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I just woke up after the birth of my baby and I was fat. Not just chubby... I was huge!!! Food was my friend. Food was my passion. Food became my addiction. I was a single parent for six years and then food became my boyfriend. Our saturday night dates consisted of a huge plate of Nachos with all the fixins, a rented movie and a huge bowl of ice cream with all the toppings for dessert.
When I met my mister fantastic I quickly lost that 67 lbs and looked and felt great!!!
When things got bad between me and mister fantastic... I gained the 67 lbs back and more. Food was my friend again... And even though me and mister fantastic have had a wonderful fulfilling 13 years together, food became my secret affair. I had an addiction that I just couldn't kick.
I joined Weight Watchers for the first time June 9th, 2003 and quit November, 2003. I was one pound from making my first 10 percent. (Can we say sabatoge ourselves much children? ) I just wasn't getting anything from the meetings. I thought support meant more that you got to talk and discuss your feelings about food and how it is effecting you, then what it turned out to be a Weight Watchers commercial for their never ending line of products the normal person can't afford. *sigh*
I then re-joined in June of 2004. It was a very difficult decision to make because I've always felt like you shouldn't have to pay money to do something it only takes common sense to do. But then again my common sense left about 70 lbs ago. My heart just wasn't in it then. I went to a few meetings. Threw money at the problem but still ate what I wanted to eat. There was a Carl's JR. burger place across from the meeting place. I would go directly there after every meeting. lol
Then in August of 2004 I found out at the age of 41 I was expecting a baby. Wow!!! huh? I actually thought I was going through menopause and was quite shocked when my doctor told me I was pregnant. I'll be honest I was scared. I had lived a lifetime in 41 years. I had raised two beautiful boys and just didn't know if I had anything left in me to give. But God comforted me and gave me such understanding of what this meant. I was not just destined to lay down and die.. I had more work ahead of me. More Joy, more love, more happiness. I quit the program and gloried in my pregnancy. Now for a food addict pregnancy is like a note from the doctor saying you can take up residence in a buffet line. lol I did okay though. I started at about 238 and when Bella was born I weighed 274 at my highest.
But out of that madness came the most wonderful gift in the world. Our baby Persephone Isabella. :-)
Ladies & Gentlemen meet the newest addition to our happy family.
Now I'm back and I've come to realize that its not a diet... its something I have to work on everyday of my life for the rest of my life. My motivation is simple. I'm 42 years older than my daughter. If I continue eating the way I am now not only will I be bed ridden and helpless as she goes through life but most likely I will die early like my mother did. Theres also the concept that I want her to have a healthy lifestyle as well. Its not a choice really. Its something I HAVE to do.
I am currently undergoing a transformation from
Before 254 pounds June of 2003
After: October, 2003 230 lbs
|Week #||Weigh In Date||Current Weight||Weeks Gain/Loss||Total Loss||LBs left to Goal (159)||BMI||Milestone/Notes|
|Jun,03||June 6,2003||254lbs||N/A||N/A||95lbs||38||Joined WW for the first time!!|
