My Songs

This Fake Nights Sky
the dice I role are coming up singles,
I guess that's the way I'm suppose to be tonight.
The flower petals assure that you hate me
and my wish on the railroad track has yet to come true.
Your pictures are gone from my walls
exiled to cedar smelling drawers.
This room seems empty without your eyes to watch me
And I wish that I could be watching you.
Shooting stars glide across my celling,
Manipulated sky of my design.
I wish you were beside me-
to stare up at this fake nights sky.
Always the same, they've seen a thousand petals
strewn inside my circle of salt
to protect me from the evil that has to be you.
and the flowers say I'm wrong,
the dice turn up singles
and the stars that I wish upon have never moved at all.

Didn't Know Enough to Help
In the dreams I have you're perfection
the light of the world shines through your face.
you take my hand and ask me to be your valentine,
though February is still months away.
And I cry when I hear you ask me,
'cause I know this dream isn't true.
the beauty fades from my mind
as your face does slowely through time.
If you were here now? What would it all be like?
Physics, instead of chemistry,
the homework from last night.
With graduation only months aways what going on in your mind?
Yet all I get is a fake smile,
to confort my aching mind.
Your problems are your own
and I don't know enough to help.

Please Start (Without a Begining)
I wish I had something important to say to make me stand out above the rest.
but I don't and I'm sorry for the jibberish I speak.
and that fact that we have so much in common means nothing in a world where oposites attract.
you seem as if your hearts been broken well I'll sew it back together,
gift wrap it and give it to you.
Someone once told me I was pretty on the inside well I want to be beautiful just like you.
it won't work in the end and it can't start with out a beinging,
a begining that I'm so timid to start.
My heart is full of songs to blunt and ruff to grace your ears.
my mind is full of love sick thoughts that no one wants to hear.
this pillow is tired of the tears that fill it every night
But I shouldn't cry about something like this.
And the dreams I have of you
Make it harder to believe that you're not mine.
I think about the gifts that I would give you-
plan them intracetly in my head.
My eyes would tell everything if you asked them but you don't ask 'casue you don't care
this is just another, another useless night
You're just another, another dream gone unfufilled
My heart would be broken in the end but it's shadered before the begining.

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I'm emo style with my friends
sad all the time 'cause I'm thinkg of you,
I know I'm a loser but why can't you love me?
Chorus
Life isn't all its cracked up to be,
Life isn't all its cracked up to be,
I was a happy child, but now you've jaded me.
Sad, but still breathing,
I won't let you kill whats inside of me
(end Chorus)
If it's all a joke, then I must be the punchline,
If lifes just a game, then I'm the fucking ball,
I know, I know, that its worth the while,
I know, I know, I need to smile 'cause...
Chorus.

If You Were Dead
I have these dreams that you're dead
Tearless, Speachless, Thoughtless, I am
If you're really gone i wonder what I'd do?
Would I cry, or flip out, or not know what to say?
Would they send me aways like they did to Liza,
that time that she couldn't hadnle it all.
(Chorus)
How would I deal if you're really gone from me?
WHo would i go to to get happy?
You'll talk to me in my dreams
Asking where all my carefree thoughts have gone.
Well they died with you
Wooooh, they died with ouu
Wooooh, it all died with you,
Wooooh, they all died with you
(end Chorus)
But I need to resucrect them
Raise them 6 feet from their graves
Am I craxy to want to bring them back?
but i know i'm innocent deep inside.
(Chorus)
The color pink is fading to a ghostly white,
I try to cry every night But the tears won't come
And I want it all back!
Woo ohho! They all died with you!