I know I was dangerously close and even though I only hoped you would, I kind of thought you'd want me too For a little while you embraced each word we shared, and I waited...Why did I wait? Patience? I don't know...but I waited and I never should have let you run like that. If you knew what I'm left imagining, would it change anything...if you could only see what you have made of me... my hands cannot reach any further beyond my dreams, and that is only too much what I fear. that day...that day you smiled left everything I ever fought to be believed in, sinking like a dull shadow under my feet. It was, it is just you. I'll throw it all away, I've thrown it all back just to be found in your arms. You passed me the pencil...the green one, yunno, with the stars and stolen eraser...straight on the desk and your eyes stared back and I thought of what it feels like to be standing in front of my dreams, yet to find they are still only a figment of my imagination. I cannot breathe, I cannot breathe... the blurry vision I possess through these tears makes me fall to my knees and become buried in every memory and smile and touch that you've given to me...I still hear you say "thanks doll" and I cherish it...I cherish you...if you could only see...what this love has made of me... if you could only see... I can feel the aching...I feel my heart breaking...just shattering and I believed I never felt it before, I hold you in my heart...I hold you in my heart and I have the sense to recognize that I don't know how to let you go...I don't know how to let you go...don't make me let you go...please don't make me let you go. I am breathless at the mercy of your smile...I am breathless from the tears you create in my soul...I've been burned like your cigarette, and trampled upon just the same. I whisper in your ear but you don't hear it, I yell at you and you ignore it. What's the point in ever trying...nothing's changing anyway, what's the point in all this screaming, you're not listening anyways. What's it gonna be, what's it gonna be...I can't do it anymore...but I will...I will...It hurts me far too much...like razor blades which glide through my heart and rust upon the touch of my tears...I cannot do this anymore...I cannot endure this anymore...but I will...for you...I will...