Lost Love Poems

After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul, And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't mean security, And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises, And you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open - with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child, And you learn to build your roads on today, because tomorrow's ground is too unstable for plans, and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight. After a while, you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much, so you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure... that you really are strong... and you really do have worth. And you learn and learn... with every goodbye you learn.

A FORGOTTEN LOVE

We're all alone

The world and I
We're fighting an endless battle
Yet we don't know why
We put ourselves through pain and sorrow
Forget all we care about
We don't realize we did anything wrong
Until there is no way out
You don't want to hear the truth
Your truth is okay for you
There's people with smiles on their faces
You want to smile too
Some force themselves to love others
I can't be that way though
Some close their eyes, claiming blindness
Hiding from truth, love, the colors of the rainbow
You claim stupidity
If you cannot read
You claim to be a follower
If you cannot lead
But now what can you claim? Who can you blame?
Now that you've forgotten how to love
Maybe your friends, maybe your family
Maybe yourself, maybe the stars above
It doesn't mean much
It doesn't mean anything
Not when you've forgotten how
Forgotten how to love....
*****Lindzey Rae

MY HEART DIED WITHOUT A SOUND

I watched you walk

out of my life.
It hit me hard,
like the stab of a knife.

As you went away,

the tears came down.
My heart died then
without a sound.

Depressing thoughts

instilled my heart, my soul.
They overtook my mind,
began to take control.

I realize

and now I see,
your mind and soul
are always a part of me.

It hasn't been long

but I miss you so much.
I miss your fingertips,
I miss your touch.

I pray for God

to help me through.
I can't help but cry
when I think of you.

Alone at my house

not a soul in the world
could feel my pain,
nor watch my thoughts uncurl.

No one understands my sorrow,

can feel my pain, or knows my tomorrow.
But I know you're there
possibly thinking of me.
You'll be back someday,
then we can have eternity.
*****Author Unknown

SOMETHING EVERLASTING

As things go, I have to leave you

At times I wonder why there is
The cruelty and bitterness
Of parting, and then sit and cry

It's all gone now. It's all over

My life as I've always known it
Things change, time passes
People come, people go; all I do is hurt

Sometimes maybe I'll say hello

Sometimes maybe I'll call your name
Sometimes I'll cry at the thought of distances
Sometimes....with you again

The heartache in endless questioning

Surely you have understanding
Someone knows, someone cares, someone....
I need something everlasting
*****M.Dome

MEMORIES

Here they come

Every night the same
Silent Stars
Light from a distant flame
Just like the memories of you
That I hold inside
I see your touch
But all the warmth has died
Empty rooms, crowded with the past
Time is my enemy
Days keep moving fast
But the nights alone can be eternity
That never heals the scars of foolish pride
Here I am
Stranger to a smile
Trying to fight the tears
Missing by a mile
Like the longely moon you see above
That sails dark....alone
FOREVER
I have no light of my own
Other than the love we've known
So long ago....together
*****Alison Gaines

UNFORGETTABLE

I remember the love you gave

Those memories I'll always save
The love and care you gave to me
I once was blind but now I see
Those memories seem so sweet to me
They make me strong when I am weak
I'll never forget the feelings we shared
When times are rough and you were there
The kind of love you gave to me
Those memories I'll cherish eternally
And if I die before I wake
My thoughts of you is what I'll take
*****Joseph Matua

IT ISN'T THERE

I just don't know what to do

Why am I still inlove with you?
I know you don't love me
And that's the way it should be
She loves you, and you love her
Funny to think that's the way we were
So much love used to be there
Then, somehow, it vanished into thin air

How can I get over you?

Then love other people too
I hurt so much
Just knowing we're so out of touch
It hurts to know you don't care for me
And it can't be the way it used to be
I want you back
But she has all the qualities you love and I lack
I hope you two are happy together
Since it can't be us....
Together Forever
*****Lindzey Rae

GOODBYE TO WAITING,GOODBYE TO YOU

I waint and wait for you

The minutes and then the hours drag by slowly
I try and think of something else,
but all my thoughts are of you

I wait, longing to hear your voice

There are footsteps in the hall
My heart beats faster,
but then the footsteps slowly fade away

I wait, wanting to see you smile

Then I remember that day
The day when you smiled,
but not at me

Everyone wonders why I sit and wait

I wonder sometimes too
For fear,
I wait for fear, not fear of you
but of loosing you

Everyone wonders why I don't leave you

I wonder sometimes too
For fear,
Not fear of you, but of finding no one else

I have waited, but will wait no longer

I will no longer waste my time on you
You who doesn't understand
You who doesn't care

I have waited, longing to hear your voice,

but will wait no longer
You have had your chance,
and now someone else will call my name

I have waited, wanting to see you smile,

but I will wait no longer
You have had your chance,
and now someone else will smile for me
*****Alison Gaines

I WON'T SEND ROSES

I won't send roses or hold the door;

I won't remember which dress you wore.
My heart is too much in control, the lack of romance in my soul
Will turn you gray, kid, so stay away
Forget my shoulder when you're in need.
Forgetting birthdays is guaranteed.
And should I love you, you would be the last to know
I won't send roses
And roses suit you so.

