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\fs24\lang1033\langfe1033\cgrid\langnp1033\langfenp1033 {\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Unwanted Reflection\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par Fade away from my reflection, \par Into the gaping whole of my rejection, \par From the one that you stole, \par And never made correction, \par Unwanted, \par Reflection, \par \par I can see me at last, \par From my reflection, \par I don\rquote t want you to see, \par My reflection, \par Cause it\rquote s showing me me, \par It\rquote s my reflection, \par And I can\rquote t take what I see, \par In my reflection, \par Cause I don\rquote t want to be, \par Reflection, \par Just make it go away, \par \par Abyss, the kiss of death, \par With me as prince, we\rquote ll see the memories, of you, \par And me, since we got back from the moon, \par Rotted to the core, I can\rquote t take it anymore, \par Unwanted, \par Reflection, \par \par And I\rquote m unwanted, \par I don\rquote t want you to see, \par I am unwanted, \par Cause you\rquote re showing me me, \par And I\rquote m unwanted, \par And I can\rquote t take anymore, \par I am unwanted, \par Cause I don\rquote t want to be, \par Unwanted, \par Just make me go away, \par \par Right of passage, I am passing away, \par Into another place, where the angels are death, \par Parallel you\rquote ll see, when you get here someday, \par And then you\rquote ll see me, I\rquote ll be swimming away, \par Unwanted, \par Reflection, \par \par I can\rquote t see me, in my suicidal sight, \par I don\rquote t want me, and I\rquote ll never be right, \par A sin is born, living inside of me, \par Rip me apart, it\rquote ll end all pain, \par You\rquote ll see, \par Unwanted, \par Reflection, \par \par My reflection, and I\rquote ll steal it away, \par From sighted reverence, cause I don\rquote t want to stay, \par Entrenched in misery, I\rquote ll solve the mystery of death, \par And you\rquote ll see that I was right, that I fought the good fight, \par You\rquote ll see, \par Unwanted, \par Reflection, \par \par My agony, try to sear your heart out, \par My felony, shed a tear it\rquote s about\'85to start, \par Unwanted and ashamed, \par Tortured and disdained, \par Unwanted, \par Reflection, \par \par Just make me go away, \par I want to go away, \par Just make me go away, \par For good, \par \par Unwanted\'85reflection, \par Unwanted\'85reflection, yeah. \par Unwanted\'85reflection, \par Unwanted\'85reflection, yeah. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93A Thing of Dreams\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par It's all a dream, an illusionary memory passed down from, \par Na\'efve mother to na\'efve son, na\'efve dreamer to na\'efve one, \par The real are struggling with real pain, \par While the na\'efve chase their na\'efve things, \par \par It\rquote s all just as illusion, \par A dream where the false are sane, \par Where you feel no pain, \par It\rquote s all a thing of dreams, \par \par The dreamers\rquote dreams of perfection die within my heart, \par They never got a chance to start, \par And as time goes by, I am twisted by the lie, \par Of an existence disturbed by, the disparaging malevolence of all, \par But where lie should lie it doesn\rquote t, and in it\rquote s place, \par The truth is true and tears fall from all, \par As the truth sinks in and fears tear sanity to shreds, \par In absence of a steadying force, that should have been, \par The na\'efve hopes and na\'efve fears, \par That seem insignificant, now as dusk approaches, \par And the cold rain of reality beings to fall, on those who would reject the naivety, \par Without which the truth would seep and soak the weary bones, \par Of warriors against, the deafening onslaught of love, \par Destroys all that once was, \par And in this hellish place, of na\'efve and lost souls, \par The total oblivion of what looks normal, but instead, \par Is a total abomination of normality in the eyes \par Of those who see true, free of mind and free of thought, \par Don\rquote t follow each other, yet follow their heart, \par Free of naivety and ignorance, won\rquote t ever rip apart, \par \par It\rquote s all just as illusion, \par A dream where the false are sane, \par Where you feel no pain, \par It\rquote s all a thing of dreams, \par Just a thing of dreams, \par A thing of dreams. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Memories\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par I remember days when all I wanted to do was live with you, \par I remember days when all I wanted to do was die, \par I remember times that seemed to never end, \par I remember times when all I wanted to do was mend with you, \par \par In the time it takes for me to sing my song, \par I\rquote ll die a thousand deaths, \par I\rquote ll cry a thousand cries, \par I\rquote ll want it all to end, \par And it will, \par \par I remember when I wished the moment could last forever, \par I remember when I wished the moment would end, \par I remember evenings spent in loving arms, \par I remember evenings spent in tears, \par \par In the time it takes for me live my life, \par I\rquote ll never forget what I once knew, \par I\rquote ll never be one to know again, \par I\rquote ll never remember such thing, \par And I won\rquote t, \par \par I remember what I wanted from you, \par I remember what I needed from me, \par I remember all I wanted was love, \par I remember all I needed was life, \par \par In the time it takes for me to sigh another sigh, \par To remember what was lost, \par To know it\rquote s really gone, \par To feel empty, \par In the time it takes for me to move on, \par You\rquote ll move ahead of life, \par You\rquote ll move ahead with love, \par You\rquote ll find another better than me, \par And you will, \par And you will, \par ...And you will. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Faith\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par In our pleasant weather, we should be together, \par Maybe for forever, maybe for never, \par It\rquote s up to you, what should we do, \par It\rquote s up to you, I give my heart to you, \par \par Hold it tight, don\rquote t let it go, \par In my sight, I have faith, \par Togetherness comes infrequently, \par But time is nothing, \par \par Inconsider the considered, and, \par Turn the eyes upon the less foreseen, \par Might see what I see, for once, \par But you have to look, \par \par In our pleasant weather, we should be together, \par Maybe for forever, maybe for never, \par It\rquote s up to you, what should we do, \par It\rquote s up to you, I give my heart to you, \par \par Qualify, to justify, \par The lullaby, sing it all again, \par For me, I want it to be, \par Request to see, \par Your gaze lingers ahead of me, \par \par I think, of you, \par I think, you think of me too, \par Briefly in the past, I think that I can last, \par When we\rquote re together, we\rquote ll feel it all, \par \par In our pleasant weather, we should be together, \par Maybe for forever, maybe for never, \par It\rquote s up to you, what should we do, \par It\rquote s up to you, I give my heart to you, \par To you. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Believe\'94\line \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 Believe, in all that you mean to me, \par I believe, in our love, \par Believe, \par Our happiness will set us free, \par Believe, \par \par Believe, in pleasures close at hand, \par I believe, in us, \par Believe, \par That pain can be undone, \par Believe, in you and I, \par \par When your heart is close to mine, \par I find I\rquote m lost in time, \par Cause I believe, \par \par We must be, unified as one, \par We must believe, \par Do you believe, that love can be our guide, \par Do you believe, in me, \par Believe, \par \par When your heart is close to mine, \par I find I\rquote m lost in time, \par Cause I believe, \par \par If we believe, \par Together we will be, \par A glimpse of ecstasy, \par I believe, \par Believe. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Mistaken\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par Mistaken for the words at play, \par I mistook the times to be the first, \par Infact none other have been reborn to me, \par Into darkness turns away from me, \par Tragedy finds without a home in me to want more of himself, \par Outspoken of my hurt turned to hate turned to agony inplace of reason, \par Where ridicule found refuge and made its home, \par Mistaken for beauties at work I mistook the senses to be the last, \par A time when people are slaves to reason, \par When people are mistaken parts of ones come together to make a whole, \par Turn away from tragic misconceptions about the truth, \par We\rquote re home at last without a home for me, \par Try to calm the storm before it rises up to swallow whole the reason of my treason of my being, \par Cared for by tender mercies of thoughtless beings wandered from the sea to meet without a care, \par To mindlessly tear apart the fabric and weave anew, \par To create to destroy to become to toy with senseless sensible senses, \par Of the mind and heart and blood and swim in pools of wine divine, \par Mind of mistaken thoughts in mistaken minds to see the mistaken words that speak to me, \par Infact without a conscious being at present I\rquote m just mistaken. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Change of Heart\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par Hesitation strikes what it may find, \par It twists your heart just like a vine, \par Think of all you could have had, \par Think before you act like that, \par \par If the song bird wouldn\rquote t sing, \par And if the weeping willow wouldn\rquote t weep, \par Would you still feel the way you do, \par Or would you turn around like that, \par \par Majestic touches communicate, \par But are they getting through, \par Don\rquote t understand, don\rquote t understand, \par Don\rquote t understand, don\rquote t wanna know, \par \par Only pretenders wear masks, \par I couldn\rquote t see your mask of glass, \par Transparency reveals what\rquote s here, \par I see what truly resides, fear, \par \par Don\rquote t want you to, \par I want you to, \par Can\rquote t you be true, \par To yourself, \par \par Be true to me, \par You know you have me, \par I thought it was, \par Guess not, \par It\rquote s too good to be true, \par \par Majestic touches communicate, \par But are they getting through, \par Don\rquote t understand, don\rquote t understand, \par Don\rquote t understand, don\rquote t wanna know, \par Cause I don\rquote t understand, I can\rquote t understand, \par I won\rquote t understand, I don\rquote t want to know. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Marked\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par Why is it marked, \par Disembark upon your journey free, \par Please don\rquote t call me with your sorry lullabies, \par Counterproductively self-ensured, \par Who are you, \par Not recognized while I forgot, \par Forgot to save my soul, \par Couldn\rquote t bear the pain, \par Couldn\rquote t make it on another day, \par Restricted feelings are much better this way, \par And I can\rquote t let it go, \par Cannot lose control, \par Burned out holes appear in vain, \par I burnt my eyes out, \par Can\rquote t try ever to remain, \par Dissatisfied to stay the same, \par I\rquote ll alter shape and form and mind, \par I\rquote ll alter what I\rquote ve left of time, \par Shorter lengthen tear in two, \par Into a million pieces strewn across the floor, \par Pick them up and brush away, \par The dust that settled as the sun set on my restless life, \par The attic door is blown ajar, \par The ghosts that hide within have now escaped, \par They haunt my omni-presence with their shrieks of old, \par I feel ashamed as I feel cold and pain, \par Remove your ancient garments and replace them the truth, \par Replace your pain with false pleasure, \par Why is this day marked forever black. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Rhapsody of Betrayal\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par My mellon collie is revealing, unseen things step into light, \par What I\rquote ve been looking for is stealing, in a most unholy night, \par And what was done is not worth telling, it\rquote s words are deeply laced with fright, \par And there will surely be no healing, in a world that\rquote s full of spite, \par \par Your feelings are your right to have, \par But what I\rquote ve felt is none of yours, \par I can\rquote t quite put my finger on it, \par But what I know is blaspheme, \par \par My current state is most unlawful, in a state of martial law, \par My actions, governed by those unthoughtful, \par Demons hiding underneath, \par Why did you have to go and free them, why couldn\rquote t you just let them be, \par You teased them out of their dark prison, they can never be reheld, \par \par Your feelings are you right to have, \par But what I\rquote ve felt is none of yours, \par I can\rquote t quite put my finger on it, \par But what I know is blaspheme, \par \par I\rquote m all but gone now, thanks to you, \par Your actions cut me, ran me through, \par It couldn\rquote t end quite fast enough, \par Disemboweled by destiny, \par \par The flames, they make a pleasant bed, \par For me to rest my tired head, \par And ponder all of what\rquote s been said, \par And realize that I\rquote m long since dead, \par \par Your feelings are your right to have, \par But what I\rquote ve felt is none of yours, \par I can\rquote t quite put my finger on it, \par But what I know is blaspheme, \par \par My mind is now filled up with hate, \par What little help has come too late, \par I\rquote ve been struck down by my fate, \par You were the one to open the gate, \par \par I\rquote ve lost myself, I cannot find, \par The feelings that I left behind, \par I fear I\rquote ve fine\rquote ly lost my mind, \par I know I\rquote m fine\rquote ly out of time. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Night of day\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par Leaking onto thoughts unheard of in the night of day, \par And in the heart of sight you see what you want without the gaze of reality \par Why are things too much when they\rquote re easy for you \par To see possession of right is what\rquote s wrong with my mind, \par Inside the ditch beside the highway on the way to brain activity, \par Another ray of hope on clouds of rain in seas of pain and strays walk on, \par Onto kennels with vessels clutched in grasps most unwarranted much unwanted but still much needed, \par For without but within and throughout imaginary realms \par Of which we wander aimlessly towards goals unknown by consciousness \par Withheld by much of the pain of life and bliss of death and monotony of knowing, \par That your last breathe will be the best you\rquote ve ever known \par True words ring like spectral nettles stung in flesh wounds \par Tired of the hope without the help of who else would be without your knowledge, \par Unseen in the night of day. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Purple Stripes in February\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par Ask yourself a question, \par That no one understands, \par What you want, who you thought, \par That you could understand, \par \par Resolutions, purple fright, \par Consequences, you just might, \par Stay with what you feel, \par Don\rquote t overturn your ship, \par Want you to, want us too, \par Experience the pleasures of the day, \par \par Set the table, serve the food, \par Who\rquote s invited, is it you, \par But who\rquote s your date, \par Can you see him, \par Recognize, settle on your want, \par Then you\rquote ll know the way, \par \par Face the night with subtle stripes, \par Camouflage to catalogue your needs, \par Imagine you were you, in the perfect place, \par Now think of what it\rquote s like, for you, \par \par Can you answer the question, \par That no one understands, \par Who you want, what you thought, \par Could make you truly happy, \par \par Right or wrong you\rquote re always right, \par Only you know what you want, \par Can\rquote t say it wrong or do it right, \par If right is wrong, then wrong is right, \par Regret comes naturally, don\rquote t doubt your heart, \par And it\rquote ll lead you true, \par \par No less to you is what is true, \par Do what you must to save your soul, \par Would you fix your heart, remember, \par There\rquote s someone who\'85would. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Weight\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par I can see you hiding, \par All you misery enflamed, \par But can you see me wanting, \par All your misery to just fade away, \par And can you feel me trying, \par All your needs to be fulfilled, \par But will you allow me, \par All your defenses are tightly sealed away, \par \par Deeply troubled, things are heading on their way, \par Secrecy, among the darkened souls, \par Contemplating, all your righteous choices sway, \par Harmony, we were meant to be, \par Now it\rquote s gotten out of control, \par \par My feelings buried deep within, \par Shattered underneath their weight, \par They weigh me down, can\rquote t carry it, \par Can\rquote t hope to carry on, \par Can\rquote t hope, for me, \par The weight is much too strong, \par Can\rquote t hope, you\rquote ll see, \par Don\rquote t have the strength to carry on, with me, \par \par I can see you smiling, \par All this amuses even you, \par But how funny is it now, \par All my life is in your hands, \par And can you feel me dieing, \par All your needs are overshadowed, \par But will you allow me, \par To intertwine our lives, to make one, \par Underneath the weight of us. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Dirty Urgency\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par It sings its song for once to me, \par I\rquote m forsaken by my love, \par For one who wouldn\rquote t let if free, \par Tear soaked sheets, the petals fall, \par I couldn\rquote t take what I was stole, \par I couldn\rquote t keep it all, \par \par Dirty urgency abound, \par Spin my purity around, \par Confused conscious dominate, \par Flaring up within my hate, \par Waning upon my simple mind, \par Searching only for my kind, \par Pursuits have failed, shunned from the one, \par Slowly return from where I\rquote m from, \par \par Darkened days of darkened lives, \par My darkness bleeds, my darkness tries, \par Rise up against what was with me, \par Shed your cloak so you could see, \par \par It sings its heart for once I\rquote ll be, \par I\rquote m mistaken from my love, \par For one who wouldn\rquote t ever see, \par Tear soaked masses, the lovers bawl, \par I couldn\rquote t take what I was told, \par I couldn\rquote t keep it all. