Mood:
bluehow come once i get out of a relationship i rush into another one? its only hurting myself when i do this, not physicly but emotionally, i hate to admit that im still in love w/ robert, sure i like other guys, but robert, hes diffrent, i always felt like he cared about me and wanted make me happy and make sure i was ok, but now its like i cant find that n neone else, theres noone like him, as much as i want to move on i cant and that kills me. i want to be w/ him soooooooooooooooooooooooooo bad but now i kno that will never happen b/c hes made it clear that he dosnt like me. i feel bad for saying i would go out w/ brandon, i like him, but i dont like him, i guess its b/c hes not robert, which yet again i hate myself for wanting to be w/ him soo much i wish i didnt i wish i could go on w/ life and truly be happy, but i was soooo happy w/ him and now i have this feeling, i cant even explain it, i just idk.....i dont kno wat to do nemore, i shouldnt have said yes to brandon, i need more time to myself and time to get over robert, you would think me having a bf would help me get over him, bs, it only makes me want to be w/ him more, i just miss the way he was, always caring, and the way he would hug me, but i guess never loved me, b/c like as helm says you dont bring someone into your life just to throw them away, well he threw me away and hasnt tried to get me back yet, and i doubt he ever will, *sigh* i hate me.