March 28, 2003
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HOKKIE FREEKIN' POODLE MRAZ! WOw! THat was AMAZZZZZING!! Wow...I dunno if I can type. ALl I can think is WOW! *Deep breaths* Well this morning I woke up at 9 and look over at Dom who is still very much asleep and shout "IT'S MRAZ DAY!!". I hear a few mumbles and figure I should let her sleep 'till I've finished my shower. So I get up to leave my room and make sure to grab some AC/DC on the way out. I cranked up the stereo and flipped to track eight. "It's criminal...there ought to be a law.." resonates through the house and from my room I hear..."What the hell, shouldn't you be in the shower?!?!" HAHA! So already the morning started out great! Yeah I know I used present and past tense in that last paragraph, but whatever.
We finally got out of Abbotsford at 12:30 after running our errands and headed to Van. We went to The Center just to make sure we knew where it was, and walked around the block while we were there. We bought some seat belt belts! So we left there and went to Granville Island. There were a few directional problems on the way there, but we managed :D We bought hella candy...and GIANT pixie sticks!! We also got our picature taken in a booth that made us out to be criminals. It was grand...but the best was yet to come.
By the time we got outta Granville Island it was time to go back to the venue. So we had a few more directional problems, but in the end....we finally got there. I call it fate actually. Our lack of direction did us some good. We needed to find some washrooms so we parked across the street from the venue and ran down to the Starbucks on the corner. All day I had been keeping my eyes peeled for Mraz. Plaid hat, or a red hat...that's what we were looking for. A few times throughout the day I thought I'd seen one of those...but it never turned out to be him. So we were walking down the street towards this Starbucks and I see a plaid hat. I'm like...hey Dom that guy has a hat like Mraz. I look away. Look back. Hey Dom...that IS Mraz! She didn't believe me..she's like...no it's not! But we got closer and whadda ya know?! Jason Mraz! Sitting right in front of us. So of course...me being me...I walk up to him and am all like "Jasooonn Mrrazz" and I shook his hand and introduced myself and told him I saw him in Seattle a while back....and gave him my book...and he remembered my book! He's all like...yeah it was the laminated one right? He told me it was beautiful, but who knows...he may remember the book and probly never read any of it. Oh well. So we asked if he would mind signing something and he signed both our cds and we chatted about the show we were gunna go see tonight. Then we went inside and FREAKED RIGHT OUT! Anyway...we left and he was still sitting outside so we nonchalantly sat at the table next to him and drank our Jones'. Then he left...that was sad.
We went back to the venue and picked up some Mraz merch and went to find out seats. Turns out our seats were too far away for our liking. Not that bad...but still not good enough for Mraz watching. So I suggested we go stand outside until the lights go down...so we did...and made our way down to the very front! Mraz came out and you could hear all three of us screaming! LOL! People kept coming in and we thought for sure we were gunna get booted...funny enough though...all of the seats around us filled up....the two seats that we had chosen to stand in front of were never taken. So we stood the whole time and sang real loud! I kept shouting out "Zero Percent" so at the end of his set he turned to his band and said "Zero Percent...we gotta do Zero Percent". So they did it...and it was amazing. Wow...it was wicked! Then after his set we went down to the lobby and chatted with him there. He came out to do some autograph signing and just to chat with the peoples. He came up to us and was all "hey again you guys!" so Dom and I got our picature taken with him (I'll have that up tomorrow for sure once I get it developed). It was grrrreat!!!! Then all the crowd went back to their seats to see Chantal. Cuz she was headlining and all. So Dom and I stayed outside and chatted with him some more and GAH! It was soooooooooo wicked! Wow....oh wow. LOL. What a geek. YAH MRAZ! hehe. So I'm tired. How bout you?
Dom and I ate cake on the way home. Blasted Mraz and ate cake. Can't wait to see him again. Of course the next time he comes back he'll probly be all big and famous and we won't get to speak with him. Wow. Well that was my day. It was amazing. Loved it, loved it, loved it! Wow...so awesome. Kay I gotta go to bed and stop with the ranting. Night ya'll!