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Waiting For\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par Who are you waiting for, \par Wish upon a shooting star, \par Make your wish come true, \par Someone who, would make your life, complete, \par \par Remain, intact, \par Search for you, \par When you find him, \par Never let him go, \par Who are you waiting for, \par Who are you waiting, for, \par \par Simple choice, \par Know it in your heart, \par Use your voice, \par Communicate your heart, \par \par The same, a fact, \par Search for him, \par When you know him, \par Never let him go, \par Who are you waiting for, \par Who are you waiting, for, \par \par Don\rquote t wait or skip, when would you know, \par Doubt your heart, regain control, \par Scared, of wanting this, \par I\rquote m scared, of what I miss, \par \par Retain, a part of him, \par Search for your want, \par When you know your need, \par Never let him go, \par Who are you waiting for, \par Who are you waiting, for. \par }\pard \ql \li0\ri0\nowidctlpar\faauto\rin0\lin0\itap0\pararsid10690332 {\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par }\pard \qc \li0\ri0\nowidctlpar\faauto\rin0\lin0\itap0 {\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93It\rquote s Like a Bomb\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par It stands as strong, just like a bomb, \par An enigma that detonates dreams, \par The radii of former blasts, \par Mushroom into folds of glass, \par What could withstand indeed could not, \par Arrogance wrapped up in the plot, \par Feelings thrown aside at will, \par My own could not be held within, \par Mistreated such is like a sin, \par Discarded feelings, discarded minds, \par I felt at last what once was warned, \par Of the coming presence of something warm, \par The bomb with which my world would break, \par Shattered forth with such a force, \par That warmer things might just move north, \par Expanding clouds do shroud its wake, \par The coming tears fall like a flake, \par The cold wind scornfully does chill, \par My feelings sit upon the sill, \par Teetering, they fall, \par For once they might have felt it all, \par But terror rose up in the storm, \par The feelings stand, but they are worn, \par Migration from the hot to cold, \par Defeating those who once were bold, \par Turbulence brings forth the bomb, \par To threaten existence, to strike the damned, \par Fly away and land with me, \par Away from suicidal arts, \par The force from which we flee, \par Might someday come and swallow me, \par I smell it now, it\rquote s way too calm, \par There\rquote s something here, it\rquote s like a bomb. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Odds Against\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par Inside the glass bottle of our lives, \par Lies the lies that lie inside, \par Intact memories revealed, \par Within the darkness I congeal, \par \par Hollowed ground, the lovers walk, \par Blissful happiness ensues, \par Lucky people, lucky times, \par What about, those left behind, \par \par Bitterness, the time is now, \par Lay down under moon\rquote s bright glare, \par Between the pieces of the heart, \par Lies secrets torn apart, \par \par Shattering, the bottle breaks, \par I\rquote ll pick the pieces up, for your sake, \par I look and cry, I cry and look, \par The tears flow and I fall, \par \par Hollowed ground, the lovers walk, \par Blissful happiness ensues, \par Lucky people, lucky times, \par What about, those left behind, \par \par Will I stand, will I fall, \par It\rquote s not up to me, control is gone, \par Chance has lost, put down the gun, \par Avoid the torment, might find the one, \par \par Hollowed ground, the lovers walk, \par Blissful happiness ensues, \par Lucky people, lucky times, \par What about, those left behind. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Unfair\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par We\rquote re all just prisoners, in a prison of our love, \par No one can escape it, \par It\rquote ll find you soon, and it\rquote ll capture you, \par It\rquote s unpredictable, you won\rquote t keep up with it, \par \par One day \endash it\rquote ll fracture you, and next \endash it\rquote ll comfort you, \par And then \endash it\rquote ll smother you, and then find someone who, \par Won\rquote t be as good as you, and that will sadden you, \par You might even cry, you might even die, \par The world might even sigh, someone might even try, \par To rescue you from it, but they too will die, \par \par Love will envelope you, in its cover of deceitful loneliness, \par And will soon corrupt your heart, and taint your mind, \par From the divine, to the naive, \par You\rquote ll lose control, and never get it back, \par You\rquote ll spiral towards, the end of your hopeless life, \par \par One day \endash it\rquote ll fracture you, and next \endash it\rquote ll comfort you, \par And then \endash it\rquote ll smother you, and then find someone who, \par Won\rquote t be as good as you, and that will sadden you, \par You might even cry, you might even die, \par The world might even sigh, someone might even try, \par To rescue you from it, but they too will die, \par \par The loss will be, unthinkable, \par The thought will be, untreatable, \par The pain will be, unbearable, \par And then you\rquote ll curl up and die, \par \par You think you\rquote re happy now, you think you\rquote ve found the one, \par At first you might be right, you might just have some fun, \par But soon you\rquote ll realize that, that you won\rquote t last another day, \par And that you will soon pay, the ultimate price, \par \par One day \endash it\rquote ll fracture you, and next \endash it\rquote ll comfort you, \par And then \endash it\rquote ll smother you, and then find someone who, \par Won\rquote t be as good as you, and that will sadden you, \par You might even cry, you might even die, \par The world might even sigh, someone might even try, \par To rescue you from it, but they too will die, \par \par The loss will be, unthinkable, \par The thought will be, untreatable, \par The pain will be, unbearable, \par And then you\rquote ll curl up and die, \par \par \'85And then I\rquote ll curl up and die. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\cf1\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Turned Over Heartache\'94 \par }{\fs20\cf1\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par The sick and fickle will feed the masses, }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \line }{\fs20\cf1\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 The feeling once is all that passes, and, }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \line }{ \fs20\cf1\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 My innocence has been demasked, by you, }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \line }{\fs20\cf1\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 Retribution is all I\rquote m asking, }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \line }{\fs20\cf1\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 By your heart instead of lacking, when, }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \line }{\fs20\cf1\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 The time is right to take a dare, for you, }{ \fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \line \line }{\fs20\cf1\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 When your life is spent by malevolent circumstances, }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \line }{\fs20\cf1\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 All that\rquote s right will turn to wrong, }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \line }{\fs20\cf1\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 In your sight of none forgotten, }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \line }{\fs20\cf1\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 Everything will be alright, \par In turn, \par \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 Rendered weak and helpless by the, \par Velvet tease of memories reborn, when, \par Demons glimpsed by letting go, of you, \par Revitalize by bitter wishing wells, \par Sacred malus overloaded sensation, tense, \par And try to fly away and cry, without you, \par \par Without being, without soul, \par Life is spent by malevolent circumstances, \par With my heart it takes its toll, \par All that\rquote s right will turn to wrong, \par Tenderness breeds weaker minds, \par Sight of none forgotten victim, \par Blessed tidings bring more violence, \par Everything will be alright, \par Alright with silence, \par In turn, \par \par Despise the compromise of being, \par Treated so unfairly, and, \par Restless spirits dwell, inside you, \par Desperate measures only needed, \par Take my life are hold it, then, \par Choose the fate that lies in wait, with you, \par \par Tense with pain, absent name, \par My life of malevolent circumstance, \par Distinguish fact from fiction traced, \par All that\rquote s right will turn to wrong, \par Done with mortal based equations, \par Enter sights of none forgotten, \par See nor hear the last recall, \par Everything will be alright, \par In turn, \par \par Glass doors shutting silently, \par Shattered when they close, in, \par Subtle reclusive hiding spots, of you, \par Tremble beneath the glaring meadow, \par Beauty is a bane for thee, and, \par When I die you won\rquote t cry I mean nothing, consider who, \par I am. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Disgusted\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par Disgusted by the wall, \par I\rquote m disgusted by it all, \par And in your time is where it\rquote s at, \par Sympathy of the disgusted, \par If you\rquote ve had enough, \par What is one to do, \par One who is disgusted, \par Cannot help but be disgusted now, \par Cannot see the future, \par Cause I\rquote m living in the past, \par Cause I feel disgusted, \par And I feel mistrusted, yeah, \par \par Even though we feel the same, \par Despite it all, I still would call for you, \par If you want me to, \par And in, with our mighty song, \par I might feel that I might belong with you, \par If you want me to, that is, \par \par Questions can\rquote t believe, \par What it\rquote s done to me, \par I\rquote m just playing make-believe, \par Cause I know it\rquote s not the same, \par And I feel that I\rquote m insane, \par And I\rquote m feeling all my pain, \par Cause I\rquote m living in the past, \par Cause I feel disgusted, \par And I feel mistrusted now, \par \par Even though we feel the same, \par Despite it all, I still would call for you, \par If you want me to, \par And in, with our mighty song, \par I might feel that I might belong with you, \par If you want me to, that is, \par \par Nothing is important, \par Can\rquote t wait to see, \par What I want to see, \par Cause I\rquote m playing make-believe, \par And I\rquote m feeling disgusted, \par Cause I\rquote m feeling rusted out, \par And in place of time, \par I won\rquote t see my kind of day, \par And I feel disgusted, \par And I feel mistrusted, \par In our way, \par Cause I\rquote m living in the past, \par Cause I feel disgusted, \par And I feel mistrusted, yeah, \par \par Even though we feel the same, \par Despite it all, I still would call for you, \par If you want me to, \par And in, with our mighty song, \par I might feel that I might belong with you, \par If you want me to, that is, \par Cause I feel disgusted, yeah. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Let Go\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par Just hold on a little longer, \par Then I\rquote ll let go, \par Just live a little longer, \par Then I\rquote ll let go, \par And then I\rquote ll let go, \par \par I\rquote m looking for a feeling, \par My empty raincoat flapping in the cold, \par Raindrops trickling down my face, \par And then I let go, \par \par It felt like I had no where else to go, \par And then I let go, \par Into the hypnotic symbiotic ways, \par And I would die, if I had nothing else to lose, \par And then I\rquote d let go, \par Escape the surreal butterflies, \par And then I\rquote ll let go, \par Entranced at lovers\rquote simple sighs, \par And let go, \par I would let go, \par \par The vases on the table, are looking kinda pale, \par The faces in the mirror, are looking kinda stale, \par The people standing next to me seem\'85hazy, \par And then I let go, \par \par It felt as if I couldn\rquote t be apart, \par And then I let go, \par But for a single second I could feel, \par And then I let go, \par I\rquote d die if I couldn\rquote t take it anymore, \par And then I\rquote d let go, \par Until the fickle masses testify, \par And then I\rquote ll let go, \par And to the able bodies I will cry, \par And let go, \par I would let go, \par \par Tingle, jingle, \par Mingle, single, \par \'85life, \par And then I\rquote ll let go, \par \par It felt like I had no where else to go, \par And then I let go, \par Into the metamorphic harmony, \par Into the regenerative sunshine escapades, \par And then I\rquote ll let go, \par And to the beauty I would give it all, \par And then I\rquote ll let go, \par And then I let go, \par And to the one who I would fall, \par Sacrifice temptation of it all, \par And then I let go, \par I would let go, \par And let go. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Sadness\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par The hurt within your heart rings true, \par Feelings hidden deep within, \par They may not surface on their own, \par They may need coaxing from their home, \par \par The crying may not always come, \par But in your heart you know the feeling, \par When you recall the special one, \par You know she is appealing, \par \par Tears fall from the saddest eyes, \par From people who have hidden lies, \par Their one cannot be contained, \par It\rquote s almost something to despise, \par \par There are no words that can describe, \par What her presence does inside, \par But suicide is not the way, \par For her love, to be swayed, \par You hope with all your strength and might, \par That she might see you for you, \par Someone great and someone who, \par Would treat her like she\rquote s never been, \par Would make her feel like never seen, \par Like all of it is just a dream, \par But times are harsh and she won\rquote t see, \par Your gentleness and quality, \par Instead you\rquote ll be distraught with love, \par It fits around you like a glove, \par Perhaps too tight, it just may be, \par And strangle you while you\rquote re asleep, \par That would end the suffering, \par No longer would you feel the sting, \par \par The crying may not always come, \par But in your heart you know the feeling, \par When you recall the special one, \par You know she is appealing, \par \par Sad is sad, and love is love, \par It strikes you now like never was, \par But once it has you by the neck, \par It strikes you down, your neck will break. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93F}{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid10568645\charrsid15074769 uck}{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 It All\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par Wonderful streaks, feral mutant buds, \par Dark clouds, death throes, \par Wake of fire bows to you, \par \par F}{\fs20\insrsid10568645\charrsid15074769 uck}{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 the pain, don\rquote t wanna deal with it, \par Don\rquote t wanna deal with you, the pain, \par F}{\fs20\insrsid10568645\charrsid15074769 uck}{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 around with myself, \par Don\rquote t understand what I might do, \par F}{\fs20\insrsid10568645\charrsid15074769 uck}{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 it all, \par \par Drench the pain with tears of blood, \par Drench my fear with your pain, \par Retched futility reborn, \par \par F}{\fs20\insrsid10568645\charrsid15074769 uck}{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 the hurt, bow down to pain, \par Don\rquote t wanna deal with it, deal with you, \par F}{\fs20\insrsid10568645\charrsid15074769 uck}{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 strength I have in me, \par Don\rquote t understand how I feel, \par F}{\fs20\insrsid10568645\charrsid15074769 uck}{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 it all, \par \par Tired boys need rest, \par Sleep away drenched in tears, \par Die today, \par \par F}{\fs20\insrsid10568645\charrsid15074769 uck}{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 the pain, don\rquote t wanna deal with you, \par Don\rquote t want it with me, with you no more, \par F}{\fs20\insrsid10568645\charrsid15074769 uck}{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 my life, discard the waste, \par F}{\fs20\insrsid10568645\charrsid15074769 uck}{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 my pitiful, \par F}{\fs20\insrsid10568645\charrsid15074769 uck}{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 you, too. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Pneumonia\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par Destroy the deafening, \par Will the damned distraught, \par Embrace your hate to shun, \par Fuse with your pain, \par \par Withered will, weathered being, \par Catch a chill, pneumonia, \par Shiver heat, the scalding cold, \par Take a pill, pneumonia, \par \par Mucous membrane stretched too thin, \par Lies untrue remind of sin, \par Finally when you thought you\rquote d win, \par The finish line extended, \par \par Withered dieing, weathered test, \par Inside you is frying, pneumonia, \par Silver sauce, golden ruse, \par Make a will, pneumonia, \par \par Murders of the unruly kind, \par Rampant death is frightening, \par Tortured souls shriek once with pain, \par The next they lie most stilly, \par \par Withered murder, weathered suicide, \par Struggle further, pneumonia, \par Noxious beauty, livened cadaver, \par Life fulfilled, pneumonia, \par \par Pneumonia, pneumonia, \par Too strong, pneumonia, \par Pneumonia, pneumonia, \par So wrong, pneumonia, \par Pneumonia, pneumonia. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Aspirin\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par Aspirin bottle, bottled lives, \par Unscrew the top, unscrew the lies, \par Take a pill and then take nine, \par Watch the room go round and round, \par Lose your balance, hit the ground, \par Can\rquote t get up, there\rquote s too much haze, \par It\rquote s getting dark, it clouds your gaze, \par What I wanted, couldn\rquote t ask, \par Put it down, I dropped my glass, \par I wanted this, why can\rquote t you see, \par You decided my fate, you decided for me, \par I took the pills, I did the time, \par I wanted out, I want to die, \par What do you think, you hate me so, \par We fought for life, you made me go, \par You think I\rquote m bullshit, you\rquote ll never know, \par Your words my scalpel, cut my throat, \par I laugh at yours, you laugh at me, \par I didn\rquote t want you to hate me, \par I didn\rquote t want to be like this, \par The way I am, the way I miss, \par You\rquote re killing me, and you don\rquote t care, \par You make me want to fucking die, \par To end my suicidal suffering, \par The empty bottle hits the floor, \par A gentle breeze, a giant roar, \par Extinguishing my mild flicker, \par That didn\rquote t seem so hard, \par You made me cry, you made me want to die a violent death, \par Till blood gushes from my open arteries, \par Stain the lives of many, \par Revenge for lies of few, \par You don\rquote t believe I would do this, \par Observe the proof you demanded, \par Demand my life turned over, \par I will obey. