"Just leave her alone, she'll be alright,
As long as she keeps fighting she'll be okay."
Well what if I don't want to fight?
Then what would you have to say?
I gave up a while back
The time everyone said I'd be alright
But I guess it's motivation that I lack
Though I tried with all my might
But I'm always going to be alone
My personality rough
Cause in your thoughts I have grown
But you never looked close enough
*****Lindzey Rae / Written 4/2/98
ONLY ONE
When they look at the two of us
They only see one
They don't see me
The one hidden in the eternal shadows
They see you
The beautiful one
With sparkles in her eyes
And angels in her soul
They don't see the distant pain
For they don't look into the shadows
I try to speak up
But the words won't come
I try to make an impression
But the beauty doesn't show
I try not to be jealous
I try not to glare
But no matter how hard I try
The envy is still there
My eyes water with bitterness
And my soul is pained with hurt
The hatred just makes me look more unattractive
But it occupies my whole being
I want to be seen
I want to be noticed
But more than anything I want to be loved
The crowd sees us together
But they don't see two of us
They see one
The one with sparkles in her eyes
And angels in her soul
*****Lindsey Rae written 4/4/98
THE ROAD
I have always walked behind you
Following you
Through life's twisted roads and paths
Not making my own turns
Just following your footprints
Not always fitting in correctly
Not always looking right
But always pretending
Not always knowing
But never letting others see that
Always hurting
But not letting others sense that
You just pretended I wasn't there
Not like it mattered
I already knew that you didn't care
But I still follow you
In everything you do
Hoping you'll see...
The lonely person behind you
*****Lindsey Rae
UNTIL THERE WAS YOU
I've never been this hopeful
I've never dreamed this true
I've never had this laughter
Until there was you....
I've never asked for much
No, nothing at all
But now I'm begging for you
Cause being in love was a very short fall
Though you're not here with me
For the miles keep us apart
I can't help but want you
And long for you in my heart
Though our lips have never touched
And our hands have never met
I know we're meant to be
This relationship was heaven set
I need you all the time
And think of you every day
My feelings for you are undescribable
So "I love you" is all I can say
I hope you understand
And believe my words to be true
Because I've never been this happy
Until there was you....
*****Lindsey Rae
YOU HAVE MY HEART
I thought that we would make it
At least longer than we did
But it would hurt more to fake it
Rather than end it when we did
I thought that I was over you
You know it's almost been a year
But my feelings for you, well they grew
And in my heart I still hold you near
You were once my lover--now my best friend
And, yeah, I know you'll be there until the end
But now there is this other guy
The one who makes the night fly by
HE holds me and you won't
HE kisses me cause you can't
HE wants me though you don't
And I am not with you anymore
So what do I feel guilty for?
YOU said it was over
YOU said we were through
You no longer wanted me
But I wanted you
And now there is this other guy
He makes me feel so good
He makes me feel beautiful
But still I wish you would
I still wish you would love me
I wish you would hold me
And kiss me deep
I wish that when I saw you
My heart wouldn't leap
Cause it's over now
That thing we once had
And I want to want him,