Especially For You 
"how long 'till my soul gets it right?"
-emily saliers
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So it all comes down to this--
it all comes down to
you
and me.
anything less isn't real
anything else doesn't matter.
we are this--
we are a highway
this road
curves up to meet me
like your body
everybody swirls
it's one
it's alive
it's alove
the scent of you
it comes down to this.
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the night came in from all sides
magic poured over us
enraptured by the night
electrified by the sounds
or no sounds
it almost--
grief came in from all sides
for what was never--
the engine roared to life.
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tiny rosebud, too early
you entered my pristine world,
so i shattered yours.
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lullaby
i love you
sparkle eyes
lashly lushly
sleep
sleep
while
i sing
sleep
wake
to your
dreams
still i sing
love you
surround
me
surround
you,
love
with love
wrapped in dreams
tied in song
sleep, wonder
i love you
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Why do you have to be so beautiful when
you smile?
You look like sunwarmshine
was all melted down and poured into you
drop by drop
as your smile lights up your face
you smile...
you mesmerize me...
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Some people always have to have
something to play with.
Give a teenage boy a guitar and he won't
shut up.
Prove your manhood by not stopping to
listen to anyone.
Anyone else who plays Anyone who talks
Any other sound.
Hey, at least it gives him something
to do.
To concentrate on, so maybe he won't
hear
me screaming inside.
I'm in my kerchief--
smelling slightly of sweat--
never can remove all my body hair--
i always miss a spot.
jeans held together with safety pins
at the knee.
You're drowning out my Ani DiFranco.
Why don't you just go home?
I won't ask you to leave.
I'm silently screaming. Can't you
hear me?
Give me back my solitude.
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Close to You
Holding you last night,
There was no fire.
Just easy warmth.
comfort.
I felt safe and protected.
I couldn't decide
whether or not
I wanted to kiss you.
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n.o. one
black and black and black
(backstreet)
-nearby streets
are people-smothered
lights and flashing colors
revelry falling
grime flowing in the gutter
there is no night.-
but here, streets are dark.
i am cold.
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n.o. two
i remember you
coming out of the night
dressed all in black
tall black boots silver buckled
and your hat cocked to one side
"i dig this town, but i'm from philly"
i remember you
black night warmth drink fall
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Standing up there last night
All bent-over so that you
wouldn't look so tall,
or maybe you were just
grasping the edges
of the podium so you
wouldn't fall down,
expounding on your
theories of Poetry
and beauty and creating
You were beautiful.
shining bright hair,
you looked like some
sort of
strange angel...
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You render me speechless
Invade my dreams with your bright hair.
Why do your eyes have to be the color
of
the rivers i see in my dreams?
or the oceans..
or the sky..
or the silver light of stars..
depending on your mood
and your shirt
i bet you were a beautiful baby golden
haloed
i am tongue tied around you
i want to lay it all out on the line
but something stops me every time.
i can't entertain the idea that
you might reciprocate
my feelings..
"cuz i ain't really all that pretty"
why do you have to be so cool?
cool-i don't care-neat hair boy
no fair
cause i'm the one who wants to know you
but i can't speak when you're around
i can only stare... and try to pretend
like
i'm not...
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