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\cf1\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 "Suidycer" \line }{\fs20\cf1\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \line Kiss and kill me, \line Miss is still me, \line Hiss and spit, \line Risk is fit, \line Desire perpetuates, \line Self inflicted, \line All constricted, \line The conflicted minds, \line \line Try and find, \line Make the time, \line Set aside your life, \line Mend the wounds, \line Spite the lies, \line Fight the cries, \line And life above the pain, \line Trickery prevails, \line Smashed dreams, \line Unabashed desires, \line \line Turn around, \line Ridilen, \line Single out, \line You are bound, \line Gagged and tied, \line When you tried, \line I snickered underneath, \line Blood and tears, \line Feed the fears, \line Torture one, \line Torture all, \line Take the gun, \line End it all,}{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93The Fire Burns Bright\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par Pain pales in comparison to thee, \par Acid burns the retinas so you can\rquote t see, \par Suicidal recital igniting the hatred in me, \par Lobotomy of society tortures sanity, \par \par Visceral existence threatened by the fire, \par Set me aflame for my desire, \par Gasoline, bouncing trampoline, \par Torch the flesh of the unseen, \par \par Shattered eardrums from the screams, \par Bloodied chasm, always seems, \par A murder-suicide comparable to mine, \par A rare occurrence for you to find, \par \par Death and love and life and death, \par The cycle starts and ends, what\rquote s left, \par Can start anew in hopes of death, \par You know what\rquote s worse so avoid the middle, \par You know you should stay noncommittal, \par You know, but still you try, \par You know, but still you cry, \par You know, but still you die, \par Burn bright the fires of regret, \par \par Stab your lungs, suffocate your heart, \par Destroy your mind, burn your thoughts, \par The fire is far prettier than you, \par The fact at hand is that you knew, \par For that you are condemned to be, \par For that you should be hanged like me, \par \'85And you will. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Regret\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par A regret, ray of hope, \par None at all, in way of hope, \par Wanted more, wanted less, \par Want it all, got much less, \par \par I\rquote ll give it up, I will give in, \par I will regret the whole, \par To give to you my heart in vain, \par I gave to you my soul, \par \par Simple thought, simple want, \par Felt betrayed, and now it haunts me, \par Where did you go, where am I now, \par Never fear me, never cry, \par \par Never feel the same as me, \par \par I\rquote ll give it up, I will give in, \par I will regret the whole, \par To give to you my life in vain, \par I gave to you my soul, \par \par I regret, it\rquote s remorse, \par Something died, that made it worse, \par Filled with love, stung with hate, \par Aid is needed, close the gate, \par \par I\rquote ll give it up, I will give in, \par I will regret the whole, \par To give to you myself in vain, \par I gave to you my soul. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Spiders & Ghosts\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par I hear your cries, the crashing comes as no surprise, \par To me, now as you begin to feel, I begin to cry, \par The black spiders coming down, to drown, \par We\rquote re in the swaying sea of none, \par \par Frantically picking up the fractured pieces, \par Spiders impede in the work of many, \par Perhaps the work of none, but surely it is, \par The work of one, we\rquote ll see someday, \par \par The spacious ghosts take refuge, \par Inviting of them, the gracious hosts, \par Goodbyes take hold, never seeing fate, \par Lullabies to the weak souls, they\rquote ll alleviate the one, \par \par I know not what lies ahead, \par In the cryptic solitude of myself, \par You had a chance, now long since past, \par The spiders picked up the pieces, \par \par The intermingling of friend or foe, I should know, \par They wonder of what I speak, insanity has overcome, \par Glass shattering makes me think of what was past, \par All that\rquote s left for me to do, is what must not be done, \par \par Spiders crawling up from underneath the glass, \par Expanding influence on those without the will to, \par Seek aid in the comfort of the ghosts, \par Who permeate the existence of those still here, \par \par Night has fallen since the night began, \par Seeking out their victims without prejudice, \par Blind victims of their selves own misery, \par The ghosts of gone cannot save the helpless, \par \par Dreamers lost, with keepers of the faith, \par Their faith is gone, the spiders saw to that, \par The transparent thickness of what covered up their eyes, \par Haunting visions impair the seeing along with the sane, \par \par Creatures screaming in the night, for what they cannot have, \par Your blurred outline coaxes them to death, \par Spiders spinning in their deceit of all, \par I can\rquote t blame them now, in this overture of hate, \par \par But what can haunting do for victim of it now, \par The spiders\rquote glassy gloss shines true in darkness, \par We\rquote ve lost control of it somehow, \par The only cure for natures bane is hope\'85less. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Sleep/Dream\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par Figure eight, I\rquote m up too late, \par I\rquote m drowsy, and I am fine, \par Tired, bedtime reborn, \par Glass shutters on my wooden windows, \par And I am sleepy now, \par \par Right in front I get enough, \par To sleep and live a tired life, \par Dreams about and wake somehow, \par At once and kiss the sandman goodnight, \par \par Seventeen, sleep under the scene, \par I\rquote m drowsy, and I am fine, \par Been in bed too long, \par Got lulled by the song, and you, \par And slept too long, \par Black lights to show the way, \par Stark beacons help you stay, \par And I am sleepy now, \par \par Right in front I get enough, \par To sleep and live a tired life, \par Dreams about and wake somehow, \par At once and kiss the sandman goodnight, \par \par Trees under the ground, \par We just stand around and sleep, \par I\rquote m drowsy, and I am fine, \par Redness in the sky, \par Blue-green and yellow, cry, \par And sleep, I\rquote m tired now, \par Dreams are living how, \par We let them now, \par Cause we were tired, \par \par Right in front I get enough, \par To sleep and live a tired life, \par Dreams about and wake somehow, \par At once and kiss the sandman goodnight, \par Goodnight. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Gothia Redux\'94 \par \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 How does it feel, to never be alive, \par Living with myself, just living while I die, \par Crucified by my hope, disemboweled by my loneliness, \par I want it all to mend, I just want it all to end, \par \par The tattered fabric of my soul is forever torn, \par It\rquote s so useless to me here, \par No one will ever hear the screams of infinity, \par How could they ever see, \par It\rquote s dead within me now, that\rquote s how I\rquote m meant to be, \par The beauty within me has come to cease to be, \par It\rquote s become useless to me, I\rquote m perfectly dead, \par \par Fade into the ashes of my life, \par That herald the bleakness of my strife, \par My life of never, the oxymoronic synonym of me, \par The horrific existence, that you cannot see, \par The way this was can never be, \par My dismal future has been torn apart, \par \par And these feelings return again, comforting like an old friend, \par My inner death has come and gone, it feels like my eternal sleep, \par Your indifference has secluded me, married me with my pain, \par Your attraction is my bane, I\rquote ll never live again, \par \par There is nothing living in me, \par There is nothing more to me, \par I wish that you could see me, \par But I\rquote m invisibly damned, \par \par Fade into the ashes of my life, \par That herald the bleakness of my strife, \par My life of never, the oxymoronic synonym of me, \par The horrific existence, that you cannot see, \par The way this was can never be, \par My dismal future has been torn apart, \par \par But this is the end of the line, the fruit has withered from the vine, \par My feelings are only mine, there isn\rquote t much time, \par My time is neigh time, there is no more time, \par I\rquote m out of my mind, \par \par It\rquote s rotted and long gone, my heart has fallen from grace, \par It has been misplaced, your foolishness has lost it, \par I\rquote ll never get it back, and deep inside I don\rquote t want it, \par The abyss can gladly have it, all it\rquote s done for me, \par Is to corrupt my inner me, only I can see, \par \par There is nothing living in me, \par There is nothing more to me, \par I wish that you could see me, \par But I\rquote m invisibly damned, \par \par Fade into the ashes of my life, \par That herald the bleakness of my strife, \par My life of never, the oxymoronic synonym of me, \par The horrific existence, that you cannot see, \par The way this was can never be, \par My dismal future has been torn apart, \par By you. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Angels Bleed\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par Angels bleed, \par I saw her soul, \par It was torn and bled, \par She couldn\rquote t keep control of her mind, \par She couldn\rquote t keep me, \par Her beauty is unchanged, \par Her voice still sounds the same, \par Still as wonderful, \par The nuances of her being still mesmerize my mind, \par \par Can\rquote t replace the image, \par I can\rquote t replace the feelings, \par Can\rquote t replace the sorrow, \par I can\rquote t reduce the pain, \par \par Angels bleed, \par They struggle to stay bright, \par Wingspan envelope me, \par Singing righteously, \par Starring violently into your eyes, \par Sparkle of a tear, \par Drain my eye of emotion, \par Can\rquote t stand to witness, \par What is happening to our heaven, \par \par I can\rquote t replace the image of your soul, \par I can\rquote t replace the feeling of your heart, \par I can\rquote t replace the sorrow felt by deadening the gaping whole, \par I can\rquote t reduce the pain that I see, \par \par Angels know, \par They know they aren\rquote t perfect, \par Can\rquote t translate into words to describe, \par Won\rquote t ever make you see, \par Why they ever bleed, \par That they hurt too, \par You cannot see, \par \par She sat on her bed, \par Her head between her arms, \par She whispered like it was the end, \par Her mind was full of never ending maybes, \par Her face showed signs of struggle, \par Voice quivering she spoke, \par Clear as day and quiet as the wind on deafened ears, \par She spoke as if it was the end, \par She said lets never part, \par \par Angels, maybe bleed but not when I, \par When I put my arms around her, \par When angels begin to cry, \par Breaks your heart to see an angel, bleed, \par Caress her beauty and sing to her, \par Of feelings that would make her read your soul, \par What lies in your soul is strong enough to connect, \par To an angel, \par \par I can\rquote t replace the image burned within my heart, \par I can\rquote t replace the feelings that I feel every second of my life, \par Can\rquote t replace the sorrow that I know is needed, \par I can\rquote t reduce the pain, \par So angel make it run away, \par Please make my pain go away angel, \par \par Cause angels bleed. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93She Died\rquote \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par She died, \par Of everlasting subtle suicide, \par She died, for me, \par I cried, \par When I found her body where she lied, \par I found her where she died, \par \par All I thought of was what I would do, \par Without her, \par I knew it wasn\rquote t true, \par How could this be her body, \par How could she lie there without me by her side, \par \'85how could she die, \par \par Flowing hair along her face, \par Reminds of the grace with which she\'85, \par \par I knew, that one day I wouldn\rquote t be enough, \par Never thought that it would ever come to this, \par Why couldn\rquote t I be there where she lied, \par Why couldn\rquote t I be the one who died, \par \par And without her I don\rquote t know what I will do, \par She\rquote s all I had, it feels as if, \par We only had a few moments on this earth, \par And now it\rquote s gone, \par What will I do without her, \par \par She died, \par \par What will I do without her, \par I will\'85die. \par \line }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Rant of the Weary\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par The ruse of metal lives, \par Warped and shattered souls, \par Question gestures in the night, \par Intent on questioning the truth, \par And all for not of what we are, \par Behind the metal bars of agony, \par Give in to fatal testimony now, \par And in the end we know the truth, \par We live to love and love to die instead, \par \par Rushed into, crashed into life, \par Jumped onto, fell on a knife, \par Died without, lived without height, \par Lied in the, tried in the night, \par \par Testify to higher powers, \par Recognize that life is sour, yeah, \par And turn around to see what\rquote s left, \par For your vow of sanctity, \par What is true to you, \par Rectify the tired wrongs, \par Inject your vital serum into me, \par And know what\rquote s lost is none to you, \par Infect the treatment with the disease, \par And die, \par \par Rushed into, crashed into life, \par Jumped onto, fell on a knife, \par Died without, lived without height, \par Lied in the, tried in the night, \par \par Truths are wrong without intent, \par We cannot want with malcontent, \par We cannot need without the scent of being, \par We can\rquote t live with love, \par \par The stench of life is foul within, \par Disengage your thoughts and fly, \par What drips with blood would make me cry, \par Care without the bloodied scarves, \par And to the wind take sail, \par \par Rushed into, crashed into life, \par Jumped onto, fell on a knife, \par Died without, lived without height, \par Lied in the, tried in the night, \par \par Afflicted, and tricked renew, \par Conflicted, with slicked back hair, \par Detrimental sentimental thoughts, \par Astound the weary masses with your temperamental reasoning. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93No More\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par The ironies of pain no longer felt, \par I count the days, as tragedies being to melt away, \par I cry for one, when I cry for all, \par The strength of one, is the strength to fall, as one, \par \par Long gone those that would be true, \par The thoughts and feelings are of the few, \par Love unseen, feelings unsung, \par Blood to shed, my blood for the one, \par \par The aftertaste of love is sickening, \par True love, a memory lost in the wasteland of my life, \par Tender thoughts hold up in a dream, \par The lovely things tend to go unseen, \par \par In the past it would reside, \par The refuge for it to hide, \par Ignored, mistreated then, \par Lost things seek lost friends to comfort, \par \par Long gone those that would be true, \par The thoughts and feelings are of the few, \par Love unseen, feelings unsung, \par Blood to shed, my blood for the one, \par \par Farewell to pain and agony, \par Those I never wish to see, \par Torn from in to out to one, \par The love that\rquote s felt is the love of none. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Lying To Yourself\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par Severity dulled by hate, \par Idle bodies warm, \par Vengeful catatonic state, \par Allow mentality to morn, \par \par Rageful peons gather strength, \par Blood drips down the walls of fate, \par Pretend to understand your mind, \par Lying to yourself, \par \par Lie\'85to yourself, \par Spy\'85on yourself, \par Cry\'85to yourself, \par Die\'85in yourself, \par \par Vacate memories unwanted, \par Free your mind from troubled past, \par Placate yourself to find reward, \par Knew that it could never last. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Insignificance\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par My life is meaningless, would you miss me if I left, \par The inconsistencies that make me inconsiderately dead, \par I\rquote m already gone, you just haven\rquote t noticed, \par My insignificance overshadows my importance, \par \par And again, you overlooked my existence and emotions, \par And for, the time being I\rquote m alive and here, \par And yet, I\rquote m invisibly shrouded in the cloak that is myself, \par And I, could not help the way that I am myself, \par \par My loneliness contributes, to the sadness that clouds me, \par My sadness contributes, to the pain that kills me, \par My pain contributes, to the death that quiets me, \par My death goes unnoticed, by whose who love me, \par \par Insignificance is the ever-present ghost that haunts my existence, \par If existence is the appropriate word, under the circumstances, \par I barely have a pulse, my meager life is on life-support, \par The medics are getting ready to call my time of death, \par \par And again, you overlooked my existence and emotions, \par And for, the time being I\rquote m alive and here, \par And yet, I\rquote m invisibly shrouded in the cloak that is myself, \par And I, could not help the way that I am myself, \par \par My life is fading fast, I cannot see how this is gonna last, \par At first it was a blast, but now that I can see, \par I see that I was mistaken, no one really saw, \par Who I was, or who I had become, \par My true potential was never realized, \par And now my existence has been downsized, \par But who would shed a tear, there\rquote s nothing for me to fear, \par One moment I\rquote ll be here, and the next I simply won\rquote t, \par I know I won\rquote t be missed, I have no one to be kissed, \par My insignificance has taken care of that, goodbye, \par \par And again, you overlooked my existence and emotions, \par And for, the time being, I\rquote m alive and here, \par And yet, I\rquote m invisibly shrouded, in the cloak that is myself, \par And I, could not help, the way that I am myself, \par \par My loneliness contributes, to the sadness that clouds me, \par My sadness contributes, to the pain that kills me, \par My pain contributes, to the death that quiets me, \par My death goes unnoticed, by those who love me, \par Farewell. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Downturned Faces\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par As firestorms plunder, \par Of things you\rquote ll never see under, \par Your heart will darken, \par As your love is fading away, \par Whirl pools of sorrow, \par We are the tools of tomorrow, \par The past has cried out, \par For the persecuted souls, \par And those are, truths, \par Look for tired bodies, \par In the pile of disease, \par Innocent and sinful, \par Violent and blissful, \par All are never apart, \par In the heartache grandeur, \par And those are, truths, \par Hail pelts the bloodied battles, \par Rain soothes the soldiers with, \par Hypocritical harm, \par Angels are fallen faces, \par Death fills the open spaces, \par Know not the vile venom, \par That laces us with shame. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Oxymoron\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par Love my hate, \par Create my death, \par Leave my being, \par Destroy anew, \par \par In my life of death it\rquote s burning, \par My exorcist has come too late, \par In my dream my fate is turning, \par The reparations of destruction\rquote s bane, \par My exorcist has come and gone, \par \par Oxymoron, \par Death is life and life is death, \par \par Despise my kindness, \par Kill me dead, \par Light my fire, \par Extinguish my emptiness, \par \par Evil death, a life of love, \par None are one and one is none, \par Boys like girls and girls like death, \par It\rquote s all about the choices, \par \par Oxymoron, \par Death is life and life is death, \par \par My oxymoronic life of death, \par Twice as bad as once before, \par Struck me down while I was weakened, \par Twice as bad and getting worse, \par \par Oxymoron, \par Death is life and life is death, \par Oxymoron, \par Death is life and life is gone. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Gone\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par Gone, I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I am gone, \par I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I am gone, \par I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I am gone, \par I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I am gone, \par Nothing, the thing, \par I want, it\rquote s so hard, \par I want, I need, \par The things, are freed, \par I taste, the blood, \par I cut, my wrists, \par For all, the things, \par That kill, me now, \par I can\rquote t, I won\rquote t, \par I\rquote ll die, \par Cause I\rquote m gone, \par \par Gone, I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I am gone, \par I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I am gone, \par I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I am gone, \par I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I am gone, \par The death, the life, \par What\rquote s left, the strife, \par Of one, of all, \par The sense, the fall, \par It won\rquote t, be hard, \par For you, but what about, \par I want, I need, \par Are things, to be, \par Cause I\rquote m gone, \par \par Gone, I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I am gone, \par I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I am gone, \par I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I am gone, \par I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I am gone, \par I can, I feel, \par Nothing, for us, \par Cause it\rquote s, so hard, \par Nothing, a ring, \par A certain drink, \par Poison, I\rquote ll die, \par You won\rquote t, ever cry, \par Cause I\rquote m gone, \par Gone, I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I am gone, \par I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I am gone, \par I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I am gone, \par I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I\rquote m gone, I am gone, \par I am gone. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Fade & Go\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par Vile preciousness temptation, \par Fade away from my sight, \par Don\rquote t tempt fate, \par Fade away from me, \par \par Fade away from forgotten child, \par Trade your loneliness for hope, \par Blame the sun for illuminating you, \par Fade away from dawn, \par \par Get away, run away from heartache, \par Get away, from your life, \par Get away, run away from passion, \par Get away, from your love, \par \par Dust in dimly lit halls, \par Cry while you recall, \par Rapture\rquote s lost endure, \par Freedom from the divine, \par \par Renegade from mortal justice, \par Run away from me, \par Dealt the blow to deal, \par Crashing down around me, \par \par Get away, run away from heartache, \par Get away, from your life, \par Get away, run away from passion, \par Get away, from your love. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Mentality\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par Magic prison, simple lies, \par Troubled past, our troubled lives, \par Death to dust, relax on heroine highs, \par Fall flat to extraordinary lows, \par Die a lost love death and live no more without, \par \par Beneath trying times lies last, \par Lost moments forgotten by all save you, \par Turn around and see the moment, \par See the freeness glory be, \par Save your soul under glass tidence, \par Fly away and see, \par \par Bondage under cruel masters, \par Mental instability prevails, \par Psychopathic tendencies, \par Metaphysical rebound, \par Tear limb from limb to redundancy, \par \par Veiled attempts at sorrow longingly, \par Sail the troubled waters red, \par Mutilate existence failure, \par Treachery unsettling in the din of somber fights, \par Trickery details, \par \par Flailed resurgence powerful, \par Death stroke sets me free, \par Scream eternal scheme of life, \par Demolish sacred settled nights, \par \par Magic tries to be the answer, \par Simple cruelty sanctifies, \par Relinquish control of mental pathways, \par Strain the muscles to relieve me, \par Save me from myself. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Sanity Plead\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par I cannot keep going on, \par While you are on my mind, \par I\rquote m running out of time, \par Before I go insane, \par \par The trust I gave to you, \par Entrusted by my heart, \par Shattered, torn apart, \par I want to get it back, \par Before I go insane, \par \par My vision\rquote s blurred by a mirage, \par An angel\rquote s all I see in you, \par I know that it cannot be true, \par All the shattered feelings stay, \par They need to leave, it\rquote s too much strain, \par Before I go insane, \par \par Forward backward better times, \par All I had was on my mind, \par Were comforting when they first came, \par But now they don\rquote t cause they are tainted, \par Cleanse my soul with gentle rain, \par Before I go insane, \par I go insane. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Don\rquote t Have A Thing\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par Into the darkness, I see you a lot less\'85now, \par You were all I could see, that was all I could be, \par You were all I could have, now I don\rquote t have a thing, \par \par I don\rquote t mean, to make you feel bad, \par To make you feel sad, it wasn\rquote t your fault, \par You were all I could have, now I don\rquote t have a thing, \par \par I want what I once had, I want all that I had, \par Cause I don\rquote t have a thing, and I want what I had, \par \par I don\rquote t blaim, you did what you had\'85to do, \par What would make you, fell you have what you had, \par You were all I could have, now I don\rquote t have a thing. \par \par I don\rquote t remember, when I felt that way, \par I don\rquote t know what to say, can\rquote t say what we had, \par You were all I could have, now I don\rquote t have a thing, \par \par I want what I once had, I want all that I had, \par Cause I don\rquote t have a thing, and I want what I had, \par You were all I could have, now I don\rquote t have a thing, \par Now I don\rquote t have a thing, now I don\rquote t have a thing. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Absence\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par I see the trinity, \par The finite infinity in you, \par Specific special being, \par Beauty beyond my beyond, \par Infecting my soul with absence, \par \par You can\rquote t see what I see, \par You don\rquote t see what you are, \par None other will show you, \par Only self-serving sabotage is left, \par \par I am, I am him, \par I am imagined, \par I saw a glimpse that satisfied, \par I saw what you can\rquote t, \par \par Genius behind the cloak of pain, \par Throw away your glasses, \par Toss aside, your genocide, \par My suicide is drawn, \par And soon I will be gone, \par Can\rquote t underestimate the absence effect, \par \par Accomplishment of promises discarded, \par Favor lesser instead of greater, \par Thoughts betray detained being, \par Fly abroad, whiz past the stars, \par You might find one familiar, \par Cry, \par \par I am, I am him, \par I am imagined, \par I am a glimpse that petrified, \par I saw happiness once, \par \par Reflect upon your choices made, \par I would have stayed with you, \par Until eternity\rquote s relapse, \par Everlasting shattered glass, \par Multi-facets face none, \par Turned away from subtle shun, \par \par I am, I am him, \par I am imagined, \par I am a glimpse that rectified, \par I saw heaven, \par In the absence. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Tired, Me\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par I tire of the chore, \par That life began to bore, \par My life is such a whore, \par To me, \par \par Death to someone isn\rquote t right, \par But death to me is sometimes bright, \par I don\rquote t know how it should end, \par Do you, \par \par Weary of the fight, \par I\rquote d do it out of spite, \par I\rquote d do what I thought right, \par For me, \par \par Death is a comforting thought, \par Might hurt the ones, don\rquote t like the thought, \par But save me from my pain, \par Won\rquote t you, \par \par Defense that couldn\rquote t last, \par You know I\rquote m made of glass, \par You couldn\rquote t let me pass, \par Not me, \par \par Murder rate, a haunting date, \par The time of day is getting late, \par It\rquote s time that I might tempt my fate, \par With you, \par \par Kiss the child and bless the damned, \par My life is battered, my life was slammed, \par The flame is over, the flame was fanned, \par Towards me, forever banned, \par To me, \par For me, \par Tired, me. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Minutes\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par Minutes to live, \par Minutes of life, \par I\rquote m minutes of sadness, \par Minutes of tears, \par Minutes to go and, \par Minutes to spare, \par Minutes of heartache, \par Minutes of fear, \par Ooh oh, \par \par Ah, it\rquote s so long till I die, \par It hasn\rquote t been so long to cry, \par And since I haven\rquote t known loves leash, \par I\rquote ve had time to unleash it, yeah, \par Oh yeah, \par It\rquote s coming all undone, \par \par I\rquote m minutes from home, \par There\rquote s minutes to hide, \par Minutes away, \par I\rquote ve minutes to die, \par Minutes to pay, \par Minutes of sickness, \par Minutes of tears, \par Minutes of heartache, \par Minutes of fear, \par Ooh oh, \par \par Ah, it\rquote s so long till I die, \par It hasn\rquote t been so long to cry, \par And since I haven\rquote t known loves leash, \par I\rquote ve had time to unleash it, yeah, \par Oh yeah, \par It\rquote s coming all undone, \par \par Minutes, all I have is, \par Minutes, all I want is, \par Minutes, all I need is, \par Minutes, all I don\rquote t have, \par Minutes, it\rquote s coming all undone, \par \par Ah, it\rquote s so long till I die, \par It hasn\rquote t been so long to cry, \par And since I haven\rquote t known loves leash, \par I\rquote ve had time to unleash it, yeah, \par Oh yeah, \par It\rquote s coming all undone. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93A Schoolboy\rquote s Misery\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par Sizeable remorse for my, reflection, and my, \par Detention at your schoolhouse inside, \par Ooh, can you believe in me, \par Ooh, can you believe in, yourself, \par Sense you\rquote re not enough, and you will, \par Get enough from me, \par Ooh, can you believe, \par Oh can you believe in me, \par Ooh, oh no, \par \par Seize your emotional tether from, tonight, \par You\rquote re all the same on the inside, \par Ooh, can you believe in me, \par Ooh, can you just believe, \par Terrible traditions instill, in you, \par Break its hold now, \par Break away from you, \par Ooh, can you believe, \par Oh can you believe in me, \par Ooh, oh oh no, \par \par Ooh, oh no, \par No no, you won\rquote t, \par I know you too well, \par You can\rquote t try, \par Ooh, you can\rquote t believe, \par Oh you can\rquote t believe in me, \par Ooh, oh oh no. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Lonely Emptiness\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par Emptiness, \par Is loneliness, \par And I am so lonely, \par Lonely now, \par My emptiness, \par My loneliness, \par I\rquote m nothing less, \par Than you think of me, \par \par I am so, \par Nothing more, \par I feel no more, \par Of what you think you are, \par I am no, \par Never know, \par I feel no more, \par Nothing more, \par Of what I think you are, \par \par Barren and empty, \par Come up to meet me, \par I am so lonely, \par And you don\rquote t see me now, \par My emptiness, \par Is loneliness, \par I\rquote m nothing less, \par And I\rquote m so lonely now, \par \par I am so, \par Nothing more, \par I feel no more, \par Of what you think you are, \par I am no, \par Never know, \par I feel no more, \par Nothing more, \par Of what I think you are. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Stupid Nothing\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par Stupid nothing, \par I shall kill it, \par I shall kill it, \par I shall kill it, \par Stupid nothingness, \par I should feel it, \par I should feel it, \par I should feel it, \par I\rquote ve known it so well, \par \par Reap my reward, \par Stupid nothing, \par Eat my floating corpse, \par You\rquote re stupid nothing to me, \par Stupid nothing, \par Stupid nothing, \par \par All along the time was right, \par Stranger things are happening, \par Things are happening, \par Stranger than you\rquote d like to see, \par You don\rquote t see it coming, \par See it coming, \par The stupid nothing, \par Stupid nothing, \par \par Raw flesh wounds tear at me, \par Ripped as we walk alone, \par As we walk alone, \par Knives for eyes, \par You\rquote re skull and bones, \par You don\rquote t see me coming, \par See me coming, \par My stupid nothing, \par Stupid nothing, \par \par And, if, we try, \par Can it get by, \par Are we in your way around me, \par Am I stupid nothing, \par Stupid nothing, \par Stupid nothing, \par Stupid nothing. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Enigma on My Mind\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par There\rquote s something like a splinter in my thoughts, \par It focuses me on you, \par Your light is lighter, \par There\rquote s an aura round you, \par Your dark hair is darker, \par I\rquote d kiss you, \par \par Twice enflamed, \par Can\rquote t believe my thoughts, \par They are deceiving, \par Twice enraged, \par Can\rquote t know my thoughts, \par They are revealing, \par \par I can\rquote t figure out why you\rquote re different, \par My focus has been on you, \par You are more than you, \par I can\rquote t figure you out, \par You\rquote re more and more and more, \par I\rquote d miss you, \par \par Twice enflamed, \par Can\rquote t believe my thoughts, \par They are deceiving, \par Twice enraged, \par Can\rquote t know my thoughts, \par They are revealing, \par \par Can\rquote t do it, can\rquote t know it, \par I can\rquote t figure it out, \par I don\rquote t know myself that well anymore, \par You\rquote re my enigma, \par My unknown bead of light, \par You\rquote re more and more and more and more, \par I\rquote d kiss you at night. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93High on that Suicidal Hallucination\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par Why am I floating, \par Clouds are flying by, \par So high, \par I\rquote m so high up here, \par So high, \par You\rquote re way down, \par So down, \par Like an ant to me now, \par So down, \par \par So high, so high, so high, \par I\rquote m way up high here, \par Bye-bye, so high, I\rquote m high, \par I\rquote m floating in the clouds, \par So high, too high, \par So down, \par \par Bye-bye, \par I\rquote m so high, \par Flying among the clouds, \par Way up high here, \par So high, \par I can\rquote t see down below, \par I can\rquote t see in front of me now, \par I\rquote m so down, \par \par So high, so high, so high, \par I\rquote m way up high here, \par Bye-bye, so high, I\rquote m high, \par I\rquote m floating in the clouds, \par So high, too high, \par So down, \par \par Floating way up high here it\rquote s too hard, \par So hard for me to breathe the air I need, \par I gasp, collapse, \par Relapse into my suicidal mellon collie, \par I\rquote m so very high, I\rquote m down. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93A Grape Juice Holliday\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par Fresh blood on the door, \par Grape juice sliding down the hall, \par Your blender is spitting out raw venom at me, \par The hiss of it sparks a memory, \par A cold tension of a fight, \par That feeling that it\rquote s night but it\rquote s light outside, \par \par The blood is out the window now, \par It\rquote s dripping, always dripping, \par Drips onto my exposed skull, \par Turns into a lucky charm, \par You\rquote re so beautiful under the red glare of your sun, \par I can\rquote t believe you\rquote re bleeding, \par It makes me sick, \par \par Fucking monocle, \par Let me see the ways, \par Let me see the blood extinguishing the fire, \par Your firefighter heart, \par Let out a gasp of air as you suffocate for me, \par But mutilate my corpse, \par \par Ah, \par I wanna die, \par Underneath your cold hard grape juice, \par I\rquote m sliding down the hallway, \par Through the open doorway, \par Into the bathtub full of electricity, \par Ready with anticipation, \par Blood drips down the wall. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Minds of a Tortured Soul\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par Inside my mind is screaming, \par I hate you let me be, \par Inside my eyes are crying, \par Relax inside your aftermath, \par \par Ah, \par Let, me, down, \par Won\rquote t can\rquote t believe, \par That canopy bleeds, \par Tracing lines of silence, \par Trace my reddened incisions, \par Deeper than my heart, \par \par Treats always seem sweeter, \par I hate how you hate me, \par You seemed so much sweeter, \par Sit back and watch the red parade, \par \par Ah, \par Let, me, down, \par Won\rquote t can\rquote t believe, \par That canopy bleeds, \par Tracing lines of silence, \par Trace my reddened incisions, \par Deeper than my heart, \par So deep it hurts you, \par The ones I love won\rquote t forgive, \par Forget your tired determination at presence within, \par Inside my catastrophic mind is screaming, \par How can I hate, \par Love, \par Ah. