it could ever really be