|November, 2003||Nov. 2003||230 lbs||- 1 lb||24 lbs||71 lbs||38||Quit Weight Watchers|
|Week 01||Wed. June 16, 2004||238 lbs||+ 8 lbs||N/A||79 lbs||38||Re-joined Weight Watchers!!!|
|Week 02||Sat.June 26th, 2004||237 lbs||- 1 lb||17 lbs||78 lbs||38||Really bad week.grrr @ me!|
|Week 03||Wed. June 30, 2004||239||+2 lbs||15 lbs||81 lbs||38||grrrrrrr arrrgghhhhh!!|
|Week 04||Wed July 7, 2004||239 lbs||0||15 lbs||81 lbs||38||*sigh* What can I say?|
|Week 05||Wed, July 14, 2004||237 lbs||-2 lbs||17 lbs||78 lbs||38||I'm back on track!!!|
|Week 06||Wed. July 21,2004||234 lbs||-3 lbs||20 lbs||75 lbs||38||I'm actually doing a happy dance!!|
|Week 07||Wed. July 28, 2004||232 lbs||-2 lbs||22 lbs||73 lbs||38||22lbs gone!! Whoooohooooo!!|
|Week 08||Wed. August 4, 2004||230 lbs||- 2 lbs||24 lbs||71 lbs||38||Had a bad week but still lost. Thats ok.|
|Week 09||August,2004||n/a||n/a||n/a||n/a||n/a||Quit WW to have my lil Bella!!|
|Week #||Weigh In Date||Current Weight||Weeks Gain/Loss||Total Loss||LBs left to 1st Goal (58)||BMI||Milestone/Notes|
|START||9-9-05||257 lbs||n/a||n/a||58 lbs||40.2||Re-joined WW- 3rd times a charm!!|
|Week 01||Sept.16th, 2005||248.2 lbs||-8.8 lbs||-8.8 lbs||49.2 lbs||38.9||Wow!!! Great First week!!|
|Week 02||Sept 23, 2005||246.6 lbs||-1.6 lbs||-10.4 lbs||47.6 lbs||38.5||Feeling pretty good about things!!|
|Week 03||Sept 30,2005||244.6||-2 lbs||-12.4 lbs||45.6 lbs||38.3||Making Progress!!|
|Week 04||Oct. 7,2005||245.8 lbs||+ 1.2 lbs||- 11.2 lbs||46.8 lbs||38.3||I swear it was T.O.M.!!! I excercised, I did use all my flex points this week. Next week will be better!!!!|
|Week 05||Oct 14, 2005||242.6 lbs||-3.2 lbs||-14.4 lbs||43.6 lbs||37.9||Only 3 lbs to go and I'll be in the 230's!!! Key word is EXCERCISE!!!|
|Week 06||Oct 21, 2005||241.2 lbs||- 1.4 lbs||15.8 lbs||42.2 lbs||37.8||15 lbs gone!!! I'm feeling successful and renewed in my struggle. 2 more lbs until I'm in the 230's!!!|
|Week 07||Oct 28, 2005||242 lbs||+.8 lb||-15 lbs||43 lbs||37.8||I really expected to be under 240 this week so needless to say I'm dissapointed. Happy Halloween to me huh? :-(|
|Week 08||Nov 4, 2005||238.4 lbs||-3.6 lbs||-18.6 lbs||39.4 lbs||37.3||If you could see me now you'd see a really funny happy dance. I don't know how I did it but I'm more than thrilled!!! I'm finally in the 230's!!!! Goodbye 240's!!!! I hope to NEVER see you again!!!|
|Week 09||Nov 11, 2005||239.8 lbs||+ 1.4 lbs||- 17.2 lbs||40.8 lbs||37.8||I was doing great then T.O.M showed up this week. He sucks!!! grrrrrr arrrrghhhh!!! But I'm still under 240!!! Positive self talk!!!|
|Week 10||Nov 18, 2005||237.8 lbs||-2.0 lbs||-19.2 lbs||37.4 lbs||37||Did not expect a loss but I'll take it!!!! :-)|
|Week 11||Nov 22, 2005||237.0||-.08||-20 lbs||36.6 lbs||37||Weighed in Early in the week due to the Thanksgiving Holiday. I'm thankful that I've lost 20 lbs!!!!|
|Week 12||Dec 3, 2005||240.6||+ 3.6 lbs||-16.4 lbs||40.2 lbs||38||The Holidays did me in!!! grrrrrr|
|Week 13||Dec 9, 2005||232.8||-7.8 lbs||-24.2 lbs||32.4 lbs||36.5||I didn't make my personal goal of 225 lbs, but I did lose the 3.6 lbs that I put on for Thanksgiving and lost a bit more. I'm happy about my progess. :-) I only have to lose one more pound to make my First 10 percent which I've never accomplished before. Wish me luck!!!|
|Week 14||Dec 16, 2005|
|Week 15||Dec 23, 2005|
|Week 16||Dec 30,2005|
|Week 17||Jan 6, 2006|
|Week 18||Jan 13, 2006|
|Week 19||Jan 20, 2006||Personal Goal 212 lbs!!!|