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Poor Jenny\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par Jenny, why does she cry late at night, \par What do her bright eyes fear, \par Is she always like she is, \par Can\rquote t she drink away the pain, \par Is the pain too much for her half-empty glass heart to take, \par Where is her Romeo, \par Is he hiding underneath the truth, \par Is she afraid he might never come to her, \par Or is she scared that he might make her happy, \par \line Jenny knows she can\rquote t be happy, \par In her mind she\rquote s already gone, \par Mangled shades of rubber gray, \par Are all she seems to see, \par Her blast-furnace heart can\rquote t withstand the heat, \par It\rquote s too sweet and fragile, \par It\rquote s too much for her to take, \par \par Truth is all she\rquote s ever made of, \par She\rquote s not true to herself, \par She make-believes her life of misery, \par Place of contrary remarks that confuse her soul, \par Her alcoholic memories, \par Her mellon collie tendencies, \par That smell of fear on her breath, \par The feeling she\rquote s always know the best, \par \par Poor Jenny knew she didn\rquote t have much time, \par She had to get it out, \par That heart within her was tearing her apart, \par She couldn\rquote t take it anymore, \par She had to get it out, \par She tore herself apart. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Your Heartache\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par I see your mirage in the corner of my mind/The place where children play games of consequence/Where adolescents meet each other for the first time/Where lovers walk with each other hand in hand alone/The open space that\rquote s empty now of real things/The real things left with your presence/Now the tidence brought is from my nonsense/A simple promise made on your marvelous bedspread/To never let go of that asinine idea/The thought of perfection known without the heartache/My heart yearns for that thought of reality/I kept my promise/How bout you/Where\rquote s your heartache when it\rquote s through/I can\rquote t see it hiding anywhere/Nowhere near me/Not in my diminished line of sight to spite myself/But wherever I am/Is your heartache far behind/Is it anywhere to be found/Can I see it if just for a mere solitary second. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Give Up to the Cellophane\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par An illusion shrink-wrapped in cellophane, \par That\rquote s what I am, \par Not actually here but a murmur on your heart, \par That\rquote s what I seem to be, \par That\rquote s what I feel like when I look into your eyes, \par If I ever get the chance to, \par It\rquote s such a rare thing, \par An unexpected pleasure to see that you don\rquote t care, \par Deadening the pain with pills of constriction, \par \par Tinted glass on your limousine, \par Can\rquote t see inside your heart of glass, \par Multi-facets tint my gaze, \par It\rquote s not as I remember, \par \par At a distance, stand away, \par Put some distance between the pain, \par My perpetual plan of escape, \par I can\rquote t escape forever, \par But the pain, the pain\rquote s too much for me, \par It\rquote s too much, \par Why won\rquote t you make it go away, \par It\rquote d be so easy, \par You could do it if you tried, \par \par Tinted glass on your limousine, \par Can\rquote t see inside your heart of glass, \par Multi-facets tint my gaze, \par It\rquote s not as I remember, \par \par You don\rquote t try, I\rquote ve never seen you, \par I saw you give up for no reason, \par I saw that, it\rquote s burned into the retinas of my memory, \par I can see that moment when you failed, \par You failed me too when you failed yourself, \par I\rquote ll never forgive you. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93State of Mind\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par You can\rquote t understand the way that I work, \par It just wouldn\rquote t work out for you, \par You\rquote d be confused and dazed in my cloud of disaster, \par My illogical state of mind is more than you could handle, \par Handle with caution my emotions, \par Fragile beyond belief if you could believe, \par In my mind boggling state of mind, \par \par Backwards is how I work, \par Start with always, end with never, \par Work your way up to make-believe, \par Forsaken me for my beliefs, \par Cause I believe in you, \par \par I can\rquote t tell you how, \par Cause I don\rquote t know why, \par I don\rquote t know how to tell you, \par I don\rquote t know how to love, \par I can\rquote t find the words to say, \par What I can\rquote t help but feel, \par My menacing view of destiny, \par \par Backwards is how I work, \par Start with always, end with never, \par Work your way up to make-believe, \par Forsaken me for my beliefs, \par Cause I believe in you, \par \par Reparations for the pain I\rquote ve caused, \par Pay myself in drops of blood, \par River banks save up my payment, \par Withdraw my fool\rquote s hope in always vain, \par Notice how I\rquote ve failed to stop you, \par Failed at living without the pain, \par \par Backwards is how I work, \par Start with always, end with never, \par Work your way up to make believe, \par Forsaken me for my beliefs, \par Cause I believe in you, \par Backwards is how I work, \par Start with always, end with never, \par Work your way up to make-believe, \par Forsaken me for my beliefs, \par Cause I believe in you, \par I don\rquote t believe in my backwards world. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Known Cut\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par Mass hysteria all the time, \par Constant state of what we know, \par But what we know is not alright, \par Cause we know what\rquote s going on, \par \par It\rquote s pointless, can\rquote t change the facts, \par Cannot change, cannot change, \par We\rquote ll never really live, \par We\rquote ll surely never die, \par We\rquote re stuck, \par \par Mass marketable consensus, \par We never knew what was going on, \par Not aware of what might be going on, \par But now we see it\rquote s time to go, \par \par It\rquote s pointless, can\rquote t change the facts, \par Cannot change, cannot change, \par We\rquote ll never really live, \par We\rquote ll surely never die, \par We\rquote re stuck, \par \par Never you mind, \par We\rquote re all caught in time, \par Soon it\rquote ll run out on you, \par Cut you short of your restitution, \par Its contribution to my solution to life, \par I\rquote ll be cut soon too, \par \par It\rquote s pointless, can\rquote t change the facts, \par Cannot change, cannot change, \par We\rquote ll never really live, \par We\rquote ll surely never die, \par We\rquote re stuck, we\rquote re stuck, \par We\rquote re dead. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Crashing Down\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par Remember on your bed, \par We sat and cried, \par We knew what was happening, \par Crashing down, \par I knew the truth, \par I knew our time together was, \par Crashing down, \par You said don\rquote t worry, \par I said what\rquote s going on, \par You said don\rquote t worry, \par I said is this the last time we will be, \par Crashing down, \par Crashing down, \par Crashing down, \par Crashing down together, \par \par That night I cried, \par After I left your room, \par I said goodnight, \par You hugged me tight, \par I didn\rquote t want to let you go, \par I didn\rquote t want to stop holding you so tight, \par I didn\rquote t want to stop crying, \par That night, \par \par Remember when, \par I cried for you, \par I sat and knew things were, \par Crashing down, \par You knew what you were doing, \par I didn\rquote t have a clue, \par I wish I knew things were, \par Crashing down, \par You said don\rquote t worry, \par I said what\rquote s going on, \par You said don\rquote t worry, \par I said is this the last time we will be, \par Crashing down, \par Crashing down, \par Crashing down, \par Crashing down together. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Never Had to Feel\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par Type-cast in the position that I\rquote m in, \par It\rquote s destiny\rquote s misfortune that I\rquote m here, \par You don\rquote t have to live with the pain, \par You don\rquote t have to feel, \par I get no such luck, \par No such numbness to drown out my screams, \par I can still feel my heart randomly giving out, \par To your cold stare as I stand in line at the movies, \par You pretend to never see me, \par I never saw my face, \par The misfortune hidden in your cold stare, \par Petrify my beatless heart of cold marble, \par You still don\rquote t have to live with the pain, \par You never had to feel, \par All you had to do was play along, \par I dictated the level of acting, \par Set a standard with my endless love, \par You just played the game, \par You never really felt the way I deserved to be loved, \par You never had to feel for me at all. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Destiny\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par Destroy what little hesitance is left, \par Contort what\rquote s left of my security, \par Conform to what is written between the lines, \par Realize that you can\rquote t read my mind, \par Don\rquote t know what I am like, \par If I\rquote d like to live or die alone, \par Just waiting for my emptiness to catch hold, \par Death thralls envelope me in what I cannot comprehend, \par I\rquote d like for it all to bend and shape to my will, \par And then you\rquote d still want it, from it, for it, to it, \par Summit, top it, you wouldn\rquote t drop it, again, \par Sentiment not shared but once to play upon, \par And treat it like a swan with tender care and mercy, \par Shown to me, none before the time it took to change, \par And blatantly rearrange the parts and hearts of other beings, \par To your every whim, and come to him, \par Destroy another, meld with him, \par It\rquote s sin to look the way you do, \par To talk the way you talk, and act the same and act insane, \par To treat the same instead the pain took away from perfections perception, \par Incite a riot in my heart, it\rquote ll never tear apart for you, \par But did it already happen, tried to find the answer, \par There\rquote s one inside of me, delve deep to find the price, \par For admission, \par Happiness costs you dearly, \par For once I can see clearly, \par I know that I\rquote m not well, \par I\rquote m in an everlasting state of hell, \par I\rquote m to the point where I would sell my soul for just another chance at what I knew, \par I\rquote m true, \par To you, \par \par Insignia, my hemophilia, \par I can\rquote t stop bleeding, \par I cut, the fount of life begins to drain, \par And subtly my hearts is not the same, \par For you to hold, the held it loose, \par It slipped and fell, caught by a noose, \par No accident of circumstance, you threw it hard, \par It tried to bounce back, to you, \par Nothing doing where you are, \par As if there were imaginary bars, \par So hard, reduced to a trickle, \par Around you I am an icicle, \par Ridiculed and construed for falsity, \par My sanity in shards, \par Could stab myself a million times but still it would be nothing, \par Enraged by what I\rquote ve gotten, \par I\rquote ll throw the rotten core away. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Vertigo\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par Vertigo, \par Topple off, \par Teeter on the top of high, \par Crumble when you hit the low, \par Learn something you\rquote ll always know, \par Of your vertigo, \par \par Fly so high, you\rquote re like a star, \par When you wave to me from afar, \par I cry a little, knowledge known, \par Too far away from me, \par \par Cytoplasm spasm, \par I\rquote m plucked from the sky, \par You always were so high, \par And now I am so low, \par \par Vertigo, the way you seem, \par It\rquote s like a sight I\rquote ve never seen, \par Unlike you once a pleasure night, \par But now I think of you as white, \par Without the tangible color of your heart, \par Without that part, \par You\rquote re only flying, \par I had to let go, \par I can\rquote t touch the vertigo, \par \par Revolution, my pollution, \par Cause smog to smear, \par Can\rquote t see through the fear, \par Can\rquote t see you from my vertigo, \par Wonder what you\rquote re like, \par Forgotten, \par Can\rquote t will myself on anymore, \par Won\rquote t reach for that which could restore, \par I\rquote m scared of what I once let go, \par I cannot see my vertigo. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Miles Till Death\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par remorse per millennia undone without a trace of innocence underneath my simple exterior ontop of murdered souls quintessential mellon coll ie would have followed you a folly forever known since I was born in candy cane coverings without a roof to cover my empty heart my spinning head my devastated all in place of baby bluebirds sits a martyr for our own words cannibal to devour you as if you would have always knew the way we were as same as all peaceful at last we had a ball until the night of Saturday when all was fun and play till deadly sins began to form calcify onto my bones and wear away at my lonely heart till death do me part. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Till I Die\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par Control me, \par You don\rquote t know me, \par I am dieing in the light, \par My fight, \par I\rquote m losing for my cause, \par I don\rquote t remember what was, \par I don\rquote t know what is, \par Mine I worst, \par You are first and foremost, \par Prominence, \par Make you feel, \par You\rquote ll feel, for me, \par Be kind to me, \par Torture my reality, \par Till I cry, \par I won\rquote t die with love, \par March in unison, \par Walk alone, \par Mind I worst, \par You are first and foremost, \par Prominence, \par Make you feel, \par You\rquote ll feel, for me, \par Harbor my regrets, \par Tension upheaval, \par Mortify your soul, \par Consequences, \par Remove me from the fray, \par Till I die for you today, \par Mind I worst, \par You are first and foremost, \par Prominence, \par Make you feel, \par You\rquote ll feel, for me. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \'93Heartless (Angels Fallen)\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par Heartless wonder, \par What do you wonder about, \par Do you watch the clouds aloft, \par Do you care about anyone at all, \par Do you ever care about yourself, \par \par Blessed be the angels fallen over me, \par The tears are falling from their swollen eyes, \par They miss their god with hearts of gradual glass, \par They never thought he\rquote d leave them in their time of need, \par \par Heartless thunder, \par Where do your raindrops hide, \par Are they under, or are they upside down, \par Do they make it seem like it\rquote s a frown, \par Or one day would you stop in all your teardrops falling, \par Do you ever wonder, \par \par Blessed be the angels fallen over me, \par The tears are falling from their swollen eyes, \par They miss their god with hearts of gradual glass, \par They never thought he\rquote d leave them in their time of need, \par \par Heartless wonder, \par Have you ever wondered about, \par What\rquote s underneath your willow trees, \par What\rquote s hiding in the hard to reach crevasses, \par The uncharted waters of my endless heart, \par \par Blessed be the angels fallen over me, \par The tears are falling from their swollen eyes, \par They miss their god with hearts of gradual glass, \par They never thought he\rquote d leave them in their time of need, \par Blessed be the angels fallen over me, \par The tears are falling from their swollen eyes, \par }\pard \qc \li0\ri0\widctlpar\aspalpha\aspnum\faauto\adjustright\rin0\lin0\itap0\pararsid8591434 {\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 They miss their god with hearts of gradual glass, \par They never thought he\rquote d leave them in their time of need, \par Heartless wonder, \par What do you wonder about. \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par }\pard \qc \li0\ri0\widctlpar\aspalpha\aspnum\faauto\adjustright\rin0\lin0\itap0\pararsid8420581 {\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93The Infection\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par The infection is growing, \par It has me moaning why oh why, \par Why can\rquote t I die and be left alone, \par I\rquote m moaning why, please die, \par \par The infection has me, \par It\rquote s slowly taking over, \par Why can\rquote t you see the spreading, \par Are you dreading the inevitable, \par \par Oh, it\rquote s running up my arm from heroine holes, \par Oh, it\rquote s spreading to my heart where mildew grows, \par Oh why, oh why, \par Oh why do I have to live, \par Why can\rquote t the infection take what you give, \par Oh why, oh why, \par Oh why can\rquote t I die, \par Why can\rquote t the infection make you cry, \par \par The infection is overwhelming, \par It\rquote s deafening the screams are telling, \par Why can\rquote t I die and be left alone, \par It\rquote s deafening my own tears, \par \par Oh, it\rquote s running up my arm from heroine holes, \par Oh, it\rquote s spreading to my heart where mildew grows, \par Oh why, oh why, \par Oh why do I have to live, \par Why can\rquote t the infection take what you give, \par Oh why, oh why, \par Oh why can\rquote t I die, \par Why can\rquote t the infection make you cry. \par }\pard \qc \li0\ri0\widctlpar\aspalpha\aspnum\faauto\adjustright\rin0\lin0\itap0\pararsid8591434 {\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par }\pard \qc \li0\ri0\widctlpar\aspalpha\aspnum\faauto\adjustright\rin0\lin0\itap0\pararsid8420581 {\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93Never.Meant.To.Be\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par Glass tears are falling on your framework heart, \par I know it\rquote s not enough, I know it\rquote s not enough, \par How could it be enough, how could I be enough, \par I\rquote m just a simple flower, I flower for hours then I\rquote m gone, \par A memory of the past, nothing ever lasts, \par \par Really, really gone, \par No more is what is on, \par Off to save your soul in temptatious mockery, \par Tepid breeze on my empty ghost, \par Tender feelings hurt the most when they\rquote re trampled, \par Always feeling, \par Never receiving meaning, \par Always kneeling on your grave, \par Never seeing realization\rquote s end, \par \par Glacial rifts began to form and separated meant-to-be, \par Never seen I\rquote m undercover in my out-in-the-open, \par Special heart that wasn\rquote t as close as first thought, \par Your maple leaf relief from me has torn me apart,\line \par Really, really gone, \par No more is what is on, \par Off to save your soul in temptatious mockery, \par Tepid breeze on my empty ghost, \par Tender feelings hurt the most when they\rquote re trampled, \par Always feeling, \par Never receiving meaning, \par Always reeling, \par Never seeing realization\rquote s end, \par \par Teary-eyed kitty cat caressing your leg in hopes to share in that lost love, \par It\rquote s all that I can remember from that dream land, \par It\rquote s so sad how I can\rquote t remember meant-to-be, \par My umbrella is underneath my tear-soaked handkerchief, \par Your class tears of never-meant-to-be are so heavy when they hold the weight of me. