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Well, i promised you some NightShyft originals so here they are.
Living nowhere
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living elsewhere
i am all alone
used up and missled
somewhere i went wrong
i'm living here
feeling nothing
wasted all away
i am all alone
killing me
breaking apart
feel it all
washing away
nothing now
i am all alone
living there
alone in my heart
alone in my head
somewhere i died
living elsewhere
feeling lost
i am all alone
wating away
------------
breathing in to exhale
feeling it all fade
losing my mind
wasting away
i can remember
maybe i can't
feeling it go
floating away
losing my grip
can't hear to hold
falling deep
flooding my mind
wasting my mind
losing my mind
now i'm slipping
i'm nothing now
my mind is gone
my life is gone
now i'm free
free to be
wasting away
wasting away
now i hear
voice so faint
calling to
this newborn saint
here i am
lost again
drowning in
my own sin
floating away
can't hold on
griped to slip
falling away
going away
wasting away
nothing to behold
-------------------
purify my internal life
no one sees at all
hiding behind these closed doors
of my life
looking out of these clod windows
seeing you
as you were
knowing now
what i've found is nothing to behold
ever changing faces
never changing souls
were all the same
as we once were
nothing but a mask
we present our world
and no one sees who we are
but we never change
we never change
show us your mask to cast aside
who you really are
looking out your window
on a cold cruel world
i feel your sorrow
but i don't condone them
your nothing to behold
break your maks to free yourself
although mine fits well
feeling safe in the dark
looking at other people
thinking what a shame
looking in the mirror
i've found nothing to behold.
shroud
------
i am wrapped in shadows
bound by chains
feeling lonely now
i see you walking
a little slowly
coming my way
i am wrapped in my shroud
waiting for your kiss
knowing it will pass
nothing ever last forever
nothing ever seems to die
going on in circles
casting shroud after shroud aside
wrapped in delusions
bound by pain
i feel you near
wrapped in this dark veil
refusing to see
what your doing to me
waiting alone in the dark
casting you aside
i can breathe a little better
breaking these chains of mine.
let it come
------------
caring for little
wanting even less
never knowing
how im suppressed
feeling down
i'm so depressed
needing little
and getting less
i feel catch 22 suicidal
losing my own
heading to the final show
slipping a little farther away
carry me along
dropping me every step
never seeing
what's coming next
blinded by your light
leaving me in the dark
wanting to see
and only seeing shrouds
how can i know
what's coming now
let it come
i don't care
let it come.
Last goodbyes
-------------
secretly contemplating my own demise
walking ever closer to that white light
come what may come what might
these are my last goodbyes
see you there on the other side
where ever that might be
if it's even there
i don't really even care
these are my las good byes
wishing this one last wish
to see you one last time
but it'll never come true
i'll see you in the light
these are my last goodbyes
i loved you all that i could love you
each and every one of you
time to cast off this mask and show myself
one last time
gathering my reasons my shroud my everything
these are my last goodbyes
here i stand naked to all your persecutions
breaking my skin peircing my heart
here i am mask aside taking it all
and dying inside
see you on the other side
goodbye.
sunny day
------------
and the warm sun rose
on a typical sunny day
right before the clouds began to show
the light could light my way
i could feel the warmth
on a typical sunny day
and with it came all the same
that i was use to
but then came
the summer storms
lighting shows
the thunder rolls
bring it on
add the tolls
let it fall
let it pour
bring it on
let it be
one and for all
bring it on
let the rain cool it down
baby let it cool down
and the mist began to clear
and the air was all sweet
on a typical sunny day
you came crashing to my feet
and with you came all the same
that i was use to
with you came
the summer storms
lightning shows
the thunder rolls
bring it on
add the tolls
let it fall
let it pour
bring it on
let it be
one and for all
bring it on
it's time for me to leave
leave you behind me
on a typical sunny day
all was all behind me
and the sun began to set
and the moon began to rise
and with it came all the same
that i was use to
with it came
the summer storms
lightning shows
the thunder rolls
bring it on
add the tolls
let it fall
let it pour
bring it on
let it be
one and for all
and all for me
bring it on
we got to
show you how to
bring it all down
bring it on
heaven is a funny joke
----------------------
every day is a perfect day
before the clouds come
every thing goes your way
before it changes some
and heaven is a funny joke
you only read about in books
and nothing goes up in smoke
not even meaningful looks
but somewhere you hear a laugh
a grand laugh indeed
and only then do you know
just how you've been decieved
just thinking it's gold
just doing what's told
just beleiveing the fools
just folowing thier rules
and never asking why
is the only way you die
every gem is a perfect stone
right before it cracks
every man a backbone
just before he lacks
and heaven is a funny joke
you only see on t.v.
and nothing goes up in smoke
execpt everything you envy
and somewere a invisible hand pushes you
a grand hand indeed
and only when he uses you
do you know how you've been decieved
just thinking it's gold
just doing what's told
just beleiveing the fools
just following their rules
and never asking why
is the only way you die
every home a perfect shelter
right before it kills you
every marrige a perfect bond
right before she leaves you
and heaven is a funny joke
you only hear from the preachers
and nothing goes up in smoke
except what you hear from teachers
and somewhere you feel a stare
a grand stare indeed
only then do you care
to know how you've been decieved
just thinking it's gold
just doing what's told
just beleiving the fools
just following their rules
and never asking why
is the only way you'll ever, truely, die.