~Mel
March 27, 2003
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March 26, 2003
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This morning I went out with Dom. Yah Dom! We went to A&B Sound and she got a free "poser" hat. So we wore 'em around town. Geektastic. Thennnnn we got slurpees (onomatopoeia) again...blue slurpees (onomatopoeia) this time. We also went to future shop where Dom proceeded to "pump out some slammin tunes" with the "boombox" on her shoulder. It's all about the quote unquotes. So we've decided that a new "boombox" would cost far too much for one afternoon of ridiculous fun in downtown Van. So we passed on that purchase. However, we managed to accidentally find an old eighties style "boombox" at my cousins place and since she would most definitly not be using it...ever...we took advantage of the situation and are thinking about all of the possibilites that are at our fingertips. I'll let ya'll know how things pan out.
I've acquired so much music in the past few days I have no idea what I'm listening to half the time. Gah! Hung out with John and Leon this afternoon...that was different. Leon greatly dislikes rap. Leon is smart. Oh hey it's Lacuna Coil. Time for Conan...oh wait I'm going to bed as soon as I finish this typing.
I was gunna bake a cake...and maybe some cookies (muhaha), but realised I didn't have the necessary supplies. So I didn't. I've wanted to sleep ever since I woke up this morning...I don't know why I am still up.
I went to a concert at WPBC tonight. It was a concert of lots of people performing. Some played the piano like Steph (yah Steph! *thumbs up*), some sang, others did other stuff. It was quite entertaining. They were all very good! I got lost on my way there cuz I had no idea where the chapel was. So I went to the gym. To my surprise Dean was there, but he was busy playing the drums so someone directed me to the chapel and tada. Post-concert I was gunna go home and sleep, but I thought hey I'll go say goodbye to Dean and see what they're doin' in there anyway. Turns out it was a youth thing and oh hey Jeff. Seemed like the place to be so I stuck around for a bit. Last night I learned a song by David Gray. It's a nice song called "This Year's Love". I can't remember if I already wrote about it or not, but if I did then nevermind. If I didn't...mind.
I haven't had any interesting pictures to put up lately. I'll have to get on that. Oh yeah...someone found the "gold" I was searching for a while back. But now there is another contest on...this time it's for $10,000. I'm gunna go look tomorrow if I have some time to kill.
I want to go to the beach. The beach at Whiterock. Or somewhere else that's really nice by the ocean. I miss it. I cannot wait to go home. I anticipate waking up to the sound of the ocean outside of my nan's window. Driving down non-traffic lit streets that haven't been paved since they were first created and knowing everybody by name and having them, in return, know exactly who your dad is, who your mom is and who their dads and their moms are. I'm so tired of the mumbles I hear inside my head about everything I wish could be and everything I wish I'd seen. For you to know this intense fear of falling too far forward and never knowing what I had. Don't be surprised if I fall down at your feet again, cuz I'm slipping off and losing hope that I will ever change this fate and fix this state I'm in.
*Deep breath* First time in months it's come so easily. There was a time when I could just put pen to paper and words would come like spinning thoughts inside my head and I would find myself not being able to move my pen fast enough to get them all down. Recently there has been a brick wall to peek over to even begin to see the words that I KNOW are lurking around somewhere. It's times like these that I know I will write until the day I die. Mmmm yum. Words, words, words. When I grow up I'm gunna have a room fulla books and hide away in there.
I called Canmore today and they don't have any staff accomodations anymore. They got rid of them because they were never full and since summer season was over, there was nobody around to occupy them. I don't know where I will live when I go to Canmore, but I feel myself wanting to stay here more and more. I have to go. I don't want to ruin this, I just need to go. If I'm far away I can't pull people back. Not that I would...it's just...I tend to end up doing that. Not good. Not good. This is all very vague as I am most certainly rambling.