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93Always and Forever\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par You can\rquote t imagine, how much I feel for you, \par How much I hurt for you, \par How much I miss you, \par \par Oh\'85always is forever, \par Forever is for never, \par I\rquote ll always feel for you, \par I\rquote ll always feel you, \par Oh\'85always is forever, \par Forever is for never, \par I\rquote ll always feel for you, \par I\rquote ll always feel you, ah, \par \par You\rquote d never know that I, \par Always want to cry, \par Sometimes I want to die, \par If only to be you, \par If only to be, ah, \par \par Oh\'85always is forever, \par Forever is for never, \par I\rquote ll always feel for you, \par I\rquote ll always feel you, \par Oh\'85always is forever, \par Forever is for never, \par I\rquote ll always feel for you, \par I\rquote ll always feel you, ah, \par \par Re, member that I, \par Loved you, and I, \par Cared so much for you, \par More than you ever knew, \par I felt so much for you, \par I\rquote ll always feel this way, \par Until the end of days, \par I\rquote ll lie within my grave, \par And always miss you, ah, \par \par Oh\'85always is forever, \par Forever is for never, \par I\rquote ll always feel for you, \par I\rquote ll always feel you, \par Oh\'85always is forever, \par Forever is for never, \par I\rquote ll always feel for you, \par I\rquote ll always feel you, \par I\rquote ll always feel, ah. \par }\pard \qc \li0\ri0\widctlpar\aspalpha\aspnum\faauto\adjustright\rin0\lin0\itap0\pararsid8591434 {\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par }\pard \qc \li0\ri0\widctlpar\aspalpha\aspnum\faauto\adjustright\rin0\lin0\itap0\pararsid8420581 {\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93Your Look\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par The way you looked at me I could tell, \par I could tell, I could, \par For good, I could tell, \par I can\rquote t distinguish bad from good, \par You looked so good, it turned out so bad, \par I couldn\rquote t tell, \par \par I couldn\rquote t tell, \par Oh well, \par \par I hate what you did, \par I hate you for it, \par I love you so, \par It seems euphoric, \par How can I still feel this way after all I\rquote ve ever felt is gone, \par You\rquote re not gone, \par \par Your eyes were so intense they could have burned me, \par They eventually did me in, \par I couldn\rquote t ever have thought it, \par How it could have been so sudden, \par I couldn\rquote t tell, \par \par I couldn\rquote t have known, \par No way to tell, \par Oh well, \par \par I hate what you did, \par I hate you for it, \par I love you so, \par It seems euphoric, \par How can I still feel this way after all I\rquote ve ever felt is gone, \par You\rquote re not gone, \par \line That day the way you looked at me I could have cried, \par You looked with so much love, \par Where did it go, \par Where did you go, \par I never knew, \par And now you\rquote re gone, \par You\rquote re still alive right here, \par \par You\rquote ll always be here, \par I haven\rquote t let you go, \par \par I hate what you did, \par I hate you for it, \par I love you so, \par It seems euphoric, \par How can I still feel this way after all I\rquote ve ever felt is gone, \par You\rquote re not gone, \par It\rquote s just me. \par }\pard \qc \li0\ri0\widctlpar\aspalpha\aspnum\faauto\adjustright\rin0\lin0\itap0\pararsid8591434 {\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par }\pard \qc \li0\ri0\widctlpar\aspalpha\aspnum\faauto\adjustright\rin0\lin0\itap0\pararsid8420581 {\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93Lovely Lonely Girl\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par Lovely girl, \par Where do you hide, \par Are you alone, \par Are you ever inside you, \par And when you go, \par And when I stay, \par What will you be, \par Will you cry for me, \par Oh no, \par \par When was it enough for you, \par When did you have enough, \par Could I have done more for you, \par Would you have loved me then, \par Could you have ever loved me, \par \par Lovely girl, \par Where are you, \par I can\rquote t find you, \par Are you even there, \par Is it possible, \par And when I\rquote m here, \par And when you\rquote re not, \par Will I cry for you, \par Oh yes, \par \par When was it enough for you, \par When did you have enough, \par Could I have done more for you, \par Would you have loved me then, \par Could you have ever loved me, \par \par You lovely girl, \par The one I hate, \par My ever-bait, \par You\rquote re tempting me again, \par Your loveliness, \par Your loneliness, \par You all around perfect figure, \par Figure out the means to transfer, \par You\rquote re perfect figure to another, \par One who\rquote s not the same but is, \par Isn\rquote t that enough, \par Oh no, \par \par When was it enough for you, \par When did you have enough, \par Could I have done more for you, \par Would you have loved me then, \par Could you have ever loved me, \par When was it enough for you, \par When did you have enough, \par Could I have done more for you, \par Would you have loved me then, \par Could you have ever loved me. \par }\pard \qc \li0\ri0\widctlpar\aspalpha\aspnum\faauto\adjustright\rin0\lin0\itap0\pararsid8591434 {\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par }\pard \qc \li0\ri0\widctlpar\aspalpha\aspnum\faauto\adjustright\rin0\lin0\itap0\pararsid8420581 {\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93That Night Before the Day\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par That first night I knew you, \par I knew you were different, \par Different from all the other girls, \par You\rquote re different, so different, \par You\rquote re not the same at all, \par You\rquote re special, especially when you smile, \par I saw that, I wanted, \par I got stuck, that night before the day, \par \par And on and on it can progress, \par Progression to the end, \par It went and went, and on and on, \par I thought and loved and looked at you, \par I saw you especially, \par \par That night when we flirted, \par Nothing thought about it, \par Later on it happened, \par And then I couldn\rquote t thinking, \par And then I couldn\rquote t stop, \par \par And on and on it can progress, \par Progression to the end, \par It went and went, and on and on, \par I thought and loved and looked at you, \par I saw you especially, \par \par I didn\rquote t think at the time, \par You would change my mind forever, \par Forever lasts a long time for me, \par For you it\rquote s only fleeting, \par For you we had a meeting caught in turbulence, \par The virtues of untouched feelings, \par Unexpressed desires, \par Unwanted reflections and feelings caught in time, \par \par And on and on it can progress, \par Progression to the end, \par It went and went, and on and on, \par I thought and loved and looked at you, \par I saw you especially, \par And on and on it can progress, \par Progression to the end, \par It went and went, and on and on, \par I thought and loved and looked at you, \par I saw you especially. \par }\pard \qc \li0\ri0\widctlpar\aspalpha\aspnum\faauto\adjustright\rin0\lin0\itap0\pararsid8591434 {\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par }\pard \qc \li0\ri0\widctlpar\aspalpha\aspnum\faauto\adjustright\rin0\lin0\itap0\pararsid8420581 {\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93Hallucination\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par You are, you are my hallucination, \par Steal my oxygen, \par Make your way into my lungs, \par Light me up with gentle buzz, \par Oh you are, you are, \par Hallucinating, yeah, \par \par LSD can\rquote t get to me, \par It\rquote s nothing in compare to you, \par Your ecstasy is multiplied, \par If I were to come down I\rquote d die, \par You are my hallucination, \par \par You are, you are my hallucination, \par Nitrogen in place of vinegar, \par Your dressing always tastes as sweet, \par As you\rquote re more than I could ever want, \par Oh no, I know, \par You\rquote re my addiction to keep me sober, \par You are, you are, hallucinating, yeah, \par \par LSD can\rquote t get to me, \par It\rquote s nothing in compare to you, \par Your ecstasy is multiplied, \par If I were to come down I\rquote d die, \par You are my hallucination, \par \par The trip is high on my brain stem, \par Electrical pulses to my heart, \par You make it beat like I\rquote m on speed, \par Ashes fall out of my mouth, \par Oh yeah, oh yeah, \par You are, you are, \par My fucked up hallucinogen, \par \par LSD can\rquote t get to me, \par It\rquote s nothing in compare to you, \par Your ecstasy is multiplied, \par If I were to come down I\rquote d die, \par You are my hallucination. \par }\pard \qc \li0\ri0\widctlpar\aspalpha\aspnum\faauto\adjustright\rin0\lin0\itap0\pararsid8591434 {\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par }\pard \qc \li0\ri0\widctlpar\aspalpha\aspnum\faauto\adjustright\rin0\lin0\itap0\pararsid8420581 {\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93If I Died\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par Would you care if I died today, \par Would you care if I died today, \par Would you care if I died today, \par Would you care if I died today for you, for you, \par \par And what would you do, \par And what would you say about me, \par What would you think, \par Would you have a quite fine day, \par \par Would you care if I died today, \par Would you care if I died today, \par Would you care if I died today, \par Would you care if I died today for you, for you, \par \par My manic depression is something to behold, \par Would you cry for me, \par Would you cry for me if I died today, \par That\rquote s my question and my answer, \par If I have to ask you won\rquote t, \par If I don\rquote t know a god damn thing you shouldn\rquote t see me living, \par \par Would you care if I died today, \par Would you care if I died today, \par Would you care if I died today, \par Would you care if I died today for you, for you, \par \par I don\rquote t even care, \par It\rquote s all just a nightmare, anyways, \par A snicker-filled mirage of me, \par That thing you see in dreams, \par \par Would you care if I died today, \par Would you care if I died today, \par Would you care if I died today, \par Would you care if I died today for you, for you, \par Would you care if I died today, \par Would you care if I died today, \par Would you care if I died today, \par Would you care if I died today for you, for you. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93Super Rebound\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par You wear your name across your chest, \par I\rquote ve found one better than the rest, \par And when I think it, \par I know I thought it, \par I never meant it, \par Now it\rquote s getting better now, \par \par I\rquote ll warm you, \par I\rquote ll make you feel, \par So much more, than you ever felt before, \par I\rquote ll be your candle, \par I\rquote ll be your ever-present friend, \par I\rquote m always willing to you, \par I\rquote ll always be there, \par \par You wear your heart on your wristband, \par I know all about your you and, \par Cause to rejoice, \par Got the invoice, \par I\rquote ve heard your voice running through my head, \par \par I\rquote ll warm you, \par I\rquote ll make you feel, \par So much more, than you ever felt before, \par I\rquote ll be your candle, \par I\rquote ll be your ever-present friend, \par I\rquote m always willing to you, \par I\rquote ll always be there, \par \par Your voice brings a smile to me, \par Thinking about all to you I see, \par And when I knew it, \par I know I thought it, \par I never meant it, \par Now it\rquote s getting better now, \par \par I\rquote ll warm you, \par I\rquote ll make you feel, \par So much more, than you ever felt before, \par I\rquote ll be your candle, \par I\rquote ll be your ever-present friend, \par I\rquote m always willing to you, \par I\rquote ll always be there. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93On Your Inside\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par Trickeries that always seem, \par To be there when you\rquote re wandering, \par Candles lit under your warmth, \par Feelings had with great remorse, \par Transmute my endangered love, \par Into something more than was, \par And when all is said and done, \par You\rquote ll know if I tried that hard, \par And you, \par \par You\rquote ll know when I am gone, \par If you want I\rquote ll stay for you, \par In-between the hurt and pain, \par There\rquote s something for me to gain, \par It\rquote s you, \par \par Tendencies for my escape, \par I will stay to stay safe, \par And when my heart\rquote s had enough, \par I\rquote ll die without remorse, \par I\rquote ll know that you were most of all, \par So good to me and beautiful, \par To stay awake is to stay sane, \par There\rquote s no reason for you to blame, \par And I, \par \par You\rquote ll know when I am gone, \par If you want I\rquote ll stay for you, \par In-between the hurt and pain, \par There\rquote s something for me to gain, \par It\rquote s you, \par \par Known all along I love you, \par It\rquote s just something I have found, \par And when I look into you, \par I know exactly what I\rquote ve found, \par And inside you I\rquote m feeling, \par I\rquote m feeling what I wanted to, \par And in you is crying, \par I\rquote m always here to comfort you, \par And you, and I, and you, and I, \par \par You\rquote ll know when I am gone, \par If you want I\rquote ll stay for you, \par In-between the hurt and pain, \par There\rquote s something for me to gain, \par It\rquote s you. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93Dreamland\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par Dream of me, \par You want to see me smiling, \par Holding your hand as we are, \par Not dieing as we\rquote re not, \par Many times are all in one, \par Your many eyes are all in mine, \par Sleep on me, \par Lay your head on me and dream, \par Of lovers lingering ahead of time, \par Between the poles of solidarity, \par Amidst the dull roar of harmony, \par Never dieing, \par But dieing for each other, \par \par Silence calls, \par Darkness falls without return, \par You know what you must learn, \par That love is sleeping, \par Sleeping on your love, \par Your love will rest the both of you tonight, \par \par Dream of me, \par You want me don\rquote t you, \par You want to hold my hand and sit alone, \par We\rquote re not alone, \par We have each other, \par Never dieing, \par But dieing for each other, \par \par Silence calls, \par Darkness falls without return, \par You know what you must learn, \par That love is sleeping, \par Sleeping on your love, \par Your love will rest the both of you tonight. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93Reflections\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par Marvel at me please, \par My words they don\rquote t speak easily, \par I rely on you for comfort, \par I rely on you to dry my tears at night, \par And where are you when I need your brightness, \par And where am I when you need me to comfort you, \par You rely on me as I rely on you to live, \par \par Minced words are murdered feelings, \par Don\rquote t confuse, don\rquote t confuse, \par I know you can be better off, \par I am much better off with you, \par \par Mask my inhibitions, \par Tidy up my messy lost conditions, \par I try to comfort you, \par I try to dry your tears alone at night, \par But where am I when I need to notice, \par And where are you when I\rquote m lonely and goodbye, \par \par Minced words are murdered feelings, \par Don\rquote t confuse, don\rquote t confuse, \par I know you can be better off, \par I am much better off with you, \par \par So tense up when you hear me, \par Don\rquote t listen when I try to dry your tears, \par Run away when I need you the most, \par Where is it that I can find your ghostly fears, \par And when will I be able to love you. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93The Eye\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par The eye, the eye is coming, \par It\rquote s coming for me, it\rquote s coming for me now, \par I didn\rquote t know about it, \par I couldn\rquote t tell you, \par I wouldn\rquote t ever have known, \par You showed me the way, \par And now the eye is coming, \par The eye is coming for me now, \par \par Radiation is me, \par Radiates within me, \par Rationale to guess me, \par Rate yourself apart, \par \par The arm is swinging for me, \par Your eyes are always in my dreams, \par And you can see, and you can tell me how, \par Do I escape, do I escape you, \par How do I get away from me, \par Running away from us, \par The eye, the eye is coming, \par The eye is coming for me now, \par \par Radiation is me, \par Radiates within me, \par Rationale to guess me, \par Rate yourself apart, \par \par The eye, the eye is coming, \par It\rquote s coming for me, coming for me yeah, \par Oh yeah, I forgot, \par To tell you, I\rquote m on my way away, \par I\rquote m running away from us, \par Your eyes are too much for me, \par Much more than I deserve, \par The eye, the eye is coming, \par The eye is coming for me now, \par \par Radiation is me, \par Radiates within me, \par Rationale to guess me, \par Rate yourself apart, \par Radiation is me, \par Radiates within me, \par Rationale to guess me, \par Rate yourself apart. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93How to Live Inside\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par I\rquote m dead inside, \par Everything I tried, \par I failed, \par Dead to dread the morning, \par Never coming into length, \par Never growing into light, \par \line My head is tied, \par Into knots I\rquote ve tried, \par I failed, \par Hate to hatred of me, \par Notice I\rquote m not here, \par Notice I\rquote m always on away, \par \par Ah, did you know me well, \par At all, did you, \par Tell me I\rquote m not well, \par And if you couldn\rquote t get a chance, \par Would you send me my last glace at charity, \par You see, the most, \par I\rquote m totally morose, \par I\rquote m so sorry you met me, \par \par I\rquote m dead inside, \par Everyone I knew they tried, \par So hard, \par I failed, \par Dead to dread the coming of the storm, \par Of normal, \par Never coming to me here, \par Never feeling up the tears, \par I\rquote m never living inside, \par \par Ah, did you know me well, \par At all, did you, \par Tell me I\rquote m not well, \par And if you couldn\rquote t get a chance, \par Would you send me my last glace at charity, \par You see, the most, \par I\rquote m totally morose, \par I\rquote m so sorry you met me. