Alone.....he feels so alone... The world around him is closing in. How could he touch Bulma like that? He glances at the door. "Who's there?"<br>
"I've brought you something to eat," Bulma's voice replies.<br>"Come in," Goku whispers.<br>Bulma enters the room and approaches his bedside. "I've made more if you're still hungry."<br>
Goku smiles, taking the tray thankfully.<br>"Please eat," she begs. "Do it for Chi Chi and do it for me. I don't want to lose you to..."<br>
Goku lifted the spoon, allowing it to sink into the bronze colored soup. He tastes it, slurping noisily at first. Without thought he lifted the bowl and brought it to his lips and drank it in seconds.<br>
Bulma sighs in relief as he turned to her with eyes wide and broth trickling down his chin. "More please," he begs.<br>"Greatfully," she says, taking the bowl and returning with a feast that would all but sate the starving saiya-jin's hunger.<br>She took a seat at the end of the bed and watched him fill his empty belly.<br>
he seemed greatful of her company and he continued to ask for more until at last he was full and content.<br>Goku yawns and stretches out on his back, giving his stomach a pat. "I never knew I was so hungry...thanks."<br>
Bulma nods, "I'm just glad you feel better but your so skinny right now.... you've lost a lot of weight. No matter, I'll make sure you eat enough to fill you out again."<br>Goku nods. "Hai..."<br>He rolls over onto his side and stares at her, "I didn't mean to do it you know... I just don't understand what came over me and I'll bet Vegeta wants to kill me."<br>
She reaches out to touch his shoulder and again with those eyes... They bore into her soul.<br>He touches her face, his fingers combing through a lock of her hair. "I think I liked you since we first met, but when Chi Chi came along... she was so different and you and Yumcha were together then. I fell in love with her and I've forgotten my feelings until now." He hesitates. "The dragonballs inside me..."
<br>He takes her hand and places it over his chest. "Can't you feel them? Their inside me, pulsing with my heart beat. Their waiting to be used for a greater purpose." She can see tears in his eyes. "I made you a saiyan coz I couldn't bear Vegeta losing you... I saw Chi Chi getting older and older but you... I couldn't let it happen. I wanted Vegeta to be happy like me..." He lowers his face, tears spilling forth and falling into her open palm.<br>
Why does it hurt so much Bulma? I don't know who I love. I loved Chi Chi, but what I felt was so different with you."<br>Bulma searches the hollow of his neck, trying to find the faded scar that Chi Chi would have made. <i>There isn't one...</i><br>"You were never completely bonded with her were you?"<br>He shakes his head. "No...she said there was no purpose for it. She didn't understand what I felt inside me... what was in my blood." His grip tightens on her wrists. "She denied my heritage and so did I!"<br>
"Goku sa..."<br>"DON'T CALL ME THAT!," He screams angrily. "SHE USED TO CALL Me....that....."<br>He takes her hands again, "No. You can call me what you want. I don't want to forget her and I don't want to forget what we could've shared... Bulma sa... you have to go. I don't want to take what is Vegeta's. I honor your feelings for him. True love, is it not?"<br>Bulma nods.<br>"Yeah," he sighs. "I see the way you two look at each other. Go on now, and thanks for the dinner. I neede the energy. I need to be alone so I can think okay?"<br>Bulma nods. "Okay, but if you need anything."<br>His lips press to her forehead, "I will tell you."<br><br><font color=blue><u>(Gravity Room -- The next day)</u></font><br>
"So, the third class baka decided to join me neh?"<br>Goku runs a hand through his short hair. "You know, I'm going to make you eat those words someday," he replies irritably.<br>Vegeta fell silent. <i>Is he acually getting cocky with me? It must be the saiyan inside him. The true Kakarotto, the one hiding behind the mask named Goku.</i><br>"Anyway," Goku huffs. "I'm ready to train. How about you?"<br>Vegeta chuckles, "I'm always ready."<br>
Goku's eyes darkened and before Vegeta could register it, a fist collides barely an inch from his head. "Shiritzu...," Goku hisses.<br>Vegeta's eyes widen, "You dare to say such a thing.....YOU DID NOT TELL ME YOU KNEW SAIYAGO!"<br>Goku's eyes flash mysteriously, "I don't even think you were ready for that saiyan no Ouji...or should I say...King?"<br>vegeta knees the larger saiyan in the groin. "Who's ready now?!," he laughs. "I suppose one of us will find out."<br>Together they disappear in a burst of golden ki, fists colliding and power levels rising with each blow.<br><font color=blue>~~~~~~~~~~</font><br>Bulma observed from her window as the earth shook with their fight. Casually, she braces herself for the shattering explosing, knowing once again she'll have to spend several thousand zenni to repair the bloody thing....<b>AGAIN</b>.<br>"Wait a minute," she thinks aloud. "Something's wrong."<br>Dropping her 
morning cup of coffee her eyes widen when from within the dust came Goku, his hand held in a death grip around Vegeta's neck. "VEGETA!"<br>"Kakarotto....I'm trying to make you understand," the king spat.<br>"There isn't anything to explain VEGETA. You HAVE to kill me."<br>Vegeta stares at Goku's chest.<br>Goku follows his gaze, allowing tears to fall. "The dragonballs are there. She said she didn't want to be wished back and with them inside me...I know I might break my promise. I still have a chance to bring her back but....YOU HAVE TO KILL ME SO I WON'T!!!" He shakes Vegeta. "YOU HEAR ME?!"<br>"Goku STOP!," Bulma screams. "You're hurting him!!!"<br>Goku smirks, "Good. the sooner I die the better."<br>"The balls will be inactive forever kakarotto...then no one will have a chance.....do you want that on your conscience forever?"<br>Goku frowns at Vegeta then steals a glance at those cerulean eyes... they pleaded with him... He avoids them and faces Vegeta again.<br>
"I'll have to take that chance Vegeta. Besides, how can I live with myself if I am to love Bulma and I can't even touch her?"<br>"Love?," exclaims. "Is this what it's all about?"<br>"He's telling the truth," Bulma replies. "He does... since we were kids."<br>Vegeta looks to Goku to verify his emotions. "Love...you don't know what love it kakarotto... it is the season of the moon and as far as I'm concerned you just want MY MATE for a good fuck and that's all. The moon over
powers all saiyans and there is only the urge to mate."<br>"NO!," Goku screams, thrusting vegeta to the ground. "If you won't kill me then....I will!!!"<br>With his hand over his chest, Goku sends a blast to his heart.<br>His body fell hard to the ground and he lay there, the fire in his eyes gone and only the innocense that is Goku remains. Blood bubbles from him mouth and he closes his eyes, awaiting his life to end in the only way he knew... his tears bled free and with each wet gurgle from his lungs, he sobbed, hoping that he may be reunited with her... at last...<br><font color=blue>TO BE CONTINUED...<br><br>Is this truly the end of GOKU?! WILL the dragonballs die with him? AND WHAT IS THIS??? what's with the so called "season of the moon" ? You'll find out next...on EPISODE 4 of DRAGONBALL EVOLUTION!!!