Comments from the one the only, Marissa.Ya know I was just bored one day and needed a little project, well here it is...this is a reminder to Steven so that you NEVER forget how I feel about you! So if you someday start to wonder, all you have to do is come to GeoShities because you know I'm not smart enough to use angelfire, and there it is all there for you to read...and I don't even have to be online, I love technology. And I'm currently fighting with you huh go figure, I have to urge to stop this right now but I won't cuz I'm kind and generous COUGH COUGH AHEM.

Well I'm sorry I'm such a bitch to you. It seems like everyday. I have something shitty to say to you. And it always seem that I have to keep shit stirred up. No matter who in concerns. I just do. But you don't even know the half of how I feel about you. Everyday I want to talk to  you no matter what. I can be in a shitty ass mood and all you have to do is send me one of your little paragraphs and its like in an instant, it completely flips my attitude around. Smile? I smile constantly because of you people think there is something wrong with me cuz I smile so much. I think about you most of the time. I think about everything about you I can't seem to get away from you not that I want to but you just have an effect on me that I can't seem to resist anymore. You have this way about you that I can't quite put my finger on but I can have everything be wrong, but when I talk to you it all just goes away. Like they all vanish between the begining of the conversation to the end, and at the end I'm still extremely happy because I got to hear every thing you had to say. And every thing you say is just the absolute best to me. I Can't tell you how much you matter to me because you do. ALOT and everytime I'm a bitch to you I think okay I really shouldn't be a bitch because I love you..now like I said you don't know the half of how I feel about you. I don't like to tell you because I'm shy, about shit like that but I also figure I shouldn't hold them back..The fact that I love you to death is a big deal and i THINK you should know about it. I would do practically anything for you I would give any thing for you. If I had to walk out of my house right now, and I had to choose to be rich and unhappy or to have all the headaches in the world, live in a shack and have one of the worst lives but i would be with you I would go with you. Because I love you and I don't think that I could live knowing that you are out there in this world but I'm not with you and I can't talk to you, it would kill me. I can't go hardly a day with out you. You don't even know. Like when the day when I had to work and I didn't think I was going to be able to talk to you it drove me insane I couldn't fall asleep all I did was lay there and think about how I didn't get to talk to you and it made me extremely sad. Like  sad enough I could cry. So I stayed up til you got on even if I could only tell you that I loved you it made all the difference in the world because I just could talk to you for one minute.. Everyday is so much better when I know I can talk to you. I can't wait to get out of work so I can come home and talk to you, it makes my day sooooo much better. Because damn it Steven I LOVE YOU.

awww I can't resist it any more, as much as I try I can't. Like there is steel covering my heart, i mean nothing is getting through to it, but you, you seem to be just melting that steel like butter, I don't know why but you do. I try to resist some of the stuff you say because I don't want to be all caught up in you but I'm tired of resisting it, and I can't n e more

Why you're special, you're special because you care about ME and you let it show. Also because you're sincere, and always nice to me minus the time you hung up on me and called me a bitch. Damn you I know you did not fall asleep on the damn phone.

Yes you touch my heart. very much so how I don't know cuz I haven't let anyone in but you managed to slide right in.. and just spread joy through out my life. lol You take my breath away with stuff you say sometimes, but you also make me overly happy with most of the things you say to me, you put a smile on my face from ear to ear everyday.

Steven- I'm really sorry I shouldn't have even sent you this. But I did.And since I did. I know that I have only known you for like 2 weeks but I feel like the other day I wasn't going to open up to you.I wasn't going to let you any where near what really happened and how I really felt, but I did. I don't know why. But I did. I also told myself that I wouldn't get attached to someone 552 miles away from me, but so much for that because I did..and I still am. Because your funny, and really sweet. And when you think i don't believe what you're saying. I do. I just have a hard time believing that you can feel that way in two weeks. but I love you right now, I really do.

My question to you is and this is why this song is in my info on aim: Can you help me remember how to smile  Make it somehow all seem worthwhile? ehem! In the earlier days like before I met you, I had only read your info. And you know what I thought about you then, it was like Oh my god what an asshole. Then One day _____ IM'd me and asked me if I wanted to co own a fed. And when I seen your sn pop up I was like Good lord not him. And for about 3 days I couldn't stand you and on the fourth day its like you completely changed. And I really liked you. Skipping ahead, when I got home from work on March 6th and read my e-mail, I was sooooooo happy that you really liked me. For the first month or so I just thought it was that we liked eachother it wasn't love for me at that time, or atleast I didn't know it was. And when we fought I started crying and its like I'd never cry not over a guy atleast. And I realized then that it was more then just me liking someone. It was like a feeling I'd never had before. I figured out that everyone else, was just an infatuation. I really love you. Its a great love its not just puppy love. When I think about you I get a big smile on my face and I just wanna jump around screaming like a spaz. It gives me this fuzzy feeling, and I get butterflies. I think about you all the time. Thats no lie! I think about you constantly. I'm always off in my own little world with you. I'm always thinking about whats going to become of us, and I feel like its gonna be good no matter what. I think you brought out my heart, because I had a wall up, even though I sometimes have one still, I was so scared to be hurt by you. You brought my heart out how I don't know. But its like little things will make me cry, like movies. I will bawl my eyes out over a movie, and before it was like hahaha poor bastard kind of thing. Just the littlest things make me cry. Before I was hellbent. There wasn't anything that could make me cry. And its you I know its you. Your the only thing thats changed in my life. You are the one that can bring everything out on the table because I trust you, I feel like with a little effort and some encouragement I could tell you anything. I love you so much, because you're the one that even though you came in my life after I left school I feel like you're the only one who didn't abandon me. Its hard for me to say this kind of thing, but you and your sister are the only friends I have. Everyone else don't even acknowledge my presence.I thank you for that. I feel like when I hit a bump in the road you'll be here to guide me around it, and its a good thing to have. I just feel like you'll be here for me no matter what. Even when life sucks its like I can turn to you.I have these feelings for you that I never want to fade because you're everything I could ask for, you answered all my preferences perfect. Its funny because I was really looking for a boyfriend and hard I wanted one so bad. And I finally gave up, and suddenly like 3 months later you popped up. And I never want you to go away, my love for you is soooooooo great, like when you get mad at me for not talking I feel like crying cuz I wanna talk to you I just don't know what to say. I know its spazing but its intense. Everything I feel for you is to the extreme. I just smile everytime I see you online or when I think about you, I smile so much because of you and with out you I wouldn't be here.WOULDN'T BE HERE and thats a promise. I was so close you don't even realize. You made me see that people do care about me. I can't never thank you enough for that. Like I said in my letter you're it for me, if you wanted to be married right now, I'd say yes in a heartbeat with out thinking. I know I said maybe on the phone but I was just pulling your chain. :) you know me. I love you so much you don't even know I can't express it better then those three words, I'll just have to show you one day.