The beach thing is really playing upon my mind. I would like to go before I leave for Alberta. I will be even further away at that point. I was reminded of my prom tonight. That was a terrible night. Gah! Questions...I like questions...no one really ever seems to ask me questions. Maybe others don't enjoy questions as much as I do. Avoid the questioner. I welcome questions with open arms...ears? I find that when I answer questions my poetics tend to surface. I like that. This is turning out to be kinda long. I hope you all enjoy reading as much as I enjoy writing. Goodnight. ~Mel
March 25, 2003
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Lot's of new music today! New music = wickedness! There is a green haired troll standing on top of my computer and I am recalling where it originally came from. My piano teacher from Newfieland gave it too me. It was glued to the top of a cardboard tube of M'n'Ms. Crazy. That was off on a tangent I know.
On to the real stuff...
After skool I walked down to A&B sound to visit good 'ol Cary. While I was there I thought..hey...look at all this great ear candy...so I decided I should buy something. So I did. What did I get you ask? Well...I got the first three albums listed above as well as John Mayer - Any Given Thursday Live. Much good may it do me since it'll take me all week to give each one a good listen. I did, however, get two free posters and a free blue mesh baseball hat. Apparently if I wear it I'll be a "poser", but I already wore it and I didn't feel at all "poserish" thus I will continue to wear it in mockery of my own lack of style.
Dom came and picked me up from A&B and we went and got slurpees. Onomatopoeia if I ever heard one. Pink slurpees. Then she got called into work so off we went.
I watched Abigail this afternoon as it was a Tuesday. We went for a walk and we played with Mr. Hash Brown (Mr. Potato Head) and other toys that I have collected from working at Wendy's. We did some coloring...yah coloring! We had some rice...but she didn't like it...so we didn't have much. We had some yogurt....but she didn't want any so we didn't have much. We had ice cream....of course...we had plenty of that...chocomalate ice cream. We played...wailed on some piano...did a little guitaring. And finally...did some screaming and crying when she had to leave and go home. She's awesome so we get to do it all again on Thursday.
Later tonight I thought hey I should put all of my cds back into their cases. So I filled a laundry basket with my cds and broght them downstairs. To my surprise I actually managed to find all of my cds. I picked up Jeff and went to Vespers after all that and it was wicked as usual. Becky was there and Steph was there and Jeff was there and lots of other people were there. Good times...good times. I'm gunna miss everything when I leave. It's nights like these that make me wanna stick around. I fear, however, that it may be for all the wrong reasons...so it's safer that I do go. I'm floating, I'm smiling again...:D I was just told to download a song called "What It Is To Burn" by Finch. It's actually quite good. I enjoy it. Kind of sounds like something I've heard before...which is common among most music today...but I do like it.
As I expected, and wrote about in an earlier journal, things are changing. People in my life are changing and good things are coming about. Great things are coming about. I'm excited to see what is next...everyday I'm excited to see what's next. I do fear, however, that if I leave...I'll somehow mess up whatever plan God has in the making. Maybe if I don't leave I will mess up whatever plan God has in the making...?? Gah!! Time for bed! Goodnight... ~Mel
March 24, 2003
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Today I got up early. It's my plan to become a morning person. As soon as I sat up in my bed the first words I uttered were "I hate mornings..". I went downtown to a coffee place and had food and interracted with the crazy "Interpretive Dance Shirt" lady. She was nice. Having a rough start to her day so I tried to be extra nice. I thought about bringing her flowers...but no where was open with flowers at 8am. Maybe tomorrow...
Then I went to the mall..yeah I know...the mall...I'm as surprised as you may be. But I bought new green pants. And a holy sweater...and funky jeans. OH! And wicked new socks! Last time I went shopping was close to three years ago. I also listened to music at HMV for bout an hour. Then I left and went downtown and played the guitar I was gunna buy. In short I'm not buying a guitar anymore. I found one at Toews that I liked as well and just got too frustrated to make a decision so I've decided that I don't need one. Gah...okay ya'll are jerks...stop messaging me with mockery!
