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why can i not act sad for once? i mean gosh, im not happy all the time, but i guess when im not its a burdon on everyone, like earlier for instance, robert i guess read what i had written in my journal, thought O i should get in her business even tho i dont care for her. so he put on that little ooo i care for you tell me everything attitude, but then i didnt want to talk to him, i will never again go to him for help, advice or nething, he dosnt deserve to kno wats goin on, nor do i want to tell him nethin now...i instant messaged him thinkin, well maybe if i talk to him it will make me feel a bit better, bs, he just shot me down like usual, for instance i told him wat was goin on, and he was all like why r u telling me this? omgsh he couldnt have said nething meaner to me, so inconclusion, i will no longer go to NEONE for help, i will resolve my probs on my own, i wont let neone like robert make me feel like i can talk to them, b/c obviously no one really cares. no ones here for me, no one ever has been, my whole secure feeling is just a lie.