Broken Chains
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i use to think all that glittered was gold
i use to beleive in doing what's been told
that was before i broke the chains that bind
and left all the lies and nonsense behind
broken chains
i left behind
broke promises
used to bind
broken hearts
i use to find
broke boundries
i left behind
i use to think all that was was here
i use to believe this was all so dear
but then i was able to read between the lines
and break these chains of mine
nothing matters but the future
and all you have to do is ask why
break your chains and kill the butchers
and see and spread the light
i use to think all that glittered was gold
i use to do what ever i was told
but then i broke the chains by asking why
i know now that i almost died
Love is a funny thing
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I can't beleive what i am seeing
oh my god i must be dreaming
I tamed my heart but now it's wild
i tamed my self but now i'm defiled
Love is a funny thing
a multifaced thing
a golden dimond ring
a hellish fiery thing
a broken heart without a clue
a fool before i only knew who
you
If i only knew the punchline
i would feel just fine
but it is a mystery
buried deep in history
and i will never know the truth
oh it feels so uncuth
how could i stand this thing
love is a funny thing
Oh, i can't beleive what i'm saying
oh my god i can't be praying
what are these three little words i'm saying
oh my mind must be fraying
love is a funny thing
a multifaced thing
a golden dimond ring
a hellish fiery thing
a broken heart without a clue
a fool before i met who
you
oh my god i must be dreaming
how to explain what i'm feeling
can you hear what i'm saying
i actually plan on staying
love is a funny thing
a multifaced thing
a golden dimanod ring
a hellish fiery thing
a broken heart without a clue
a fool before i knew who
you
Blah, Blah, Blah
----------------
i know you keep speaking
i told you i ain't listening
I'm not hearing you at all
Blah, blah, blah
I wouldn't be complaining
if you weren't disdaining
i shut you out
but you keep breaking in
Blah, Blah, Blah
Oh my god your so anoying
can you bring it down to a lower level
drop the subject please
your so not on the level
could you stop complaining
or at least bite your toungue
right off
God, how can you keep jabbering
your lower lip keeps keep flapping
shut it up and sew it shut
and get the hell out
Blah, Blah, Blah,
Blah, Blah, Blah,
Blah, Blah, Blah,
Blah, Blah.
So far behind
--------------
Never begining never ending
only'll end were it began
and you'll never see
the sunset again
and i'll only be
where you left me behind
so far behind
I'll never know the comfort of you
you'll never know the comfort of me
and i'll never begin to see
why you left me
so far behind
well a new day rises
no surprises to see
sometimes i wonder
am i really me
since you left me
so far behind
sometimes i wonder
just what i could be
and what this could meen
and how this makes me feel
sometimes i think
that this was a mistake
after all you did to me
and just how you left me
so far behind.
so far behind.
so far behind.
so far.
i often remember
just how you felt
and how you smelled
and how your lips tasted
and how it was wasted
all in one final second
and how you left me then
so very far behind.
Epitaph
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alone in the cold, cold rain
i could feel, i could feel
i could remember all that you said
it was so unreal, so unreal
then my tears added to the rain
i began to kneel, i began to kneel
I read the words they wrote
so real, so real
she lived like an angel
sent from heaven above
ment to bring us peace
ment to bring us love
she lifted our spirits high
she brought us happiness and light
there will never be another like her
rest in peace beloved
the sky began to thunder
i cried your name, your name
i made so many blunders
i'm suprised you stayed, you stayed
my hands began to shake
how i cried, how i cried
i colapsed under your name
and i read
she lived like an angel
sent from heaven above
ment to bring us peace
ment to bring us love
she lifted our spirits high
she brought us happiness and light
there will never be another like her
rest in peace beloved
now i can't live anymore
rest in peace i won't
i'm dying for you
i'm dying for you.
sunspot
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wake up in the sunshine
another day has dawned
feeling everything's just fine
i feel joy begin to spawn
losing my sleep
a couple night's bad dreams
feeling it's all come and gone
wake up in the sun
feel the heat warm you
feel the joy warm you
there is nothing to warn you
that joy can burn you
wake up to the sunshine
the light's so bright
i think i may be blind
let the light cloud my ways
feeling happier every day
but i can't seem to look both ways
wake up in the sun
burning up in happiness
i can see the light
burning alive in happiness
i think i'm going blind
feel the heat warm you
feel the joy warm you
there is nothing to warn you
that joy can burn you
wake up in the sun
feeling senseless and numb
feeling my heart begin to throb
knowing i'm gorowing dumb
knowing i'm going numb
wake up in the sunshine
where you lay
everything will feel just fine
as your happiness grows each day
and don't worry you won't see it come
don't worry you won't feel it come
cause you've grown so blind and numb
wake up in the sun.