Tonight I went to Jeff's. You don't care cuz yer the only one reading this!:p Watched some Samurai Jack (psh...what a crappy show)! Bugged Jeff some..that was amusing...hehe...watched some Incubus..that was brilliant. Now I'm home and that's all I'm gunna write cuz ya'll are cruel! Bye
Ya'll think that I'm not writing but you know what? There was some trickery afoot! Muhahaha! Back to the whole morning thing. I was on the go all day today. I still didn't get everything done that I should have. Which means tomorrow is gunna be busy busy. I have to get up earlys again, but that's okay cuz I'm gunna go to get music! How exciting is that? Maybe I'll go do some RAK (Random Acts of Kindness). Yeahhhhh that'll be wicked fun! OH! I got another sponsor for the famine in the mail today!:D From my nan back in good 'ol Newfieland. Maybe I could put up posters at the skool for the famine. That would be productive. Maybe get some people to participate at the last minute. I miss my dog. It's been since January and I thought I'd cried myself dry, but I think I just tried to not think about it. I have been lately and it makes me sad. I miss her a lot. I sometimes think that we stole her life. Who are we to decide when she dies? But she was sick and it was probly for the best. I just can't help but wonder "what if" yunno? I wish she was still here. Specially when I'm sad. Or fight with my parents. Meg would always be around to hug. She was like my sister (as stupid as that sounds) ever since I was seven. But what am I supposed to do? I can't just breakdown everytime I think about it. That's why I try not to. Then it seems as though it will always linger and I'll never get past it. I miss her. I miss her... It would be nice to have a sister. Someone to chat with and what not. Someone to love like that. Or a brother even. God says I should love people like brothers and sisters, but how do I do that if I don't know what brotherly and sisterly love is like? Yunno sometimes I think that I've been in so many disaterous relationships because I'm trying to fill some sort of love void. I mean my parents love me I know that...as I do them...but I've maybe told them twice in my entire life...and the same goes for them. I don't blame them for all my stupid boys gone through like water...but I believe I just handled my lack of feeling loved the wrong way. Tried to gain some feeling of being needed and wanted and loved through boys who didn't even care enough to find out my middle name. And to think I gave them so much of me... I've recognized it for so long...at least I'm doing something about it now. God works in funny ways. I just have to laugh when I realise what he/she is doing. I know I'm being tested...to see how badly I want this, or if God is where my mind is really at. And I can safely say that God certainly is where I want to be, and I'm not going to do anything this time to compromise my relationship with him/her. It's difficult to break old habits and ways of thinking, but I'm trying really really hard to get out of it. It's working out fairly well. My mind spins around at times, but I get a hold of it and tell it to sit still :D Whatever God wants will eventually pan out...so I'm just gunna trust that. Sounds good to me...sound good to you? Good then. Tomorrow night is Vespers and I'm excited for that. It will be enjoyable for sure. Becky will be there YAY! *thumbs up* Tomorrow I also get to watch Abigail again. That should be fun and I hope it's nice outside so we can go for a walk again :) It's like having my own kid without all the responsibility and expenses. It's great! I'm also looking forward to this weekend...it's MRAZ weekend! Anything will pretty much beat last weekend. Just one craptacular moment and thought messed it up. I had a good cry though...that was a long time coming. I got lots of mail today. That was pretty neat. One was a bill though, some publisher sent me a letter saying they wanted to know more bout my book so that was even more neat, got a sponsor cheque as I mentioned before, letter from famine people and money from the government. It was an excellent mail day. I should go to bed. I have to be up early...well early for me. So goodnight. ~Mel
March 23, 2003
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This weekend went too fast. Most of it sucked...but some of it was okay. I went to Full Life on Friday night and watched Jeff give his testimony (yay Jeff! *thumbs up*). But during worship...I was overwhelmed. I saw a girl worshipping and she was all jumpin up and down, just so into it and it dawned on me that that used to be me. I remember so well how it felt to be moved beyond belief during worship and not being able to contain myself, and I stood there wondering how I ended up getting so far away. Even though my heart and mind are set on getting things back on track with God...it's just difficult to imagine that things will ever be the same...or better...and I miss that. I will keep trying all the same...
