Stay
Please stay with me
While I dream
Whisper to me those lies
That will make this all real
Lie to me
Keep my eyes closed
I don't want to hear the truth
If it makes you go away
Don't tell me I don't mean
Anything to you
I'm so tired of drying my tears
Maybe my heart should just stop
I could keep this image of you
Safe in my heart
Cherish the lies and your falseness
I can feel my heart breaking
It's screaming
"Don't Let go"
Wrapped up in your blanket of lies
I want to stay here forever
Please don't leave me alone
I've litanized my own lies
I've shut my eyes
and sanctified the pain
I can't make it go away
The truth is all I want from you
But I want you to lie
You've ripped my heart out
So many times and played with it
Without ever knowing
You look at me, confused
Not knowing what you've done to me
But I can't tell you
How much you've hurt me
You can't understand
Because I don't know how to tell you
How much you mean to me
This road that I walk on
Seems so full of pits and potholes
I've fallen in another one
And this time I don't want
to get back up
I've fallen too far
You've broken my chains
And I can't forget
I see you walking away from me
Screaming does me no good
You can't hear
You know you hurt me
But you don't know how
You know I've shed tears
But you can't comfort me
I don't want to burden you
with my pain
You never deserved my attachment
I've only been a burden on you
The word 'friend' stabs a knife
through my heart
Just stay here with me
Silent and awkward
But maybe it should stay that way
Words don't matter
They'll always be fake
Just add them to the list of our lies
Your lies I can ignore
But the lies I tell myself
Ring hollow and the insincerity echoes
I can't make myself believe
in my own fantasy anymore
Maybe if I just stop breathing
I can let go of you
But I don't think I can
I'm too attached
I couldn't cut the cord if I tried
I've hurt myself so many times
Just for you
But if I were to make the sacrifice
and let you go
I would rip my heart into shreds
Knowing it wouldn't make a difference
I can't let you go.
You are my greatest happiness.
love is suicide
By: Alicia Ducharme
Dedication
" Terran,
You've broken my heart
And now I sit here alone
Pricking my fingers on the shards "
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