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I woke up this morning with a smile on my face
And nobody's gonna bring me down today
Been feeling like nothing's been going my way lately
But I decided right here, right now, that my outlook's gonna change
That's why I'm gonna
Say goodbye to all the tears I've cried every time somebody hurt my pride
Feelin like they won't let me live life, and take the time to look at what is mine
I see every blessing so clearly, and I thank God for what I got from above

I believe they can take anything from me
But they can't succeed in taking my inner peace from me
They can say all they wanna say about me, But i'm
I'm gonna carry on, carry on

I never wanna dwell on the pain again
there's no use in relivin' how I hurt back then
Rememberin' too well the hell I felt when I was runnin' out of faith
Every step I'm 'bout to take well it's towards a better day
Cause I'm about to
Say farewell to every single lie and all the fears I've held too long inside



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hold on to me love
you know i can't stay long
all i wanted to say was i love you and i'm not afraid
can you hear me?
can you feel me in your arms?

holding my last breath
safe inside myself
are all my thoughts of you
sweet raptured light it ends here tonight

i'll miss the winter
a world of fragile things
look for me in the white forest
hiding in a hollow tree (come find me)
i know you hear me
i can taste it in your tears

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long lost words whisper slowly to me
still can't find what keeps me here
when all this time i've been so hollow inside
i know you're still there

watching me wanting me
i can feel you pull me down
fearing you loving you
i won't let you pull me down

hunting you i can smell you - alive
your heart pounding in my head

watching me wanting me
i can feel you pull me down
saving me raping me
watching me

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your love was like candy
artificially sweet
i was deceived by the wrapping
got caught in your way
and i learned how to bleed

and it hurts my soul
cuz i cant let go
all these walls are caving in
i cant stop my suffering

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You know the old cliché
I'd walk a thousand miles just to see you
I'd drive all night to be there
Just to hold you

So you see darling
I'd give you everything
Just to hear you say you'll stay with me
Just to hear you say that you love me

I'd quiet the raging winds
The sun would smile on you always
No more rainy days for you
I'd collect all the raindrops that fall

I'd wipe away all of your tears
No more would you cry
No more pain would you feel

So you see darling
I'd give you everything
Just to hear you say you'll stay with me
Just to hear you say that you love me

So the old cliché goes
I'd give you the moon and stars
The beauty of the clear blue sky
The diamonds of the sparkling, deep blue sea

So you see darling
I'd give you everything
Just to hear you say you'll stay with me
Just to hear you say that you love me

But my heart is heavy
I'm so sorry,
I must apologize
These things I cannot give you

All I have to give you
Does not come from the treasures of rich men
Locked up more tightly than the rarest gem
You can search for it all of your life
But sadly you'd never find it
Because only I can choose to give it to you

My hugs

My kisses

My heart

My soul

My love

This is all I can give
Perhaps...
Per chance...
Maybe...
This is what you've wanted all along...?

So you see darling
I'd give you everything
Just to hear you say you'll stay with me
Just to hear you say that you love me,
I'd give you me.

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Tonight Ive finally died
My spirit crushed
I wish no more to live
Ive screamed for someone to help me
But my voice has gotten hoarse
And I still stand here alone
Id never wish this pain upon anyone
Why is life like this
Do you enjoy knowing 
That I can no longer sleep without shedding my shell
And cry my bitter tears
Of course you wouldnt care
Its okay though
Im alright
Ill be fine
Just let me pick up the pieces of who I used to be
And Ill leave quietly

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Take deep breaths and hold them.
Try to stay still for longer and longer periods of time. 
Make yourself small and like a stone. 
Curl the edges of yourself up 
and fold them under where no one can see. 

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If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares

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Another day that I can't find my head
My feet don't look like they're my own
I'll try and find the floor below to stand 
And I hope I reach it once again

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Look at me
You may think you see who I really am
But you'll never know
Ev'ry day
It's as if I play a part
Now I see
If a wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart

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Watchin' lovers walkin'
Hand in hand they pass me by
Wish I was one of them
Wish I had somebody
Walkin' up beside me
Looking into my eyes at night
I want a love to call my own
I want someone that I can hold
Want someone wanting me
Wanna feel how it feels to be
Somebody's somebody
Someone's someone
Some sweet lover's lover

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So - What am I not supposed to have an opinion
Should I keep quiet just because I'm a woman
Call me bitch cause I speak what's on my mind
Guess it's easier for you to swallow if I sat and smiled
When a female fires back suddenly big talker dont know how to act

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Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you look outside look inside to your soul

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Are you even tryin to mess with me?
Fool you don't know what you're getting into
Living in your little ignorant world
I pity you
I may be small
I admit I dont know all
But I have quiet confidence
Wisdom revealed to me
From the One up above
So don't event try
Fool

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Yearning for someone to love you
For the Person you are within
Thinking not a soul does
When you do have the love of one
If you look around you will see
I am that person
That loves you for who you are

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Swallowed up in the sound of my screaming
Cannot cease for the fear of silent nights
Oh how I long for the deep-sleep dreaming
The goddess of imaginary life
In my field of paper flowers
And candied clouds of lullabies
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple skies fly over me

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how can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I’ve become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold 
until you find it there and lead it back home

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Certainly not me
Certainly not me
'Cause baby personally
I like to be challenged mentally
I've heard it all before
Gangsta's pimps and whores
Quality is poor
A girl like me needs more

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Can you see
The honest questions in my heart this hour
I am opening like a flower
To the rain
And do you know the silent sorrows of a
Never ending journey through the pain

Do you see a brighter day for me
Another day
A day
Do you wonder whats in store for me
The cure for me
The way
Oh look down and see the tears I've cried
The lives I've lived
The deaths I've died
Would you die them too
And all for me

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If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings 
But I know you are here with me now
We’ll make it through 
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

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If you're lonely
And need a friend
And troubles seem like
They never end
Just remember
To keep the faith
And love will be there
To light the way

Anytime you need a friend
I will be here
You'll never be alone again
So don't you fear
Even if you're miles away
I'm by your side
So don't you ever be lonely

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Your face 
It holds 
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice
It chased away
All of the sanity in me
These wounds wont seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There is just too much that time cannot erase

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