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"The day i tried to live, I realized I was a liar just like you"
"I need a love to help me find my way/ I need a strength that I cannot betray/ I need a word to say what I can't say/ I need a lover"
"Love Is Suicide"
"Where has your heart run to?"
"Now you rip apart who you are"
"and all I ask you is for another chance"
, "there's a life I hide, well I tried to disguise"
"Hate every motherfucker that's in your way"
"depression is when you stop feeling sad about something and start feeling sad about everything."
"... somebody get my out of here, i'm tearing at myself ..."
"I'm left here with nothing, nothing to live for, but you..."
"I love you for what I am not"
"You never thought to question why"

* some names, places, etc., have been changed to benifit my survival.

my ultimate hate list:

a boy named Robert: think of the stupidest, most annoying, asshole you can think of and multiply that by million. there's Robert. oh, and he looks like an ape.-"It's okay. I wouldn't remember me either."

the "cult": i would like to speak not of these people, but of their actions and lifestyles. i know all of these people fairly well. there are 8 or so of them. have you ever met someone that you clashed so badly with that you hated them because of it? well, with all of these people, this is the case. everything i am, they hate. everything i hate, they are. i can't blame them because, well, after all, they are together as one only am i correct? everything they stood for now is exactly the opposite of what they are now. only baby boomers are their equals. their own friends are looked down upon because they, simply, do not "know what it's like" and will not "know what it's like" i mean, come on, there is no way that a teenager could possibly ever know what the real world is like, right? i like to go on the internet for 30 or even more than 30 hours a week! i want my tongue pierced. i listen to music that involves *gasp* screaming, yelling or even the occasional thrashing guitar riff or two! i don't like to talk about the weather, or what job i am going to have after college / university. i do not plan on retiring when i am 65, only to be too old and senile to actually enjoy the money that i have worked all of my life to earn. i like to speak my mind! can you believe it? and... to top it all off, i believe in GOD! i must be evil.

"blah! what are you talking about? those opinions aren't just! they're just wrong!"

it must be nice to have mini slaves running around you all of the time. --"Sticking feathers up your butt does not make you a chicken." -- Brad Pitt from "Fight Club"

"_____": someone so stupid that you are unable to talk to them. ouch.

before i die i would like to...

paint my house a different colour in each room
own a vw beetle
collect as much blue clothing as i possibly can
see a fairy
beat Trey in every game possible
write a good song
run a mile without stopping
have hair past my butt
go to england
see what's so great about heroin (that'll be just before i die, of course)
beat the shit out of someone
dye my hair every colour i could possible think of
bring kurt cobain back from the dead
learn german
go to hawaii
pee standing up, which is possible!
wear a hula skirt
max out my credit card and not have to repay it
say what i mean and mean what i say
make myself some clothes and actually be able to wear them
live happily
be able to take a nap whenever i want
say a big *fuck you* to all the assholes who've wronged me
be me

Diabolical Curse Generator

I do anything that I want
And I get everything that I ask
And if this message bothers you, you know
Just kiss my fucking asshole
~~PREPS~~ --> not me!

"carve your name into my arm
instead of stressed, i lie here charmed
cuz there's nothing else to do
every me and every you..."