| There the shadows stood, no one could really see what or who they were. There appeared to be two of them, holding something in the air, could it be? Yes, a body! They were holding a body in the air. They stepped forward slightly and threw the body down the temple steps. The shadows at the top of the steps revealed themselves to be Pat and Addam. It was a man that they threw. He came to a sudden halt in front of the Sailor Scouts and Darien. Serena gasped, her stupor faded and she ran to the man's side. "Father...." she managed to whisper. She cradled his head in her hands. "Go ahead Sailor Moon! Kill me. Make it quick, and don't fret! There's a reserved place in hell for every man who turns to the Nega Verse so your Heaven won't be disturbed." Something then struck all of them. As Pat and Addam realized it too, they slowly walked down the stairs of the temple and walked next to the scouts and Darien. Serena then said, "You regret it, don't you?" "I didn't know what to do when your mother died. She was the only woman I ever loved. It's her death that drove me over the edge Serena. I felt like I failed her. Queen Baryl promised me that if I joined her, she would bring my beautiful Anna Maria back to me, and make sure that all three of my children were taken care of for life! But when she found out who you were, the plans were changed, and it was all ready too late. I had done my damage on you, taking my grief out on you whenever I had the chance. I was in agony waiting for Queen Baryl to fulfill her promise. But in the meantime, I just couldn't brake you!" "Why did you try to brake us father? Why didn't you just hide it from us?" Serena, at this point, was crying. She couldn't believe such sentimental words could come from a man who's cold eyes she had once looked upon with complete and utter hatred. "You were my children, and Anna Maria was the love of my life, even after we were divorced. I would've done anything to get things back to the way they were. I wanted my family to be whole again, I thought maybe if I brought your mother back to life, she would marry me again! But by the time we found out that you were Sailor Moon and Princess Serenity and that your brothers were your guards, I was all ready too absorbed in the Nega Verse and other things to make the madness stop! You have to understand that once you start this life, it becomes a drug. The world is still moving beneath your feet, but your mind isn't following. You're no longer in control." Serena looked upon her father with a new understanding. Though Pat and Addam, being tortured by their father worse than Serena because they were older than her, were disgusted by their father's betrayal, they also felt it hard to resist forgiving him. There was something in his eyes, this wasn't a trick. Jedite meant every word that he spoke. He was attempting to be sincere! Serena, however, not only cried with sadness, but also with extreme anger! Not towards Jedite, but towards God. Serena had once been told by her mother that there was a master plan for everyone, that people were just pawns in God's giant game of chess, this scared Serena. After her mother died, those words rang in Serena's ears over and over again, driving her mad. If she really had no control, and this was all part of the master plan, then she wouldn't be able to make better changes in her life! She'd be cursed with the life she was given, and she would achieve nothing else. And the thoughts of: if I had known then what I know now, raced through her head, just like they did when her mother died. If she had known that her mother would die in that car that night, how would Serena have done things differently? Could she have stopped it? Was it meant to be this way? Is it my fault, or everyone else's? So many questions, Serena didn't dare try to make sense of them all! It would have killed her, slowly yes......but death is never too far away, and she knew that. Serena and the others could see Jedite fading. "When I die, my body will disintegrate into dust. Because I was infected with their drug, I will go to the other side and burn in hell for the rest of eternity. There's no hope for a man like me." Serena laid Jedite's head on her knees and took hold of his hand. "That's not true father! There's always hope, mother said that to me. There's always a way out of a bad situation!" Jedite silenced Serena and she began to weep harder. Pat and Addam both put their hands on her shoulders to support her. "I don't deserve to be called your father Serena. I'm so sorry for what I did to you, and you too boys! I wish now that I could just go back and change everything. I know it's too late now, but thinking of the boys being born, finding out I was going to have a baby girl, meeting your mother for the first time, I know she's watching over you. I'm sorry.....Lord, please find it in your heart to forgive me....help my children...Anna...Anna....Anna...." Then there was silence. Jedite's body however, did not disappear. He had been forgiven, it was a miracle in the eyes of the scouts, but not in Serena's. She knew that if he would just ask for forgiveness, it would be granted. This was the hope, the sign. You do have control, though there is a main goal for every person, you have control over what happens next. It's all so clear now, life takes on a whole new perspective, the hope now shines through!
You will fly and you will crawl, God knows even angels fall!
Well, that's it! How'd
~Neo Queen Tori~
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