Beast in the Night
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i feel it coming
i'm on the run again
i know it's gaining
i can feel it's breath again
oh god i have to beat it
if i'm to survive
i'll have to win this battle
just to stay alive
here love comes
raging and rampaging on
here love comes
just a beast in the night
just a poor man's plight
just a fictionary blight
here love comes
not silver not steel
can make this kill
not anything but my cold heart
i need a head start
if i'm to survive
if i'm to stay alive
here love comes
raging and rampaging on
here love comes
just a beast in the night
just a poor man's plight
just a fictionary blight
here love comes
no where to run
no where to hide
nothing to say
no telling lies
here comes love.
Golden rules
-------------
somewhere a child is born
it will never know love
and the mother will die
from the fathers love
can you feel the pain
can you feel the tradgedy
it happens every single day
let it be told
as the truth unfolds
that nothing breeds nothing
and love breeds love
to save the world
send a world of love
and it will spread endlessly
somewhere a father cries
his child just died
in his own mother's arms
she couldn't care
they didn't care
not that it matters anymore
we get what we give
we give what we deserve
let love be the message we send
maybe we can drown
all the fire of hate around
and bring it all to an end.
WELCOME IN
-----------
Always i was empty
always until i found you
always i was lonely
but then you fixed that to
I could never stop loving you
you saved my life
when my heart was broken in two
I could never live without you
cause the last thing i would ever do
is say goodbye to you
once i was alone but now i am found
opened and empty
waiting for you to fill me
i opened my heart to you
welcome in
MY HEART
--------
All i could ever see
was anything to benefit me
self centered
locked away from my heart
searching for the key
waiting for it to find me
then one day i met you
suddenly i could see
a little past me
looking out from my locked heart
could you have the key?
did you have the key?
push it in
turn it around
undo these chains
set me free
do you have the key?
much to my wild eyed suprise
you produced the key
opening up my locked heart
you let me out
let me free
free to love again
unleash these feelings from my heart
free to feel again
won't you stay in my heart?
DEDICATION
-----------
A child
unable to see
unable to love
thinking only of me
a child
no more
open up these closed doors
a man
in love
deicated to my hearts love
I am so in to you
dedication to stay through
the night
I can see
what you have done to me
i can feel
anything and everything that's real
i now know
what it meens to
what it feels to
love
dedication
to stay with you
side by side
determination
to live my life
with you
dedication
to love only you
determination
to hold on to you
forever.
BLOOD
------
i can feel you
just under my skin
apart of me touching me
going all through me
beat after beat
your are in my blood
you keep me alive
everyday by staying
side by side
i can feel you
flowing through my heart
you know it well
i'm under your spell
coursing through me
beat after beat
you are my blood
everyday how you say
you love me
and it keeps me alive
everyday
side by side
I can feel you
you are a part of me
breathing with me
living with me
just inside me
just below my skin
within
deep in love with you
beat after beat
you are my blood
your love keeps me alive
everyday your by my side
everyday i breathe i'm
yours
A PROMISE
If i should die
please don't cry
i died a happy man
if you should live
please don't fret
i've loved you since the day we met
if i was to die just remember
i will always be in you heart
because you are a part of me
and i am a part of you
for all eternity
if i was to die
i promise you'll see me again
so please don't cry
and please don't give in
if i was to die
i've always loved you
and every time you dream
i'll be there
if i was to die
don't cry any tears
let my crush your fears
cause i will still be there
INTO THE SUN
perfectly ripe the fruit you plucked how it tumbles to the ground
never mistaking your promises were breaking could be heard crashing down
i never thought the truth that i sought could be found in me
how bitter how sweet that rotting treat how it fills me
pour it in and move it around
no one cares what i've found
but your the only one i need
when i have all your victims to feed
clothe the poor and treat the sick
truth be told you don't give a dick
behold the light it's far to bright to gaze upon
beneath the lies i'm dead inside what a lame come on
help me i feel i'm broken i'm real i've no place in the sun
to find what i need what carelessness feeds i am one
pour it in and move around
no one cares what i've found
now it's over and you don't care
pull the plug to end it all if you dare
now it's over it's said and done
watch it fade into the sun
last light's ever fading smile one for which i'd run a mile
the fruit it rots inside out filling worms without a doubt
hear them move watch them bleed when i was one they never liked me
to find the truth to seek the smile here i laid all the while
pour it in and move around
no one cares what i found
