Ok, I'm going to try this new page, it's a "diary page" sorta like a bio page, but I can just add entry after entry and talk about what's going on...
I'm really stressing out today because it's the Season Premiere of FRIENDS. I'm not sure if I can deal with it! It's the beginning of the end of FRIENDS, and anytime I start thinking about it I get all weepy and teary-eyed. You will not want to know me on the last day... the SERIES FINALE. I will be an emotional wreck. It will not be pretty.
**Tuesday, December 2nd, 2003**
Hola! I am so psyched! The first half of my senior year is almost over... how wild is that?? Things have been going so great! Yesterday I went to Arkadelphia, where I toured Henderson... I absolutely love the campus. I have been accepted to go there next year, but I'm still undecided between there and UCA in Conway... both are great schools, and each has their good or bad points. I'm not really sure which I'll go to, but I know that I'll be majoring in Nursing and I plan to minor in Spanish... however after yesterday's visit I may double minor in Spanish and Psychology... what can I say?!? Anyway, that's it for now I do believe!
Don't forget to say your prayers, brush your teeth, and watch Friends. All are very important in life.
**Wednesday, December 10th, 2003**
**Tuesday, December 16th, 2003**
**Friday, January 8th, 2004**
**Thursday, Feburary 26th, 2004**
**Saturday, March 6th, 2004**
**Tuesday, March 30th, 2004**
**Friday, April 16th, 2004**
**Monday, November 15th, 2004**
Ok... granted, the last two entries are BLAH. Sorry.
I'm single yet again *sigh* and this time fairly depressed over it. You know the saying "you dont know what you've had until you've lost it" ...yeah that is SO true. i've lost one of the BEST friends i could ever ask for... Tomorrow i'm heading to Oklahoma (hmm, that's where all my relationship problems started...) and I'm going to go to a dance that my UBMS camp is having, which will be fun... hopefully. I'll get to see quite a few of my friends from camp, which is the best thing that's happened all week. Somebody needs to help me get over him...
OK... not that anybody cares, but I'm much better than I was last week! My bud is finally talking to me again, although I believe a "feeling" told him to get out of all non-friendship relationships with me... anyway, he's my bud again, and that makes me so happy because I was afraid I had lost his friendship, which is incredibly important to me. I am still *CrAzY* about him but as long as he is my friend (...) then I am HAPPY!!!
Guys like to screw you over. That's what I have decided. All guys are jerks and I'm pretty convinced that I'm never going to get married. I'll adopt my children.
... ok. So that's taking it a little far. You know, the quote "friendship often ends in love, but love in friendship - never" is quite true. I'm just ready to get all of this OVER with and move on to a mature relationship. Why can't guys just be mature? Not afraid of commitment and feelings? Why can't HE just not worry about the future? Live life one day at a time. EVERYBODY.
I have exactly 9 Mondays left until I'm outta high school! That's 47 school days total. Brings a smile to my face every time I think about it! I'm real big into reality TV for some reason right now. Last night was the season finale of The Bachelorette; Meredith broke up with Matthew, (I was rooting for him!) and picked Ian, who proposed to her. Monday is the season finale of Average Joe 2, which I have followed since the beginning... Larissa sent my favorite (Tony) home 2 weeks ago and now we're down to Brian from the old group and Gil from the new group! Tonight is also the last new episode of Friends until either April or May... there are only 4... maybe it's 3... episode left until the series finale. Of course, every time I start thinking about THAT I get teary-eyed. Yes, I know it's just a show but I CAN'T HELP IT.
On a brighter note... ok well it's not really brighter. No guy in my life at this point, though I am crazy about a select few... who don't seem to return the feelings. But oh well, right? I'll be going to college in a few months and *hopefully* I will meet somebody who will SWEEP me away there, right? Right...
So, I will never EVER watch Average Joe because I hated the ending... how dumb! I was SO mad at myself for wasting however many Monday nights I did watching that stupid show! 40 days of high school left!
I love Ross Staten Trotter! =) 23 days of high school left!
15 days! ...Ok, so I have to tell all about what's happened to me recently. I (finally) "got over" - or whatever you want to call it - Brent... no offense to him, but I just realized that there was no way he and I could ever be together again, at least in the way I wanted it. So not long after I told him I wanted to be friends and nothing more (EVER again) I started talkin to Ross. Ok, Ross is the guy who I kissed while Brent and I were dating back in November... Rossy sort of started the whole Brent fiasco in the first place, and he sort of ended it too! Ross and I dated 2 years ago, our sophomore year, and he's been in my mind ever since, even while I was with Grant, I thought about him alot. We picked up where we left off and havent looked back. Ross is... well, I'm pretty sure he's as good as guys come. He's perfect for me and I can honestly HONESTLY say that he's my one and only. Everything is just so right with him... it's crazy and scary and i love it! Every minute I spend with him gives me another reason to love him. ~~Ross... I love you so much baby! You're my everything~~
Wow... the "diary page" that I was supposed to update frequently didn't exactly work out. I'm at Henderson State University in Arkadelphia - it's great! (For those of you who just TOTALLY don't know me, I'm a nursing major) I'm still head-over-heels in love with Ross Staten Trotter and I'm REALLY excited about transferring to UAMS in a year and a half - no more long distance! I'm working on updating the whole site, but I'm super-busy, so maybe over Chrismas Break I'll get everything straigtened out!
