I would suggest trying to make a 'choice' that isn't the result of your experience.
I understand the consideration presented is monumental, so I empathize with your lack of it in this matter. Truth is truth- pride ignores the fact that you are your experience (A.K.A. your first name is 'all motion' and you are the only thing; making pride redundant).
The truth is simple- 'is' is. It is the lies built on top of it that make it seem daunting.