My New Consciousness

awake to become someone else
lose a part of this self
find it broken once again
discover my new consciousness
lost my one and only friend
takes away and gives again
dreamt it all came to an end
woke to find it all the same
taste the taste of imagined pain
break apart until i bleed
feel the urge for addictive need
put the needle to my vein
watch it kill away the pain
scar myself until i fall
heed your silent, tainted call
hate myself for what i am
see the image of the damned
wanted to kill it all away
lived to see another day
what have i become?

c2001 Audrey Beacham

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