I guess you could call this my rant and rage page. There is much I do not understand about this fine art that we call magic, so I do not expect everyone to understand how I feel. This page will be divided into sections, so bare with me here on this journey into the deepest part of my anger and confusion.
White Vs. Black
Into the Night and Into the Light. Both seem to be interesting subjects to me. Would you rather have a conversation with the 'Devil' or with 'God'? Ah, the period of the 'New Age' were people actually learn the difference between good ('God') and evil ('Devil'). But in reality what is good and what is evil? In the eye of a Jesus freak everything is bad. In the eye of a regular Christian who goes to church every once in a while, just some things are bad. I once met a girl who was in love with 'God'. She was sent from hell I swear. *laughs* She did drugs, had sex, and swore enough to make a sailor blush. SHE MUST BE PUNISHED! Yeah right. So how can you tell what is good or bad? Every thing seems to be the same. You have good magic and you have black magic. So what is the difference? With white magic, you perform good. And with black magic you perform bad. I think that is wrong. Even with white, there is black and even with black, there is white. You'd be surprised actually how many people I have meet that claim to be completely good and use a black field to protect themselves. Ummm...HELLO. *knocks on the monitor* Is it just me or does that sound odd? I understand that calling a demon seems bad to some. But how come calling angels isn't bad? Angels can be complete assholes. 'God' uses angels to kill and do all the rest of his dirty work that I can't actually quote right now. I could be wrong here, but there is something up with that. Think about it, demons used to be angels. Maybe they were tired of killing for 'God' and had a higher purpose than what they were actually meant for. Oh I know I'm going to be cursed for this page. But only the things you believe in are the things that will harm you. My point though is with out evil, there may not be any good. And with out good, there may not be any evil. We are all stuck in this circle fuck we call balance.
Frustrations
I'm sick of these damn kids who think they can practice this art of magic. I've been involved in this shit for over ten years now. This isn't a damn game like some make it out to be. It's serious. It's the difference between life and death. This is not something little 14 year olds need to be messing around with unless they have some clue of what in hell they are doing. I know I sound like a lame fuck for saying that. But honestly, I've been one of those stupid 14 year olds. I KNOW how it is and I know how bad I fucked up. Just imagine how bad it can be for them. I never had a book to teach me. I had only what was inside of me and what elders taught me. Kids these days have books that you can buy at any book store. And most of these books are false and fill their heads with dangerous bull shit. Powers are supposed to be handed down in generations, not created by a book. Don't get me wrong, I've done my fair share of reading. But I only read for examples and I didn't take everything I read as true.
Do we really believe?
Anyways, I know I have ventured from the subject just a little. So now is the time I venture back. 'God'..who is he? Does 'he' exist? Or have we just wasted our whole life's believing in something that isn't even there and studied from books that were written by some stupid hippie guy with a beard? Now that is something to think about. If he created 'us', who created him? And did 'he' create good and evil? Or did we? That's too many questions for me. I know something is UP there way in the sky, just not necessarily 'God'. I believe in Heaven and Hell, Angels and Demons, but not the forces that seem to control them. I know angels are there, or some form of angels. But I will never have faith in 'God'. Never say never. I just can't have faith in someone/something who kills for fun and who is sitting back watching man kind kill his planet. It just doesn't make sense to me.
Practicing
Everyone has a different name for their type of magic. For example, I call what I do practicing. I do not make magic, I practice. There are many types of magic that people work with. Some only do white, others black. There is also wiccan, demonology, witchcraft, and many more. I call it practicing because I understand and work with more than one form of magic.
In conclusion, there is much I do not understand and I know there are different parts of this page that not everyone understands. So this is where I say 'If you have any questions, please email me.'