Saturday morning I opened at work. I don't understand why it's not okay for us to be late, yet it's fine and dandy for our manager to show up fifteen minutes late. Work was slow, but I busied myself with clothes hanging. The girl who was supposed to take over for me at 1:30 didn't show up...or call...so they had to track her down and get someone else to come in to cover for her...so I ended up staying later, but that's okay..more $.
Saturday night fought with the parents...once again it was about music. And not even so much a fight really...just them coming to wherever I was playing and telling me to stop making such a racket. I dunno if that's a newfie word....I don't think so. So I won't explain it. Anyway, that led to crying and other such things that are unpleasant. I was kinda bitter so I burned some incense since I know they hate the smell. Such a disrespectful child...I should slap myself.
Today I went to church which was enjoyable. I wasn't in a singing mood though...and I couldn't read the lyrics since I forgot my glasses...but I knew some of the songs so all in all it was okay. Not knowing anyone kinda sucks and since I'm such a geek and all introverted I just follow Jeff around haha. Maybe one day I'll throw back a couple of pixie sticks before church and get some courage from my wired state. Maybe...
So here I am...bored...wide awake...wondering what I'm going to entertain myself with. I feel like writing and I have for quite some time now...I should get to it. I began some stuff earlier this evening, but nothing real impressive. Tomorrow I am off to busk in downtown Abbotsford...well not really...I'm just gunna go somewhere and play my guitar...hopefully it'll be nice and not raining. Now I'm rambling so goodnight.
~Mel
So I forgot some stuff...I went to Chris last night and we got lots of junk food. Candy, chocomalate, etc...and we watched Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back. Kevin Smith is genius. I didn't watch all of it cuz I fell asleep. I was gunna go to bed, but then Chris asked me to come over...more like convinced me and lured me with chocomalate gah! So I didn't sleep well last night which lead me to being far too tired this morning at church. Mmmm that's all that I forgot. Bye Bye.
March 21, 2003
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Just not tonight...not tonight... ~Mel
March 20, 2003
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This morning I was awaken by the phone ringing. Jeff from Canmore this time. I don't get calls from the other one so it shouldn't be too confusing haha :p So I talked with him for 'bout an hour and then I took the bus up town and looked at some guitars at Tom Lee Music. Played a few, but I didn't see anything that I really felt drawn too. Then I played some of the nice pianos :D Of course just as I started leaving it began to pour down rain! So needless to say that by the time I got to The Sound of Music I was soaked. I played some guitars there and I found one that I really really like. In a couple weeks...it could be mine! How exciting would that be?! I went to Hemingway's and got my book that I hate. I figure I can read it and sell it back to 'em haha.
Tonight I made my hair go blue. Smurf style. Well not really...but it's still blue. Here look...
So tomorrow night I am looking forward to. It should be enjoyable. I will take some pictures so ya'll will have something more exciting to look at. I've decided it's no go on Jetta and...yes...go..? on guitar! I suppose that was obvious after the last paragraph. Hmmm...maybe I will attempt some writing. Finish my short story perhaps. That's all I've got so bye bye for now. ~Mel
March 19, 2003
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I didn't have any skool today or work...so I ended up sleeping far too late. I caught up on my sleep and then some. I woke up and played my guitar...funny how it's the first thing I go for the minute I get out of bed. I think I'm changing my mind about the Jetta. Cuz I could buy a nice guitar instead, and lots of music and...well yunno I could save it too, but how much fun is that when I have a perfectly good pocket to burn a hole through?! I went to Hemingway's to get "The Old Man and The Sea" today but it was closed by the time I got around to it. Then I went to Ben's to watch "Yellow Submarine", but Brady decided to bail on us so we're gunna watch it tomorrows...nice going Brady :p I also got my shift changed for Friday so I can go watch Jeffrey do his thang at the church. Well...skool.