never ending feel it done
watch it all fade
watch it all fade
watch it all fade, into the sun
SICK CHILDREN
saving grace for a latter date
tell the truth to dilate
holes like eyes
your enterprize of
catch 22,s and
purple hues
and all your lies
made to hypnotize
the citizen's who have
no rights
so many
tell me again
how did i sin
we have to lose
for your abuse
take me to hell
and back again
child like
appendages
long arms of the law
what was my fatal flaw
infringements
neon clouds over
an empty house
changing the face
of your only discrace
your children
your children
your children
sick children
take me back
to a long summer rose
take me back
to those fond memories
take me back
to a long summer fling
take me back
to almost anything
but your world
empty haze just another day
heldback in bondage and chains
watch the world roll by
watch the time roll by
cause the pigs march by
with their whips their chains
their long hatefilled days
their gaze
razorblades
your running out of time
your out of time
out of time
(chorus)x2
LEAVE BEHIND
feed my mind
grating hands masaging my brain
screaming agony screaming disdain
who weilds the power like iron gloves
bears his teeth to show no love
feeding the sands of time flowing free
full of the dust from grated bones
knee deep in your shit you piled so high
i for got what is was like to
feel free and fly away
from this world of hate
and leave behind the machine
and leave behind the grating
agony
KING HEROD'S GOLD
waiting their turn in line
only to have it close
ripped away before their time
more priceless than gold
why live a lie
when they won't live at all
whose to say that they should die
when their mouth's are still closed
open your heart to the world
let some light shine in
worth more than twice thier weight in gold
back to king herod's sin
but violence is not the answer
it only adds to the toll
but what can we do
when their little heads roll
why believe what they want to believe
that life is only here
open up your arms to recieve
that maybe your baby wants to breathe
open your heart to the world
let some light shine in
worth more than twice their weight in gold
back to king herod's sin
who's to say they die
who's to say you die
that's not a question
no one can ask
who can ask
when it's life or death
choose life
THIS CAGE CALLED LIFE
I now find my self in
a strange delrium
I can't find the key
to the cage I'm in
I don't know a way out
but i know i got to find it
otherwise i can never leave
and here i'll stay a prisinor
trapped inside my own mind
and where it all began
is the place where it will end
or i will never leave
this cage i'm in
this cage called life
i find myself thinking
from day to day
will i ever leave here
can i ever be saine
but some where in the back of my mind
i hear my self screaming from time to time
as i rattle the bars of my own cell
i'm living in hell
trapped inside my own mind
and where it all began
is the place where it will end
or i will never leave
this cage i'm in
this cage called life
sometimes i wonder why
why it had to be this way
but all i know
is here i'll stay
cause i don't have the key
the one thing i need
to open my own cell
to escape my own hell
here inside my own mind
and where it all began
is the place where it will end
or i will never leave
this cage i'm in
this cage called life.
LIFE IN HELL
Here i am i'd rather be dead
living off of water and bread
it's so stuffy i can not breathe
someone open a window please
oh god i think i'm gonna be sick
smelling the same old shit
no one hears my pleas
so much begging scabs cover my knees
the only sounds i hear
are echoed through my brain
like the constant steady rythm
of an endless pouring rain
the only sights that i see
are better left unknown
like the fate of the masses
better left unshown
these horrible things cover the ground
i feel them all crawling around
They live in my mind and my dreams
to make them go away i claw my eyes and scream
but despite my pitiful please
they stay to suck my blood like giant fleas
they won't go away o what shall i do
i'm so sick of all this and it's all because of you
UNTITLED
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I look out my window, i see the trees
but they twist,contort and give way
evrything is spinning
and my mind is going down the drain
I can't stand the pain!
i feel that there is nothing to feel
and yet i don't know what's fantasy and real
oh i think i know what's right sometimes
FANTASTIC
Castles built and castles fall
every day a brick in the wall
build it up just to break
never hope left to take
never send an ear to lend
leaving out cheerful doubts
care to hear my every word
just one breath a final word
take it home wrapped in plastic
another thought too fantastic
DON'T LET IT OUT
nevermind the peace of mind
that comes from within
somewhere in then
don't let it out
hold it closely
hide it away
put it away
every day
don't let it out
feel it overflowing
better get going
hold it in then
you can't let it out
one tear becomes ten years
afraid of all your fears
hold it in then
don't let it out.
hope you've enjoyed my work, keep in mind i will update soon
NightShyft
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