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93Destiny\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par Destroy what little hesitance is left, \par Contort what\rquote s left of my security, \par Conform to what is written between the lines, \par Realize that you can\rquote t read my mind, \par Don\rquote t know what I am like, \par If I\rquote d like to live or die alone, \par Just waiting for my emptiness to catch hold, \par Death thralls envelope me in what I cannot comprehend, \par I\rquote d like for it all to bend and shape to my will, \par And then you\rquote d still want it, from it, for it, to it, \par Summit, top it, you wouldn\rquote t drop it, again, \par Sentiment not shared but once to play upon, \par And treat it like a swan with tender care and mercy, \par Shown to me, none before the time it took to change, \par And blatantly rearrange the parts and hearts of other beings, \par To your every whim, and come to him, \par Destroy another, meld with him, \par It\rquote s sin to look the way you do, \par To talk the way you talk, and act the same and act insane, \par To treat the same instead the pain took away from perfections perception, \par Incite a riot in my heart, it\rquote ll never tear apart for you, \par But did it already happen, tried to find the answer, \par There\rquote s one inside of me, delve deep to find the price, \par For admission, \par Happiness costs you dearly, \par For once I can see clearly, \par I know that I\rquote m not well, \par I\rquote m in an everlasting state of hell, \par I\rquote m to the point where I would sell my soul for just another chance at what I knew, \par I\rquote m true, \par To you, \par \par Insignia, my hemophilia, \par I can\rquote t stop bleeding, \par I cut, the fount of life begins to drain, \par And subtly my hearts is not the same, \par For you to hold, you held it loose, \par It slipped and fell, caught by a noose, \par No accident of circumstance, you threw it hard, \par It tried to bounce back, to you, \par }\pard \qc \fi120\li0\ri0\widctlpar\aspalpha\aspnum\faauto\adjustright\rin0\lin0\itap0\pararsid8420581 {\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 Nothing doing where you are, \par As if there were imaginary bars, \par So hard, reduced to a trickle, \par Around you I am an icicle, \par Ridiculed and construed for falsity, \par My sanity in shards, \par Could stab myself a million times but still it would be nothing, \par Enraged by what I\rquote ve gotten, \par I\rquote ll throw the rotten core away. \par }\pard \qc \li0\ri0\widctlpar\aspalpha\aspnum\faauto\adjustright\rin0\lin0\itap0\pararsid8420581 {\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93Normal\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par Is it normal, or is it not the same, \par Can you feel the same, as you did before, \par Am I normal, or am I fucked up, \par Can you tell that I, don\rquote t feel the same now, \par Ripples on your hand are all I have of you, \par Can\rquote t it have been true, \par Don\rquote t you know me anymore, \par You\rquote re the only one I abhor, don\rquote t you know, \par You aren\rquote t normal, you\rquote re an abomination of a girl, \par I knew the part of you that always knew me best, \par Fuck the rest of you, \par I couldn\rquote t believe in you like I thought, \par Scars on my heart are all I have of you, \par Can\rquote t it have been true, \par Don\rquote t you know me anymore, \par You\rquote re the only one I abhor, didn\rquote t you know, \par It\rquote s my time to return to normal, \par It\rquote s your time to vanish, \par Real is normal. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93Let Me Pour\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par let me pour my heart into you/please/would you let me/ever/I\rquote m walking forever blindly/I\rquote m talking to a stranger I\rquote ve known forever/you are my cup of tea/you can rescue me from me/inside my mind you\rquote re hiding thoughts/of nothingness/of what I\rquote ve lost/you know the way I like to feel/to be alone/to be with you and just to heal/our tears merge to become a singularity/ordinarily I wouldn\rquote t want you/but you\rquote re different/you\rquote re not as you appear/specialty about you I cannot comprehend/so let me pour into you/take me all in/feel my presence take hold of your consciousness/I\rquote d like to thank you for being you \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93Sparkling Moonshine\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par If you only knew, \par That you are as beautiful as you are, \par You\rquote d be perfect, \par Why aren\rquote t you aware of the stars, \par Take off your featureless blindfold, \par Do it for me, \par Open your eyes inward, \par If you only knew, \par Sleep on your moonshine, \par I\rquote m not your only eyes, \par Take away your emptiness, \par Replace your eyes with happiness, \par Shine outward with your radiance, \par You love the way you are, \par If you saw yourself, \par You\rquote d smile. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93Darker Days Apart\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par The thoughts that I remember, \par It\rquote s seems to me a different world apart, \par It feels alien in nature, \par Unnatural to me, \par Surreal when I think that it was me, \par I don\rquote t remember how it felt, \par All I know is it scared me, \par \par Could you save me from the memories, \par It all feels dark when I remember, \par The memory is haunting, \par Haunts me in my restless sleep, \par You are you are all over me, \par Beasts of burden you\rquote re beastly in my mind, \par How could I think for just a second, \par I was any more than just a friend, \par \par The unthinkable is what I thought of, \par How can the truth be so unreal, \par Reality seems like a dream, \par I remember it like it was long ago, \par \par The thoughts that I remember, \par It\rquote s seems to me a different world apart, \par It feels alien in nature, \par Unnatural to me, \par Surreal when I think that it was me, \par I don\rquote t remember how it felt, \par All I know is it scared me. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93I\rquote m Sorry, Girl\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par If things were meant to be, \par Could you mean more to me, \par Would it feel right, right off the bat, \par Could I look at you and feel the world collapsing, \par Would it feel like I used to, \par What I\rquote m used to isn\rquote t anymore, \par \par Reject connection, \par What is more is meant to be, \par Eject correlation, \par Infuse me with your soul or leave, \par \par Why can I feel the doubts building, \par This isn\rquote t how it\rquote s meant to be, \par How can we be if I\rquote m not willing, \par Why I am or not is a mystery to me, \par You don\rquote t see cause you\rquote re blinded, \par Why am I not as blind as you, \par \par Reject connection, \par What is more is meant to be, \par Eject correlation, \par Infuse me with your soul or leave, \par \par I\rquote ve known what I should know now, \par And it\rquote s not the same, it\rquote s not the same, \par I\rquote m so sorry cause it\rquote s not the same, \par It\rquote s not your fault, \par I\rquote m all to blaim, \par I know it\rquote ll crush, I\rquote m so sorry, \par Cause it\rquote s not the same, it\rquote s not the same, \par I\rquote m so sorry. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93My Crazy\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par Ugliness is my fault of sin, \par I\rquote ve got no more to give, \par I\rquote m all spent and you\rquote re all there, \par You\rquote re so real and I\rquote m not, \par What\rquote s that tell you, \par Does it say the same thing that it says to me, \par That I\rquote m all messed up, I\rquote m not as I appear to be, \par I\rquote m not sane at all, I\rquote m insane, \par I\rquote m inane, I\rquote m crazy, \par \par The consequences of my insanity, \par You\rquote ll shatter into a million sparkling pieces, \par I\rquote ll cry cause I wasn\rquote t good enough, \par I didn\rquote t deserve the love you had bottled up inside, \par I cried and cried cause I\rquote m all messed up, I\rquote m not as I appear to be, \par I\rquote m not sane at all, I\rquote m insane, \par I\rquote m inane, I\rquote m crazy, \par \par And you, are too good, \par Too good for me to deserve, I don\rquote t, \par I\rquote m sorry, cause I\rquote m messed up, \par It\rquote s fucked up ain\rquote t it, \par I know I\rquote m not the same as that little boy, \par Sitting underneath the TV screen, \par Oblivious to what was wrong with the world, \par Not knowing what was wrong with him, \par Not realizing that one day he\rquote d be this bad, \par This messed up, he never would have guessed, \par That he\rquote d be all messed up, and not as he appeared to be, \par He\rquote s not the same anymore, I\rquote m insane, \par That little boy was me inside, \par I\rquote m not the same now, I\rquote m insane, \par I\rquote m inane, I\rquote m\'85crazy. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93Gift-Wrapped in My Sanity\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par I miss it so much, \par It\rquote s such a shame, \par Ain\rquote t it, \par You tell me, \par Cause I don\rquote t know what to tell ya, \par It seems to me, \par To seem to be a trend, \par But from what I remember, \par So far at least, \par Of what I\rquote ve known, \par So far, at least, \par \par Oh well, it\rquote s too bad, \par I\rquote m sad, oh well, \par I\rquote m not that well, \par It\rquote s mad, or maddening, \par You choose, \par \par I miss you so much, \par Happiness, \par It\rquote s not the same, \par I thought I would be, \par It ain\rquote t, \par You tell me, \par Why, \par Cause I don\rquote t know what to say, \par I\rquote m speechless all the same, \par It seems too hard, \par I\rquote m at a loss for words, \par Silence is your tidence, \par I bring it to you gift-wrapped, \par Wrapped up in my sadness, \par At least, \par \par Oh well, it\rquote s too bad, \par I\rquote m sad, oh well, \par I\rquote m not that well, \par It\rquote s mad, or maddening, \par You choose, \par \par Oh well, I\rquote m too bad, \par It\rquote s sad, oh well, \par It\rquote s not that bad, \par It\rquote s mad, or maddening, \par I\rquote m only dieing, \par Oh well, \par You\rquote re not so lucky, \par Am I. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93Blazing Disfigurement\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par I\rquote m hallucinating, \par I can\rquote t see straight, \par It\rquote s not alright, \par I can\rquote t be this way anymore, \par There\rquote re colors around you, \par An aura of sweetness, \par Happiness and suffering, \par Your hair is licorice, \par It smells so lovely, \par But why, oh why, \par Do I feel as if, \par When I see you sitting, \par Standing or sleeping, \par I feel like I should be vomiting, \par It\rquote s so lovely, \par When I hallucinate, \par I see the past, \par In skewed perfection, \par You need no correction, \par Cause in my head there\rquote s nothing wrong with you, \par In reality I\rquote m only in my head. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93That Feeling of Deja Vu\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par I\rquote m feeling a little self-destructive, \par I\rquote m sorry if that offends you, \par I\rquote m telling you the truth, \par I\rquote m sorry if my words do you wrong, \par I\rquote m sorry, I\rquote m sorry, \par I\rquote m lost, \par \par Well tell me now, \par Can you save me, \par Can anyone do anything right, \par Are you here when I need to survive, \par Is anyone ever really here for me, \par \par I\rquote m feeling a little self-destructive, \par I\rquote m sorry if that offends you, \par I\rquote m telling you the truth, \par I\rquote m sorry if my words do you wrong, \par I\rquote m sorry, I\rquote m sorry, \par I\rquote m lost, \par \par Morning sickness, \par I\rquote m sick of mourning, \par I\rquote m sick of life as it is, \par I\rquote m looking for something better, \par I\rquote m sorry if I offend you, \par \par I\rquote m feeling a little self-evident, \par I\rquote m sorry if that offends you, \par I\rquote m telling you lies, \par I\rquote m sorry if my words do you wrong, \par I\rquote m sorry, I\rquote m sorry, \par I\rquote m lost, \par \par Cough as you walk away from me, \par I\rquote m shedding my skin as I am reborn, \par You\rquote re tears do little to reveal me, \par I\rquote m shedding tears as I die for you. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93Nails of Pesticide\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par Long nails scratching on a, \par Single slate board, \par Scratching up the past it seems to me, \par To be the only graceful thing to do, \par Inside me is screaming out for you, \par And if you must be so far away, \par Might the scratching drive you farther, \par \par Scream to me you last goodnight, \par And screech at the top of your overfilled lungs, \par That you don\rquote t know why, \par Or care to know me anymore, \par Scream to me you last goodnight, \par And screech at the top of your overfilled lungs, \par That you don\rquote t know why, \par Or care to know me anymore, \par \par And when my nails are scratching, \par Can you hear me, \par Is that the only time of day or night, \par To find a way to frighten away from me, \par Do my nails bother you, \par I\rquote m bothersome it seems, \par Too true if you look around the truth, \par And realize I\rquote m driving you farther away, \par \par Scream to me you last goodnight, \par And screech at the top of your overfilled lungs, \par That you don\rquote t know why, \par Or care to know me anymore, \par Scream to me you last goodnight, \par And screech at the top of your overfilled lungs, \par That you don\rquote t know why, \par Or care to know me anymore, \par \par Do my nails bother you, \par Do you even care anything about me, \par They\rquote re scratching the lone board, \par Screech aside to melting waves of flesh and bone, \par You\rquote re so bothersome to me, \par And all I\rquote m doing, \par You\rquote re growing farther away. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93The Magic Empty\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par This is my final phase, \par It\rquote s like I\rquote m in a haze of reaction, \par Constantly reminded of my failure, \par Longing pleasure never realized, \par Finding my emptiness in comfort, \par Looking for something I can feel, \par Tasting evidence to the contrary, \par Mind made up I\rquote ve got no other, \par The trouble I cause myself is blinding, \par Revealed in ecstasy to you and I, \par Noticing the truth, \par Out of the corner of my tear-filled eye, \par It\rquote s magic. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93Different Circumstances\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par I\rquote m so nervous, \par I\rquote m scared of strangers that are friends, \par They look at me with harsh eyes, \par Not the way you looked at me, \par They make me nervous, \par It\rquote s not the same with you, \par I\rquote m not the same with you, \par \par I can\rquote t explain how my mind is changed, \par They stare at me, \par It\rquote s scary, I\rquote m shivering, \par The hair on my neck tingles, \par I\rquote m sorry, I\rquote m so different, \par It\rquote s not the same as it was before, \par They hesitate me, \par It\rquote s not the same with you, \par I\rquote m not the same with you, \par \par I\rquote m sorry I\rquote m so different, \par I don\rquote t like my inconsistency, \par It\rquote s distressing, they\rquote re undressing my mind, \par I\rquote m being murdered in their minds, \par I can feel it, it makes me nervous, \par They scream at me, my stupidity, \par They scare me so much, \par It\rquote s not the same with you, \par I\rquote m not the same, \par As you remember. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93Tangible Relief\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par My current incarnation is unruly, \par Is it truly who I am, \par Inside me is a troubled past, \par Forever without purpose and unrest, \par \par My respite from the waves of tyranny, \par Inside your mind apart from mine, \par You\rquote re comforting, \par It\rquote s strangely familiar, \par I can\rquote t describe you, \par I have no words that I\rquote d like to use, \par It\rquote s terrible that I have to escape from me, \par But you hide me well, \par It\rquote s so nice of you, \par \par My current incarnation is unruly, \par Is it truly who I am, \par Inside me is a troubled past, \par Forever without purpose and unrest, \par \par Can you save me like I\rquote d like you to, \par Is it possible, for you for me,. \par Blatantly I\rquote m insane with envy, \par Suicidally plain, terrible, \par Immutably changed, \par It\rquote s unbearable to se yourself unraveling, \par I\rquote ll sing to you as I die. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93Wanna\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par Please won\rquote t you leave me alone, \par I\rquote m begging you, why must you make it so hard, \par For me, I can\rquote t take your words, \par You make me wanna, \par You make me wanna do something, \par I\rquote m sorry, I can\rquote t help it, \par You make me wanna kill myself, \par \par I can\rquote t help the way I am, \par I can\rquote t help that I am not enough, \par It\rquote s not right, it\rquote s not right the way that you treat me, \par So badly, it\rquote s bad the way I can\rquote t explain, \par You make me wanna, \par You make me wanna do something, \par I\rquote m sorry, I can\rquote t help it, \par You make me wanna kill myself, \par \par You don\rquote t understand, \par You strike me down, it\rquote s difficult, \par Impossible to you, \par You don\rquote t think I would do it, \par You make me wanna, \par You make me wanna do something, \par I\rquote m sorry, I can\rquote t help it, \par You make me wanna die. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93Boy In The Corner\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par Look at that boy over there, \par Do you know why he\rquote s crying all alone, \par Does anyone know, \par Can anyone tell me, \par Why oh why is he, \par The way he is, \par Crying lonely, \par \par Tell me, do you know, \par Who he is, he\rquote s no one, \par You don\rquote t know him, \par He\rquote s nobody to you, \par He\rquote s nobody at all, \par \par Can you tell if he\rquote s living, \par Is he safe, is he ill, \par Can you tell em, \par Why he\rquote s crying now, \par Why he\rquote s all alone, \par \par Tell me, do you know, \par Who he is, he\rquote s no one, \par You don\rquote t know him, \par He\rquote s nobody to you, \par He\rquote s nobody at all, \par \par Look at him, he\rquote s in the corner, \par Do you know why he\rquote s crying all alone, \par Does anyone know, \par Does he know, \par Who he is, where he is, \par Why he is the way he is, \par Who is he, \par He\rquote s me. