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plains, trains, and automatic rifles

6 am the sunrise burns my eyes
death could come at time and be no surprise
a long black hallway that has become my life
a cold dark room that encages my strife

heading north on a train
(thoughts are time consuming)
dreams of a life more plain
(time spent w/out equating)
a goal to strive for:
(no more notions of cynicism)
being worthless seems a lot more fun

last call for regret

monday nights at bj mallards
coors light pitchers just six dollars
james and i get wrecked like shitty
vacant, old, abandoned buildings

if i could foresee my time to go
i don't think that i would want to know

so far to go, too much to know
can't be sure of what's real, too drunk to feel
if you hit a short end, or grow old in depends
there's no difference to mend, it's the same in the end.

independence song

poltergeists; in my mind under my bed again
it will not suffice to tell me nothing's wrong
she wonders why i won't commit, open up to her
or live a lie, this is my independence song

she just don't know
(but i really think she should)
she just don't know
(she's knocking on wood)
she just don't know
(what's wrong w/ me)
say a prayer for me

suicide; to live is to die and you can't do much more than that
i will try to overcome tonight
i was hurt once before; so i hit the bottle, passed out on the floor
trust seems to be a quality i have lost

snakebites

snakebites, letter bombs, poison mosquitoes,
car wrecks, bar fights, spontaneous combustion,
just as deadly as the words you spoke
the night you went away

zombies waiting for me in my room
george romero with a camera in the closet
directing the scene where i will die
just like you when you look me in the eye

i've got a long way to go
(i'll tell you one thing)
you are such a ho
(you know it's true yeah)
i cried a lot, i drank it off, i missed you all the time
you will never know

can't think, can't find the words i am after
life is on great big disaster
fireflies burn like the hate in your eyes
i don't want hear all you selfish lies

all the fighting, sleepless nights
all the spiting, i was right
never again
no, never again
never again

filling the void w/ alcohol

as i stumble home drunk, once again
feeling full of nothing
i remember dreams i used to have
and now i couldn't give a fuck

as i stumble down the hill
your memory haunts me still
i hope i die before i wake
i pray the Lord my soul to take

i don't need you
i don't want you
yet i still feel so much for you
we were over at the bridge down by the lake

death seems so far away
the pain never rests
all my friends seem so far away
the pain never rests

as i smoke out on the street
hoping life won't be as bleak
as the life i lived after i died
that day you laughed while i cried

i don't need you
i don't want you
yet i still feel so much for you
there is only so much i can take


never stop

you promise and you say you'll quit
cuz you know i've had my fill
you act as if you are a god
i've come to see you'll never stop

and you say you'll never fall
because you stand so tall
but i miss your fucking point.

you lie again, you'll cry again
you say you'll quit, and never again
you'll lie again, you'll cry again yeah...

i'll be waiting when you fall

wuss

i never thought it would last forever
but i thought you would always be there
you took my heart and ripped it out
turn you head and watch me... bleed!

all the times i thought meat something
turned out to amount to nothing
cleanse my mind of past devotion
lost my senses, is there anyone there?

january 27th

what's going on tonight?
i'm sorry and i've humbled and i don't want to fight
try to figure it all out...
i took took you for granted, i took you for granted!

stay tonight, we had fights before but nothing's gonna be alright
stay tonight, you said you loved me once, so baby prove it tonight

i don't know how to work it out
but i need you more than breathing and that's no doubt
and i gotta get you back
nothing else matters, nothing else matters!


broken bridge

sworn to silence
torn by anger
breaking me
fight for the truth

bridge torn down; now i'm free.

walk alone

we're dying to save ourselves
from a nature that only kills
we're trying to exploit each other
but in the end we only screw ourselves

i can see a nation built on corrupt dreams
i'll walk alone
i can see the flag ripped from the seams
i'll walk alone

a generation forged in dreams of the flesh
what we need can't be bought at a mall
ideals are lost; except for personal gain
we teach our children hate and apathy

i won't deny you for it
i won't deny you for it
i am prepared to walk alone


remembrance

write a million words, sing a thousand songs
i got you on my mind as sure as the day is long
there was freedom in your house and love inside your heart
i'll hold you up in my thoughts, you never let me down from the start

i'm lost in this world w/ out you
lost in this world w/ out you
we'll meet again
i know we'll meet again

it wasn't like you said a bunch of wise things
but don't get me wrong you made perfect sense to me
i know you had your faults i never saw them when you were alive
a big chunk of me died when you died

you were always there for me stood by me when i was wrong
you saw my overall good, your faith in me made me strong
i know you'd give your life for me, i'd die to be w/ you
in a sense your still alive inside of me there's a piece of you

i miss you
i love you
i had
the time of my life

i am trying not to think about
how i am going to live with out