Tapsta

"We don't read and write poety because it's cute. We read and write poety because we are members of the human race, and the human race is filled with passion. Medicine, law, business, engineering, these are all noble pursuits and necessary to sustain life, but poety, beauty, romance, love; these are what we stay alive for." july 7, 2004 This has slowly become my perosnal journal.for my eyes only and today little tag is about a dream i had...a dreamof goodbyes. I woke up at 830 am crying because I didn't want to say goodbye to the ones that mattered most in my life right now. I wasn't dying, just moving away. what hurt me most was the fact that theresa tran was in my dream and I couldn't have her because she already had a boyfriend chuck. I wanted sooo badly to move in and eat from his plate, i wanted to steal her away but that wasn't/isn't me. We basiclaly did want we did in real life...we went on a small walk and ate together. Why is it that all my happy love day dreams always end up with me getting hurt..I always find a way for the girl to cheat on me or something along those lines, as long as I am hurt in the process...then my little sadistic sub conscience mind will be satisfied. all i want right now si theresa. I am sslowly beginning to dispise people with girlfriends or boyfriends becasue I feel jealous.cause I dont want to be alone anymore...all I want is someone I coul fall asleep next to and wake up beside...all I want is someone to be able to hold my hand as I walk down the street or let me give them a million hugs...I want to embrace them in my life...and I know it sounds stupid but I am begining to wonder if I'll ever find anyone...with all my curbed sadistic thoughts of myself...I dont know. well I know I will eventually find her but until then my heart is longing for love. Song: Toya-moving on (even though I really haven't)