We were two hearts
Billowing the same tune
Of aching and longing
For more than we had.

Though our bodies spoke volumes,
Those words we didn't say.
And closer we grew,
Always yearning for more.

Our hearts leapt with joy,
New excitement we'd found.
And yet the restraint
Because of those that we had.

Then where did you go?
Your heart turned away.
Have your eyes found another
In this forbidden realm?

Did I mean so little?
Had your feelings no depth?
To casually abandon me,
Leaving me worse than before.

Now can I look into your eyes
Without longing for your touch?
No, I'll walk away, too,
For I'd be a fool to stay.

Yet, my heart still will yearn
For what might have been
Had our hearts been free
To explore the unknown.

--Bathsheba
10/01

Just You And I
We're surrounded by people,
And yet there's just you and I.
A shared glance
From across the room
Sets my heart pounding,
Raging with excitement,
Yearning to know you more.
That look in your eyes
Reveals your shared desire.
Your voice has become quiet now.
The revelation of hidden desires
Has left us anxious and confused.
Dare we pursue more?
Or settle for what has been?
My heart cries out for you.
But we've both so much at stake.
If only there was just you and I.
To be rid of the guilt
And the feelings of rejection
During times when you pull away.
So many unfulfilled fantasies
While yearning to melt into your arms.
If only we could see ahead
To know where this should lead.
And now another sleepless night
As I yearn for definition to this.
And how can we make this right
Amidst all the guilt and shame?
What can the future hold for us?
Should we give into this caring turned passion?
And gaze deeply into each other's eyes,
Realizing our shared desires,
As our bodies melt into oneness?
Or shall we again sadly walk away
Without fully realizing
The depths of our desires?
If only there was just you and I.

--Bathsheba
03/02

All Of You
When our eyes meet, I am entranced.
Each movement of your mouth
Intensifies my longing
For our lips to playfully touch.
The strength, yet gentleness of your hands,
The manliness of your broad shoulders.
And I long to melt into your chest,
Enfolded in your arms.
Intently I listen for your voice,
As it sends chills through my spine.
A playful laugh
With dancing eyes,
Reveals your heart longs, too.
My heart is captured
By a moment of shared passion.
And I yearn to touch
The depths of your soul,
To entwine yours with mine.
Beyond the passion,
Beyond the desire,
To make a spiritual connection
That will withstand the storms of time.
I yearn to know all of you--
The deepest yearnings of your soul,
Where you've been and where you're going.
I want to share all that you are,
To share your hopes,
To share your dreams.
Beyond the confusion
Of what should be,
Beyond the reality
Of what is,
I want all of you
And I want us.
Some day,
Some way,
Some how.

--Bathsheba
03/03

Abandoned
My world was dark--
Too many broken promises--
Lost, alone, without hope,
Abandoned.
And there you were
With light in your eyes
Seemingly captivated by me.
And my heart danced
And there was light
And there was hope.
I felt alive again--
Wanted, desired, with worth.
And for awhile there was joy.
But now your interest has waned.
Finding less time for me.
And again I feel lost, alone, without hope,
Abandoned.
To love is not enough
Without being loved in return.
And who will I laugh with now?
Who will share my tears?
And why am I never good enough--
A winner, the prize, special?
Have I any worth at all?
Life means nothing without love.
Nothing else has lasting value.
And I'm such a failure at love.
Who will pick me up this time?
Or will I drown beneath these tears?
And why should I try again,
When I always seem to fail?
Left feeling lost, alone, without hope,
Abandoned.

--Bathsheba
06/02

My Lover
You brought me light,
Amidst the dark--
A warm smile,
A caring heart.

We shared secrets,
We laughed and cried--
Such precious times,
An adventurous ride.

Our bodies touched,
Our attraction grew--
Incredible sensations,
Dreams coming true.

I longed for more,
The joy that you brought--
Needing to feel special,
To feel sought.

Now I look for you,
But you?re not there--
Just an imagined voice,
My dazed stare.

Will you come back,
Is it really over?--
More shattered dreams,
Darkness to hover.

--Bathsheba
07/02

The Focus
When times arise of questioning,
The paths to take unclear.
When all that seemed so stable,
Shatters all you once held dear.
Just reach up to the heavens,
And know that God is near.
Lean upon His shoulder,
Let Him carry your every tear.
And when you feel like giving up
On all whom which you care,
Lean upon His guidance
Wisdom that will fail you ne'er.
Flirting with passion can shatter lives.
The blindness of its snare.
And aimless wandering kills the soul,
Lost in an endless stare.
But when keeping the focus on the goal,
God's Kingdom will welcome you there.

--Bathsheba
01/05

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