I should go get some chocomalate...
My cousin from Newfoundland was here when I got home this evening. I saw him back in January when he was here for Christmas...but he's just recently moved out to Surrey...well..thereabouts...to work for the RCMP. It's nice to have family close by considering all the rest of em are back in Newfie Land.
Yeah so the whole Jetta deal, eh. Well I don't neeeeed a vehicle...it would just be nice to have one since I've never had one and Jettas are fantastic. I could just wait until after summer and buy one since I'm going to be going to Canmore and then to Quebec and then to Newfoundland. Hmmm...lots to consider. Maybe after summer I could actually buy my Cabriolet or a Volvo. Oy Vei. I need to hire someone to make my decisions for me...but where would the fun in that be, right?! Gah...
I read some of my bible today. That was refreshing. I also went for coffee with Dom. Only nine more sleeps till Mraz in Vancouver! Fantastic. Superb!! Superb!!
I have skool tomorrow morning...grrrr. Jewel's new album is coming out soon! In June! So kinda soon. Her new single is coming out sooner! It's called "Intuition". I really want to make an "A Day In The Life" video. It'd probly be boring considering I don't do much that would be exciting to watch...but hey...it could be fun. Our video camera is broken so that's no go...hmpfh.
A new guitar eh...that would be great...guitar...Jetta...guitar...Jetta...yunno I'm really leaning towards the guitar aspect of things.
I went to Chris' last night and had some hot chocomalate. AND chocomalate! He got me some Hershey. Good stuff...but nothing beats Jersey Milk. OH! I also got another sponsor for the 30 Hour Famine in the mail today! That was excellent!
I know I'm not going to want to leave at the end of Avril. I can feel it...something big is happening. Something life changing and people that are coming into my life are going to play very important roles. I have a feeling...I hope it's right because I am enjoying things very much so far. I'm sure that makes absitively, posolutely no sense to ya'll. Just know it's exciting and frightening and wonderful and yummy.
I think I will add to my list. My list of qualities that would be nice to see in someone. Not necessarily needs, mind you, but things that would be nice. Wanna see it? Okay click here.
Me and my candy cane are gunna stop writing now...
I don't have anything else to say really. Maybe tomorrow will be more exciting...probly...I have a feeling...:D
~Mel
March 18, 2003
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Tonight I went to Jeff's and watched Empire Records...that was superb. Superb! Haha...makes me laugh :p Good times...good times. Highlight of that part of the night was the trip to the car...lol haha! Off to Vespers...thinking we'd be late, however, we weren't and all was right with the world...kinda. Tonight was good. I needed it and it gave me more than I expected, and set me in a place where I know that I belong in. Rather, it gave me a chance to set myself in a place where I know that I belong. *Deep breath* good stuff.
Still struggling with the whole go to Canmore, stay here deal. I think I should go, but I fear that if I leave I will miss out on some great friendships that I am in the process of building. It's nice to be respected for once. I never even realised that there was a lack of that in my life until I was receiving some. This all seems to be getting more and more personal...I dunno how I feel about that. I won't go into things too much...I'm sure if anyone who wants to know more is reading this they will take the time to ask me personally.
I am tired...no skool tomorrow...no work. Going to look at my Jetta that I am buying and going to switch a shift...so I'm gunna go to bed. This is the perfect time to catch up on all the sleep I lost this past weekend. Sleep...I feel like I'm wasting time...but I need sleep...so goodnight.
March 17, 2003
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I have no picature yet cuz I'm at skool and that makes it difficult to upload from my camera. I'm so tired and cold. Whine whine whine...I'm such a whiner. Too bad...
