You're an asshole because you're lonely. Rather than go crazy with despair you might want to go 'crazy' the other way and live your life like truth is more important.
Patience is the cure and the juggernaut (which means there is no escaping it). May you have an anomoly in your brain which makes every second word of your thought process 'patience'. You will see because you are God.
Fear is sin because you can't die (because you are 'all motion'). Have patience and glory because our egos are to witness Heaven.
David Arthur Johnston