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93You\rquote re Killing Me\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par I wasn\rquote t talking to you, \par Why are you talking to me, \par Can\rquote t you see that your words, \par Are harmful to me, \par It\rquote s so hard for me to take your shit, \par I have enough of my own, \par I don\rquote t need anymore, \par Just shut the fuck up, I don\rquote t want to hear you, \par Get away from me, just get away, \par Stop killing me, stop killing me, \par You can\rquote t pretend to know how I feel, \par You\rquote re the stupid one, you\rquote re stupid to me, \par You keep putting me down, \par You are killing me, \par Please, I\rquote m begging, \par Stop killing me, stop killing me. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93No Goodbye\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par I am, waking up in a pile of ashes, \par The tears that I\rquote ve lost, the pain that I\rquote ve felt, \par Sometimes I don\rquote t know if I\rquote ll make it that far, \par It\rquote s scary to think, I\rquote m not really here, \par One day you will wake up, and I won\rquote t be near, \par \par I\rquote m feeling, here I come, I\rquote m breaking out of here, \par I\rquote m real and, I am one, I don\rquote t need to stay here, \par How come, you don\rquote t miss me, \par How come, you never said goodbye to me, \par \par I am, falling asleep in my own tears, \par I\rquote ll drown myself, I\rquote ll kill my dreams, \par Sometimes I don\rquote t know if I\rquote ll make it that far, \par It\rquote s scary to think, I might not be here, \par One day you\rquote ll wake up, and I\rquote ll be\'85gone, \par \par I\rquote m feeling, here I come, I\rquote m breaking out of here, \par I\rquote m real and, I am one, I don\rquote t need to stay here, \par How come, you don\rquote t miss me, \par How come, you never said goodbye to me, \par I\rquote m feeling, here I come, I\rquote m breaking out of here, \par I\rquote m real and, I am one, I don\rquote t need to stay here, \par How come, you don\rquote t miss me, \par How come, you never said goodbye to me. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93Self-Inflicted Agony\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par Murder, I\rquote ll take it further, \par I\rquote ll kill myself, \par I\rquote d burn myself apart, \par Pain to overshadow, \par It\rquote s making me so happy, \par You can\rquote t deny my pleasure, \par It\rquote s something you\rquote ll have to watch, \par My agony, \par \par And this is what I need, \par It\rquote s required that I need to bleed, \par And this is what I need, \par Can you kill me please, \par \par Murder, I feel I need it, \par I\rquote ll step up the pain, \par Make me cry, \par I\rquote ll scream if you want, \par I don\rquote t care, it\rquote s just a matter of time, \par Or mind the pain, \par Watch as I fade away, \par In my agony, \par \par And this is what I need, \par It\rquote s required that I need to bleed, \par And this is what I need, \par Can you kill me please. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93What I Think About At Night\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par Burn me insincere, \par I lie to you as I am lying to myself, \par It\rquote s tragic, you know, \par I\rquote m tragic, you know, \par Torturous in what seems to be a lifetime lived in mere seconds, \par I don\rquote t mean anything, \par It\rquote s so sad, \par I\rquote m so sad, \par I\rquote m far from anything you suppose, \par It\rquote s harder to believe in yourself than you, \par That\rquote s the reason why I pretend to never focus on myself, \par It\rquote s too hard, I\rquote m lazy when I feel empty, \par I can\rquote t really try to mend myself without mending you first, \par I\rquote m gone at birth when I was conceived, \par Tried to drown myself with my vocal cords, \par It\rquote s tragic, you know, \par I\rquote m tragic, you know, \par Burn my insincere. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93All Day Long\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par Their mouths are moving, \par But all I hear is mumbling, \par It\rquote s all running together, \par That\rquote s how long the day has been, \par It\rquote s been too long since you were, \par The viscosity is grinding to a halt, \par My vault is locked-up tight, \par Nothing can break free of its grip, \par I\rquote m stuck in go but content to stop, \par Why won\rquote t this day end, \par It would if I asked it to, \par I\rquote d ask it to if not for you, \par Trying insignificance, my obedience is life-saving, \par But I\rquote d wish this would end. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93Remnants\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par Holliday relief, the planets tend to fade apart, \par Recall the words that are echoing in my ears, \par \par And breath, do you really know, \par Can you really show, show me, \par And breath, do you really know, \par Can you really show, show me, \par \par And when you sleep, your mind doesn\rquote t know that you are, \par That your life doesn\rquote t mean anything, \par \par And breath, do you really know, \par Can you really show, show me, \par And breath, do you really know, \par Can you really show, show me, \par \par Holliday grief, your morals tend to fade away, \par Remind yourself that you\rquote re echoing in me, \par \par And breath, do you really know, \par Can you really show, show me, \par And breath, do you really know, \par Can you really show, show me. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93Crazy Sane\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par You\rquote re goin crazy sane, \par Can\rquote t I ever think what I wanted to say, \par You\rquote re gonna go away, \par Don\rquote t you ever think that I wanted to stay, \par And I wanted to tell you now that I\rquote m ok, \par But I don\rquote t think you know if you are that way, \par \par Cause it\rquote s often gonna tell you, now, \par And I wanted to let you know how, \par But I don\rquote t know if I should or should I not, \par How can I know, how can I know, \par \par You\rquote re gonna sing someday, \par Don\rquote t you think that I think of you, \par What do you think of, can anyone tell, \par \par Cause it\rquote s often gonna tell you, now, \par And I wanted to let you know how, \par But I don\rquote t know if I should or should I not, \par How can I know, how can I know, \par \par You\rquote re goin crazy sane, \par You\rquote re goin crazy sane, yeah, \par You\rquote re goin crazy sane, \par How can I know, how can I know, \par How can I know. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93Off My Hollowness\'85\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par Ricochet off my hollowness, \par I\rquote ll understand, I\rquote ll understand, \par You don\rquote t have to stand there wondering, \par It\rquote s true, it\rquote s true, \par And when will we know if you know what I thought you did, \par And when will we know if you know what\rquote s really there, \par And when will we know if you know what I began to tell you, \par And when will we know if you know what\rquote s going on, \par \par Might I stay awhile hostess, \par I\rquote d like to stand, I\rquote d like to stand, \par You don\rquote t have to invite me in now, \par You know, it\rquote s true, \par And when will we know if you know what I thought you did, \par And when will we know if you know what\rquote s really there, \par And when will we know if you know what I began to tell you, \par And when will we know if you know what\rquote s going on, \par \par Ricochet off me my dear, \par I\rquote ll understand, I\rquote ll understand, \par You don\rquote t have to keep he here, \par I\rquote ll understand, I\rquote ll understand, \par You don\rquote t have to know me at all, \par You don\rquote t have to sing to me at all, \par You don\rquote t have to know the truth, \par But it would be wise to know what\rquote s true, \par And when will we know if you know what I thought you did, \par And when will we know if you know what\rquote s really there, \par And when will we know if you know what I began to tell you, \par And when will we know if you know what\rquote s going on. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93Contained\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par I\rquote m contained, it\rquote s harder than I thought to, \par Break away, I\rquote ve tried all I can to, \par Stay away, but you know, \par \par And here we are now, it\rquote s time, \par And here we are now, we\rquote ll give-in to our minds, \par And here we are now, it\rquote s too much for me to handle, \par \par I\rquote m contained, it\rquote s what I always wanted, \par Not enough, I\rquote ve gotten what I deserved, to get, \par And now I\rquote m here, you know, \par \par And here we are now, it\rquote s time, \par And here we are now, we\rquote ll give-in to our minds, \par And here we are now, it\rquote s too much for me to handle, \par \par I\rquote m contained, it\rquote s all too much to handle, \par Break away, run away and I\rquote ll be, \par Grateful for your kindness, you know, \par \par And here we are now, it\rquote s time, \par And here we are now, we\rquote ll give-in to our minds, \par And here we are now, it\rquote s too much for me to handle, \par And here we are now, it\rquote s time, \par And here we are now, we\rquote ll give-in to our minds, \par And here we are now, it\rquote s too much for me to handle. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93How Are You Today?\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par Hello how are you today, \par I assume you're doing ok now that we've parted ways, \par Is it ok that I assume, \par Does it make you uncomfortable, \par I\rquote m sorry if it does, \par I didn\rquote t mean to, I didn\rquote t mean to, really, \par \par But I\rquote m still asking you, \par How are you today, \par It\rquote s good that you\rquote re moving on, \par I\rquote m glad that you don\rquote t see me anymore, \par It\rquote s sort of comforting isn\rquote t it, \par I\rquote m sorry if this offends you, \par I didn\rquote t mean to, I didn\rquote t mean to, really, \par \par I am ok, I am ok, \par Today, \par Are you too, \par Is it up to me anymore, \par I don\rquote t think, I don\rquote t think so, \par I am ok, I am ok, \par It\rquote s ok for me to ask right, \par It\rquote s ok to ask if you\rquote re ok, \par I assume I shouldn\rquote t be asking cause you look like you asking me to leave, \par I\rquote m sorry if I offended you, \par I didn\rquote t mean to, I didn\rquote t mean to, really. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93Inadequate\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par You know that feeling when, \par Everyone\rquote s against you, \par You feel as if no one really cares, \par They don\rquote t wanna talk to you, \par They don\rquote t even look your way, \par It\rquote s sad when you think about it, \par I think about it often, oh, \par \par I\rquote m sorry for being inadequate, \par I\rquote m sorry, I\rquote m sorry, \par Can\rquote t you even look at me, \par Is that too much of me to ask, \par \par It\rquote s that feeling that keeps me alive, \par I know it well, so well I\rquote ve lied, \par Myself alone is all I\rquote m asking, \par I can\rquote t stand your asking if I\rquote m not alright, \par Your battery acid to my devalued importance, \par It\rquote s something I live with, \par \par I\rquote m sorry for being inadequate, \par I\rquote m sorry, I\rquote m sorry, \par Can\rquote t you even look at me, \par Is that too much of me to ask, \par \par That feeling, oh no, \par I have to go away from here, \par Where no one\rquote s left to jeer and look away from me, \par Save me from the erratic blistering remorse, \par I\rquote m sorry I\rquote m inadequate, \par It\rquote s not my fault, \par Really. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93My Speeding Two-Door Sedan\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par Fragility is intense, \par The mood changes are exhausting, \par You can hurt me and heal me as you speak a single word, \par Don\rquote t speak to me, \par \par Insanity is expensive, \par It costs me all that I hold dear, \par You can murder me, surgically extend my life-force, \par As you speak to me, \par \par Really down there, can you tell that I\rquote m not well, \par Can you see how I am, is it tiring to step on broken glass, \par Am I really, can this really be my hell, \par Can you smell how I am, is it murder to live with me, \par \par Fragility is hard, \par The softness wears too thin, \par You can kill me and love me all in the same moment, \par Don\rquote t speak to me, \par \par Really down there, can you tell that I\rquote m not well, \par Can you see how I am, is it tiring to step on broken glass, \par Am I really, can this really be my hell, \par Can you smell how I am, is it murder to live with me, \par Really down here, can you tell me that I\rquote m not, \par Can you see me, is it tiring to step over me, \par Am I real, can this ever be right, \par Can you ever see me, is it exciting to not have to live with me. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93The Infection\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par The infection is growing, \par It has me moaning why oh why, \par Why can\rquote t I die and be left alone, \par I\rquote m moaning why, please die, \par \par The infection has me, \par It\rquote s slowly taking over, \par Why can\rquote t you see the spreading, \par Are you dreading the inevitable, \par \par Oh, it\rquote s running up my arm from heroine holes, \par Oh, it\rquote s spreading to my heart where mildew grows, \par Oh why, oh why, \par Oh why do I have to live, \par Why can\rquote t the infection take what you give, \par Oh why, oh why, \par Oh why can\rquote t I die, \par Why can\rquote t the infection make you cry, \par \par The infection is overwhelming, \par It\rquote s deafening the screams are telling, \par Why can\rquote t I die and be left alone, \par It\rquote s deafening my own tears, \par \par Oh, it\rquote s running up my arm from heroine holes, \par Oh, it\rquote s spreading to my heart where mildew grows, \par Oh why, oh why, \par Oh why do I have to live, \par Why can\rquote t the infection take what you give, \par Oh why, oh why, \par Oh why can\rquote t I die, \par Why can\rquote t the infection make you cry. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93Mercurial\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par Mercurial, \par My mood changes in the blink of an eye, \par When you wink at me, \par It\rquote s changing, \par It\rquote s sad when I implode, \par \par Can you see me changing, \par It\rquote s almost instantaneous, \par Can you see me changing, \par It\rquote s almost not me, \par \par Self destructive, \par I\rquote m not the same the next day that you see me, \par I\rquote m not standing next to you, \par It\rquote s not me, guess who I am, \par It\rquote s sad when I cry, \par \par Can you see me changing, \par It\rquote s almost instantaneous, \par Can you see me changing, \par It\rquote s almost not me, \par \par Mercurial, \par My mood is susceptible to subtle alterations, \par I can\rquote t take the changes, \par I\rquote m deranged, \par It\rquote s sad when I think I\rquote ll never stay the same, \par \par Can you see me changing, \par It\rquote s almost instantaneous, \par Can you see me changing, \par It\rquote s almost not me. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93Tilted\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par Can you see the way I see, tilted, \par I\rquote m astonished that I\rquote m alone in my vision, \par Not as surprised as my smoking gun, \par \par Does it make you happy, \par Does it make you make-believe, \par Can I make you anything, \par Am I anything to you, \par \par Bleed as I sit tilted as if wilted, \par I\rquote m evasive to you questioning, \par I wish I knew what the hell was going on, \par \par Does it make you happy, \par Does it make you make-believe, \par Can I make you anything, \par Am I anything to you, \par \par Can I ever just be myself, \par Will you promise not to, \par Eviscerate me, \par \par Does it make you happy, \par Does it make you make-believe, \par Can I make you anything, \par Am I anything to you. \par \par }{\b\fs20\ul\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \'93False Reliance\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 \par Why am I still this way, \par Don\rquote t you have nothing to say, \par Don\rquote t I deserve that much, \par When will I see the day, \par Go running out and play, \par Joyous misconceptions, \par \par Tenderly infantile, \par You\rquote d like to run a mile in my leather feet, \par How do you play without a soul, \par Doesn\rquote t that leave a hole, \par Are you subject to defeat, \par \par Questions go unexplained, \par Does it all stay the same, \par When you do something, \par I find you still remain, \par How can I say it plain, \par You really killed me, \par \par Tenderly infantile, \par You\rquote d like to run a mile in my leather feet, \par How do you play without a soul, \par Doesn\rquote t that leave a hole, \par Are you subject to defeat, \par \par Am I impossible, \par I\rquote m unreliable, \par You can trust my company, \par Are you unstoppable, \par I can\rquote t stand the lull, \par When will you speak to me, \par To me, to me, \par }{\fs20\insrsid15074769\charrsid15074769 I swear you}{\fs20\insrsid8420581\charrsid15074769 can trust me. \par }{\fs20\insrsid15074769\charrsid15074769 \par }\pard \qc \li0\ri0\widctlpar\aspalpha\aspnum\faauto\adjustright\rin0\lin0\itap0\pararsid15074769 {\b\fs20\ul\insrsid15074769\charrsid15074769 \'93Daylight\rquote s Savings\'94 \par }{\fs20\insrsid15074769\charrsid15074769 \par Hey look, it\rquote s my, \par Never-ending heartache, \par And my, boundless love, \par Do you, even realize, \par How much they could have grown, \par \par You know, you were my, \par Never-doubting trust, \par And my, daylight at night, \par Am I, ever gonna realize, \par How much I could do without the pain, \par \par Do you ever realize, \par Deep inside yourself, \par That you, made a bad decision, \par And you might hate yourself for it, \par Did you ever sit and think about me, \par My tender warm-milk touch, \par Could you ever feel the same, \par The same as my daylight\rquote s savings, \par \par Hey look, you\rquote re my, \par Deep dark confession, \par And my, reactionary feelings, \par Can I, realize I\rquote m, \par Living in a day that\rquote s shown its last, \par \par Do you ever realize, \par Deep inside yourself, \par That you, made a bad decision, \par And you might hate yourself for it, \par Did you ever sit and think about me, \par My tender warm-milk touch, \par Could you ever feel the same, \par The same as my daylight\rquote s savings, \par Did you ever feel the same, \par The same as my daylight\rquote s savings. \par }\pard \qc \li0\ri0\widctlpar\aspalpha\aspnum\faauto\adjustright\rin0\lin0\itap0\pararsid8591434 {\fs20\insrsid8591434\charrsid15074769 \par These lyrics are property of Unwanted Reflection. \par copyright \'a9 2003 Unwanted Reflection \line All Rights Reserved \par }}