On Sunday night I went and hung out with Dan again...same old same old...guitaring and musicing...no sleeping. I learned a new song by Jason Mraz called "Better". It's very pretty and I can kinda, sorta, not really sing it *thumbs up*. Last night I went to Jeff's and watched Samauri Jack...is that how you spell "samauri"? No...it's "samurai"..there we go. We watched Samurai Jack. It's a cartoon *thumbs up*. I wasn't as impressed as I had hoped (and Jeff if yer reading this don't freak right out or anything), however, another episode or three are necessary to really form an opinion. Maybe I take cartoons too seriously. Maybe...
After that we went to bible study where I listened intently to a heated discussion about the impending war. I've been thinkin about the war for quite some time...I just haven't been able to really make an informed decision about where I stand. I know I've always been against it...I've felt like going to war isn't the answer...but now I feel like I have reasoning behind my opinion. I'm not gunna go into it though cuz it's long and tiring. Maybe tomorrow or something.
I'm stressin over what to do about Canmore. I wanna go back. But there are things that would keep me here. Like friends...more ways and places to get in a God-like environment...but sometimes I think therein lies the problem. I think I should go and get away from things...clear my head...spend time with God. I reallllly need time with God...tonight will do some good since I'm going to Vespers. That will be good. Last week it went really quickly, it probly will this week as well...but I need it. This past weekend has been crazy and stressful and I have to begin pulling myself back up from wherever I've fallen down.
All sounds rather depressing, eh? I have class in half an hour...then I have to bus it home to watch Abigail (two year old...cousin? not really but we'll call her that). Anyway...that's that...I'll probly have more to say later tonight or tomorrow...maybe a pic or two. Bye bye...
~Mel
March 15, 2003
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I should have written something last night since I was up for the biggest part of it. I had a great Thursday night so here goes...
So I worked this morning and was appauled at the laziness of my other co-workers...and I'm talkin' "managers". It's silly. I just laugh when I think about the backwardness of that place. I werk my behind off to make sure everything gets done, and this so called manager isn't even able to take two minutes to sweep. Gah...I shouldn't be whining...it is self-righteous and gets us no where. So tonight I played some guitar...and am waiting to do something...something exciting. I will make it happen...I've got all night :D
~Mel
March 13, 2003
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Last night I worked. Made me a little bitter, but I dealt with it. I found gummy bears hiding under the counter so I made sure to finish those off! After work I went to Boston Pizza with my co-workers and Dom to celebrate our manager's bday. We had cake and the whole works..it was much fun. The pic is of Alley and Jess. Clothing and Footwear girls :D We all left the store together last night...well so we thought. When we got to BP we were seated and looked around and thought....hey where's Jess? Then it dawned on us that she didn't leave with us. Turns out she was changing in the back and we left without her so she was locked in the store and couldn't get out! In the dark! In the big scary store all alone! We all felt pretty bad for that one. Our manager, Dave, went back and let her out then she came and joined us.
Before work I went to A&B Sound to look at car stereos since I will be buying one in a couple of weeks for my new JETTA!!:D I also bought a new cd. A Lacuna Coil cd...it is very good!:)
I got called into work today. Gah! I didn't wanna go..but I need the hours and they were desperate. So of course I went. It's never as bad as I anticipate. I enjoy it. It will be so sad when I have to leave. I really like my co-workers too! Change is a good thing though. Even though I don't really enjoy it...it's necessary to live and grow. We found sour patch kids and gummie bears tonight! Those were yum! After work I went to Tim Horton's and got an english toffee coffee :D I'm also trying to write a short story. I haven't gotten past the first paragraph yet though. I will...just have to put my mind to it. It's something I really want to do.
I got a sponsor for the 30 Hour Famine in the mail today! That was exciting! People are actually responding to my efforts. I have nothing of interest to say..so I'll stop wasting your time. Goodnight...
