life is gay...but we have to live with it whether or not it's so great or just baaaaaaaaaaaaad cuz God has a plan for our lives, and whatever that plan is, no matter how bad or great life is right now, it's gonna get better. a whole lot better...x] i sound so spiritual and stuff right now...=}

omg!! i got an alert notice from my bio teacher!! augh!! i got a 14/30 on my chemistry quest, and he sent it me, my advisor, the upper school head, and upper school dean. jeez. if something happens to you, the whole school knows about it. augh. damn.

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...we have school on monday. so happy. x} sorry, but you're wrong annabell; he does like cougar. ;_; 5th period free only on monday. aw. bio lab!! AUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGH!!! ;_; I HATE BIOLOGY!!! x[

[edit]. YANKEES ROCK!!! ;]

me: what are you doing?
neha: scratching my knee
me: nice
neha: and now im gonna..steal snake and jay from you
me: ok.
me: they don't like me
neha: cuz you dot talk to them
me: yea
me: i talk to jay
me: xD
neha: i talked to jay on the bus today...
neha: *cackle*
me: you talk to him everyday
me: you're ::crosses fingers:: tight
neha: yup
neha: hes so funny!
me: i know.
me: too bad he likes someone else
me: awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
neha: yup
neha: MEE
neha: hahahhaa
me: [girl's name here]
neha: yeah, suuure
me: ask him
me: noooooooooo
neha: no
neha: i cant
me: don't just a figure of speech
me: why
neha: haha
me: oooooooooooooooooooooooh
neha: cuz then hed know for sure you like him
neha: hahah
me: he'll think you like him
neha: no, he wont
me: why not?
neha: and if he does..that doesnt really matter
neha: i dunno
neha: hes smart
me: i know

what a funny conversation!! :D 'neha is the mad crazy wicked awesome nice!' <--she made that up; not me. :P

dan kahn hit me today. he flung the bottle cap at me, and it hit me in my left earlobe!! then later, i argued with him that the earlobe is not part of the ear because he said it was, and i said that an earlobe is part of an earlobe just to argue with him. hehe. xD it was funny though. annabell and i went to chess club today to check on 'something'. it was sorta funny. anyway, if you read the conversation up there, you'll see that jay (my current crush) likes someone else, and that is why i am depressed (gary). that and the fact that *someone* can't stand me!!!

[edit]. survey...i think.
I am who i am.
I think that i am nothing.
I know love hurts.
I have nothing.
I wish to be loved.
I hate how high school works.
I miss being innocent.
I fear heartbreak.
I feel depressed.
I hear bull shit.
I wonder if i can survive in this world.
I regret that i was ever born.
I love God...
I care about nothing.
I am not who you think i am.
I cry because i am hurt.
I do not care anymore.
I never hated someone or have been hurt this much before.
I confuse everyone.
I listen to no one.
I am happy about nothing.
I expect life to go awry.
I should stop crying.
I need to forget.

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...
just a survey...that i stole from will. ^_^

if i F A L L...
would you catch me?

or would you watch me die?

» yesterday «
annabell!! you missed homecoming!! i spent the whole night with joy; i'm not saying it's a bad thing, but it was sorta boring, yet interesting. i danced. me!! and i was wearing flip-flops dancing...for two and a half hours!! you have no clue how much flips-flops hurt after a couple hours of dancing...>< by the way, jay didn't go. that just ruined most of my night. ;_; and joy dragged me all the way across the dance floor!! and people were watching!! augh. it was funny though. so lucky that i was wearing shorts underneath my skirt!! xP

» today «
life sucks. i hate you. no not you. you. 

what's wrong?
nothing.
well, something's wrong; you're not talking.
nothing's wrong. it's none of your business.
what's wrong?
NOTHING!! now leave me alone!!

yay annabell!! we're fencing!! yesh!! i'm happy for the first time today!! :D

please. help me forget.

why?
why not?
do i have to forget?
the pain is too great.
i can live with it.
can you really?
i...i don't know.
if it hurts, then it wasn't meant to be.
it...it is!
no? then, why are you crying?

annabell: hey
me: should i ask jay out?
annabell: um
me: lolz
annabell: well if it was me.. i`d want to make sure like 200% that he liked me.. and then i would
me: you like 200%'s don't you?
annabell: hahahahha
;D

club fair @ 2:45PM, 10.03.03
it was ok. but the music was loud!! augh. i couldn't hear anyone talk!! but besides the music, it was great (for a reason...mwhaha). [hey, cori, i hope you put that in your article as my quote cuz that's my quote. xP] i have to do a profile on a club, so i decided to do it on paws. it's really cool. i woulda joined but i already had four other clubs. (asian culture club, astronomy club, chess club, and s.h.a.g.) it's about animals and the environment. omg. i wanted to join so badly. i love animals, but s.h.a.g. is also about animals, and we get to work at the animal shelter as community service. yesh!! the animal shelter!! and we get t-shirts. xD chess club is so geeky!! xP i'm the only freshman girl who joined. omg, i'm such a nerd!!

here is a conversation between two people i know. it's not suppose to be funny!! it's between girl and boy, and this took place near the end of the club fair...
girl: hey!! did you join any clubs?
boy: i was in a club last year.
girl: which one?
boy: quiz bowl.
girl: i did that over the summer.
boy: oh. you must think i'm a nerd.
girl: no. i'm nerdier, since i joined the chess club!!
boy: ::smile:: my brother's in chess club. you've seen him. he has dark hair and wears glasses. or at least, he used to wear glasses.
girl: er...
boy: [name of his brother].
girl: ok. oh...ok. i gotta go before i join another club!! see ya. ::waves::
yes, i know, such creative names for my characters...and this conversation was real!! i must have surprised him...:}

no doubt about it; i'm gonna do fencing. :3 swimming is too hard; i'm gonna drown and die. i hate fridays. they suck.