To my mother…

This pain
in my side
Is what I get
For holding it inside
This pressure in my head
The build up
Of everything you said

Those words
Meant so much more
Those words
Left me so torn
Those words
Blackened my mind
Darkeness floods my eyes

These pills
Kill me inside
But they keep me alive
You say that im jus an adddict
You called me your mistake
I know I made your life so tragic
But what the fuck you think its doin to me

Those words
Meant so much more
Those words
Left me so torn
Those words
Blackened my mind

I tried to be your friend
But the fucking bull shit never ends
I tried to ease the pain with a pen
But you stopped me again
What the fuck cant you see?
Mother fucking bitch
Never fucking touch me

And now this darkness
Thickens
The flood into my eyes
Quickens
All I see is blackness
All I am is darkness
All Ill ever be
Is a shadow of what you want me to be
Darkeness floods my eyes
Im so blind
Sooo blind
Im blind