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When Nothing Matters



My name is Tika Deslauriers.  I'm 18 years old and live in a quiet town in northern Ontario.  I have 2 sisters and both parents which I love very much.  My family is a important part of my life. 

In may 2002, I got diagnosed with Bipolar disorder.  It was a total shock.  I knew there was something wrong with me.  Although it was a shock, it was also a relief.  I got hospitalized at Sudbury Algoma Hospital and started medications and psychotherapy.  I stayed there 3 months.  It wasn't my first hospital stay because of that.  I had previously made 3 suicide attempts and had bouts of severe depression or extreme energy and grandiose since I was a kid.  I lost almost all my friends because of my weird personality.  I was snob, didn't want to go out, lazy and weird at times.  It wasn't my fault, it's the disorder I have that made me like that.  Some people think I'm crazy because I was hospitalized in a psychiatric hospital.  Psychiatric hospitals are not like on tv.   Some understand me and my disorder, but most doesn't.

When I was really sick, I realized that I had really special friends and I started to believe in angels.  My angel is the one that kept me alive by putting my special friends in my life.  I feel like I have a destiny in life.  I believe that I need to inform and make understand people about mental illnesses.  I started already by making a web site called "Bright Night, Dark days" and now I want to write a autobiography.

The following chapters will go into details of the first 18 years of my life.

Thank you,



I haven't finished writting it all yet, but I will put the drafts I made already. More will come with time.

Draft 1

Draft 2

Draft 3

Draft 4

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