My pace is frantic my temper's cross;

With words romantic I'm at a loss.
I'd be the first one to agree that I'm preoccupied with me
And it's inbred, kid so keep your head
In me you'll find things like guts and nerve,
But not the kind things that you deserve.
And so while there's a fighting chance just turn and go.
I won't send roses
And roses suit you so.

YOU LIED

You left me with a promise.

That promise was unfulfilled
You left me with a hope
But all has now been killed
You left me with a feeling
What feeling, I do not know
You left me with a weakness
That I am now to proud to show.

That promise that you gave me

I really did believe
The hope that once was with me
you forced it all to leave
The feeling that you gave me
I thought you really cared
and now I have to find out
that the feeling was not shared
That weakness that you gave me
that falter I still have
And I know that when I am old
I will not look back and laugh.
1/8/98 for Mike
*****Alison S. Gaines

I MISS YOU!

You have no idea how much I miss you

I can no longer get a smile on my face
Just wanting to talk like we used to
Life is dragging on at a slow pace
Now that you're never here
My tears are never dried up
I'm not in pain, I'm in fear
Fear of losing the love we have
I'm scared that you're not here beside me
And that we're walking down different paths
I just want everything like it used to be
I've never liked changes
And this one is especially painful and hard to hide
Making my whole life rearrange
Without you standing by my side
Even right now the tears are sliding down my face
You feel so far, I'm so confused
Without you here with me, I feel so out of place
I can't see straight, I'm not sure what path to choose
Are you still waiting for me at the end
Or am I alone
Why are my feelings the ones I always have to defend
I can't do it by myself anymore, you have given me strength to grow
You were always there telling me that we would be together
And that we would never separate till the end of forever
But now the words we speak are few
You have no idea how much I miss you

*****Lindzey Rae

LEARNING THE HARD WAY

You gave me a vision of what life was to be

You showed me the world that I was to see
You promised me love, said you'd always be there
To lend me a hand, to show me you care

We walked through the days never rushing our steps

We cherished our time, for ours was well spent
Then suddenly one day you weren't by my side
You were gone forever, but not a tear did I cry.

I rushed through the days by myself, all alone

I cherished our memories though my anger had grown
Then one day I thought of you, and a bitter sigh I sighed
The long awaited sadness pierced my heart, then I cried

I cried for all the empty dreams that people have these days

I cried because I had a dream, but then it slipped away.
I cried because a love like ours was always meant to last
To endure throughtout eternity the present, future, and past

A althought I would have never changed it,

In my heart I'll always know it's true;
A lesson learned the hard way, was the price of loving you

MASAKI

I know it's not the end of the world

Each time that you say good-bye
I love you so much, when you go I'm sad
It always makes me cry

Each time you go and I must stay

I'm sure you are aware
You leave behind warm memories
Of the good times we have shared

How do I heal my broke heart

As you turn and walk away
A few tears because I will miss you
Till we meet again someday

As years go by our friendship will grow

Although distance will keep us apart
I know that you will forever hold me
Somewhere deep in your heart

I will always have a breaking heart

And now that you know why
You will always notice tear drops
When you look into my eyes

Gently wipe away the tears that fall

So I can clearly see
This really isn't the end of the world
But it smees like it to me

WHAT IF?

What if it's snowing outside

And it's freezing inside
How can you warm up
Without someone to hold?

And what if inside

You're feeling alone and afraid
You have no one to love
But yet you feel betrayed

And now you're thinking

What if you fear rejection?
Then you haven't a life
At least no loving affection

What if you try to stop it?

All of the feelings and desires
Will your heart and soul go numb?
If there's no sparks or fires?

What if there's no light to guide your way

And no one to hold your hand
You don't know the answer
Why no one can understand

ALONE

They don't know why I'm crying

They don't know about all the secrets
All the pain I'm hiding
They just want to be there
To love when I need love
They just want me to know how much they care
But I still can't see it
Though people are there
I'm all alone
I don't care who they are
Or where they're from
I see the looks on their faces
I hear all the words unspoken
I smell the bitterness in their voices
I know why it's going to end, but I want to know when
I've stopped caring what they think of me
I've stopped wanting to be wanted
I've realized how my life is going to be
And why no one can care about the real true me
I'm a failure to everyone
And a no one to all the rest
I think to myself I'm the only one
Though I know that's not true
I love those who want to be wanted
But am not sure why they can't love me too
*****Lindzey Rae 2/1/98

*MOVE ON*

You left me alone
In a world full of strife
You told me to move on,
Get on with my life
I said that's easier said than done
I could never forget you
That's not the way things run
But you just said I was crazy too

I cheated on you

You lied to me
Now we're both miserable
That's not the way it's supposed to be
I left him
You stayed with her
My heart broke
To me this was the worst sort of torture

I can't stop crying

It seems like it's all ending
It's not like I'm hiding
But I just can't go on pretending
Because now the love between us is gone
There's a huge seperation
Weren't even together that long
Before I lost you....my only one
But you left me alone
In a world full of strife
Told me to move on,
To get on with my life....
*****Lindzey Rae

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