By The Grace Of God Things Happen For A Reason:
Hi, I am Connie Ortega from Las Vegas New Mexico, I am a 53-year-old Hispanic woman with three lovely children two girls and boy.
Starting with my youngest daughter Carmelita who is seven years old, and my eldest daughter Anna who is 32
years old, and my son Ernest Jr. who is 30 years old.
After losing my husband Ernest Sr., from a massive heart attack I was in a state of shock I was devastated by this terrible tragedy my husband and I were very close, most of the time we were inseparable.
With his sudden death from the (Massive Heart Attack) my world came tumbling down to a abrupt end.
I had lost all reality of life because my Ernest was gone my heart was broken into a thousands pieces, I gradually began to suffer from Anxiety and Deep Depression, it got to the point that, I did not want to comb my hair, brush my teeth, or even want to shower or to have a bath and/or even want to change my clothes.
It even got to the point that I would just set in a recliner chair day after day and drift off into outer space to be very honest and frank I was one hell of a mess. Eating every insight gaining weight and turning into a real dirty slob.
As it was planned, my little Carmelita was there for me and pulled me out of the mud (Do not take me wrong Anna and Ernest Jr. ) was there to. But to me, it seemed that my little Carmelita had the "Magic" to pull me out of the mud and slowly back to earth and reality of life.
As I begin my journey back to real life I slowly discovered the things that I was accustomed to and the things that seemed so natural I vaguely remember taken so often for granted seemed to have no importance or any meaning to me.
The reason I say this is before this all happened I was really a happy go lucky type individual although I was and I am just a plane Jane type of person I had a real strong urge for doing a variety of projects and crafts,
As I began my journey back to real life I slowly discovered the things that I was accustomed to and the things that seemed so natural I vaguely remember taken so often for granted seemed to have no importance or any meaning to me.
I once had a real strong urge for doing a variety of projects and crafts quilting, crocheting, your basic sewing and baby clothes, as well as baby doll clothes, I even had a real urge for doing plastic canvas crafts even moderate cooking and baking, plus being on my computer chatting with on line friends over the internet, but for some unknown reason all of these things I had once loved and enjoyed doing.
But my interest and desire was long gone you have to remember I still had moderate mood swings and anxiety, light to moderate and sometimes heavy depression even though I was on medication from my family physician.
As I sit and think back it was a long hard struggle from day to day many times my head was like a speedway because my body went from doing nothing to doing everything during this period my head would get dizzy and light headed, the reason being I had put on a few extra pounds as well as having high blood pressure which would keep fluctuating up-and-down on a regular basis.
