To Wonder......To Hope......To Dream...... Open your Mind Free your Body Feel my Soul Touch your Heart Whenever you need me...... Just whisper my name in your heart and I will be there. I am lost in a Dream If you should find me Please don't wake me but, Enter my dream with me Join me As we walk.... Hand in hand. Underneath It All Underneath my exterior Underneath my clothes Underneath my words A Special Person Grows. I may not be beautiful My clothes may not be the best My words may not always be kind But, I am as good as the rest. If you look Underneath it All You will know its true You will see the beauty inside and Understand me too. Untitled My pain cuts through me Slicing through my flesh, burning Lusting on the rich red sweetness ebbing from me to quench its desire. The hotness trails erotically to the middle of my soul I writhe with pain but, yet, there is so much pleasure I am being taken away Away from all the filth that binds me All the dark memories coursing through my mind are draining from me as my heart grows faint. With each beat, I am being purified and made whole I close my eyes and bask in the natural high being played out. Never being loved or missed matters not anymore Erratic Rhythms.....Shallow Breaths The answer was so simple how could I not see EXHALE I am at peace. ~~~Love~~~ Have you forgotten me? I brought myself to you but, were never recognized. I longed for you but, You seemed to turn your back in my greatest hour of need Always seem to be hiding and I could not find you Always running, Knowing I could not catch up. When I got close and started to bask in your warm inviting existance You changed direction....leaving me in coldness. You haunt my memories as if to say "Look I was always there," but, were back in shadows hiding, and sometimes being a cruel joke. You have not given Nor taught me anything I don't know why I long for you so desperately. I need to feel you Mind.........Body..........and Soul......but, If only you can be true and unconditional. Untitled Don't ask me why Explanations of the truth are never enough They twist through your distorted mind becoming blurred of their real image. You see only what YOU see You hear only what YOU hear Nothing else matters to you You are blind to truth and vanity Your heart shadowed and black Wrongfully accusing because of the insecurities in yourself Hopelessness deems you its Prophet You love not yourself..........Nor others Only the false images you project Thoughts entwined in Vengence Never Trusting........Never Believing Downfalling the rest of your life How Sad but, Justified in your way A LIE Never Me I sit here dazed as many thoughts stagger through my mind Wondering what is right and what would be wrong I can't be ME...............Its UNACCEPTABLE.... Always on pins and needles Hoping the wound of Loneliness won't go too deep Knowing everything I want to become, be and gain but, Thats out of and far beyond reality. Self-Pity is creeping up and taking over I cannot give in but, it feels so inviting My Only Friend I am outkast Who do I have to turn to? I am nothing without having a reason I have no reason..........So I am nothing Despair has always been my one and only Few have come between but, eventually I always return It seems to be the only one to apprieciate me The one I can always count on I am so Tired Tired of fighting for the Nothingness that is my very existance Let me go to sleep and sleep forever Answering to No-One but My Own Distorted Mind ................Insanity.................. Untitled I lie alone----Pondering my uselessness My Life Despair courses through me.... like a thousand tainted bloods......gushing through my soul I am lost within myself I WANT TO DIE My mind chatters endlessly Where is my Sanity? It even despises me I CRY As tears drip I wonder Will it ever cease? What am I missing? My heart aches It beats loud and heavy in rhythm with my sobs It deafens me to a point where I go numb Is this all there is to be offered? Is this all there is to be had? Nothingness--my middle name stands between Loneliness---my first and Emptyness---My last Take me happiness....Lead me away forever I beg you Never have been............Never will be Pain is my Lover My soul-mate attached to me Draining me of all I ever want to be Whats the point? SOLITUDE---My Saviour DEATH---My Friend RELEASE ME!! Let it end Look Inside Look inside my heart and you will find ~~~A secret place~~~ Reserved for you and you alone Look inside my soul and you will feel ~~~My Love~~~ Washing in waves over every moment of our sharing Look inside my thoughts and you will see ~~~Silver Stars~~~ Dancing our names across the heavens Look inside my Life and you will know ~~~That Love~~~ Has etched your name on my very soul. Untitled My train of thought is lost through jagged curves in my minds eye I lash out and hurt those who seem to care Knowing I can lose in the struggle but, I care not Rage encases me as I remember things past I lash out and bit by bit it comes into play of losing the game All I meagerly want to stand for is unattainable I have forsaken the sacred vow of my heart and it cries out in pain Reminding me of what it feels I am lost trying to find my way Constant rejection and humility beat me down I lie there breathless afraid to get up Tired of getting up Solitude encases and is suffocating me drawing out my gasps of meager breath Living on its own sickening high of my heartache I wither in agony So much pain has crushed all emotion that I once knew I am but a shell My heart is dead Lost in the blackness of loneliness and despair. HIM He walks toward me Perfect in every aspect I see I gaze longingly upon his beautiful form His black hair, his strong hands, His muscular legs, He is gorgeous! He looks around and catches my longing gaze and acknowledges it with acceptance. I smile and turn my head as if I am a school girl flirting with her first love. I wish he knew the thoughts tearing through my mind Uninhibited passions rise within me I blush He walks away from me now I follow his every move Never taking my eyes from him Wishing that one day I may indulge myself in such perfection He is gone-though the imprint of him remains in my mind Forever etched there As a reminder of what savouring life is all about. Shattered Mirrors Mirrors are reflections Of who you really are And what other people see of you admired from afar. Mirrors are reflections Of who you appear to be Your appearance is the only thing That other people see. So is it fair to judge someone by only what you see? Or instead to shatter mirrors and look inside of me. Untitled As I sit alone I watch the raindrops fall upon my windowpane The tears fall slowly down my cheeks With every rock of my chair I can feel the minutes of my life as they slip away Will I always be alone here? Is there no one out there who would love me? Untitled As I lie here facing the empty space beside me My thoughts drift to you A longing begins to stir within me A longing for your warm embrace The sweetest touch imaginable To be felt upon my skin I close my eyes and smile I SLEEP I dream of an angel ascending down Wrapping its wings around me Its very essence is like nothing I've known So sweet, so inviting, so soothing, I become dizzy with bliss and rest my head upon its shoulder I lie there basking in the strength and security of this heaven sent wonder Allowing my heart to be taken I cherish the serenity I feel and tuck it away as if hiding my greatest treasure I look up to see the one who offers so much To see my guardian, my love, To see the one that is True I AWAKE and my thoughts are of you. NEXT