~Mel
March 11, 2003
Music of the day:
Today was spiff-a-riff! Well...tonight was anyway. All day I pretty much did a whole lot of nothing. Went into work and got my sKeduale. Yes...sKeduale. None of this British sHeduale nonsense! Nothing against the British mind you...just wanna irritate this guy below...;p
Soooo I went to Vespers this evening. And I tell ya...it was a strange experience. We were all singin' along and I'm thinking we're about half way through...and the singer guy says "See you next week!". I was shocked! An hour flew by like it was nothing. It was very good and much fun so maybe that was why it went so quickly. But it went strangely fast! Hmm...maybe the world was spinning a little faster tonight. I don't doubt it. Things have been good. I don't know how much I'll be wanting to leave in a month. I figure I should go though. My friends will probably leave and go do their own thing, so I should as well.
No skool tomorrow...I have to close at work though. Shouldn't be too bad. If it's busy maybe it will go fast as well. I've nothing more of interest to say really. I was introduced to some fantabulous music over the past few days though. Quite enjoyable! I think I'm gunna make some new clothes tomorrow. Goodnight! ~Mel
March 8, 2003
Music of the day:
Okay so today wasn't all bad. After I managed to drag myself out of bed that is. That was the most difficult part. Work was actually kinda fun. It's always that way. I dread it but then once I get there I enjoy it.
Nothing much happened today really. Besides work and after work. It's kinda difficult to have a story when I'm stuck at work all day. The inability to take picatures is dreadful...so tomorrow I will attempt to take some while searching for gold in the snow.
After work I hung out with Jeff. That was enjoyable. Played some guitar...listened mostly which was wicked. I could listen for days...and days...and days...and still wish for it to go on for just a few more hours. I finally got to have the english toffee cappucino I've been craving from EA. It wasn't as good as I remembered. I'm told it was probly cuz someone different made it. So now I dunno if I should ever have another or not. Such a predicament.
I've also decided that I need to learn more about the things I feel passionately about. Par example: 30 Hour Famine. More specifically World Vision. I mean...I've read about it lots, just want to be more objective and see if there is any reason for me not to help them. Adidas as well. I've read good stuff and bad stuff about them. I'm not usuamally one for big corporations and such...but I've always held them in much higher esteem than Nike. Ugh...I will never wear it. Ever.
On that note...I'm cold...quite cold and I have some strange not good feelings in my arms and hands. Maybe it's cuz of the guitar playing. I've been playing a lot this week (singing when no one's around as well!:p). On that note...I'm not gunna write anymore. On here anyway...I have nothing of interest to say. I feel the inspiration to write some poetry. Which is wonderful because I haven't had that in some time. So bye bye.
~Mel
March 7, 2003
Music of the rest of the day:
So skool proved to be rather stressful. I got there with an hour to finish everything up, I printed off my essay and went to the library to make sure I had my sources right, and it was a good thing I did cuz one was wrong! I had scribbled the citation down so quickly that I couldn't read my hand writing when I typed it up. Took me ten or fifteen minutes to find the actual quote and cite it correctly. After reprinting the essay and wrestling with the stapler I headed to class. At least that was enjoyable. We discussed another story. Another story that I didn't read. I wish I had though. I don't intend to not read them...I just procrastinate and don't allow myself enough time. Anyway...it was another great discussion. Lots of notes though. My teacher made reference to Conan O'Brien who I happen to think is genious and he also made mention of the movie "Dogma" which is brilliant as Kevin Smith is also a genious.
Anywho I came home after that and tried to get some rest since I didn't get much sleep last night, but I couldn't fall asleep. Gah! Then at six I had to work. Work...stressful. My head was spinning the entire night. It was Friday and they had me closing alone. I was schedualed until ten but I didn't end up getting out of there until sometime after eleven. AND while I was there they played a little game of entrapment on me. Asked me to come in tomorrow morning from 9:45 till 6. I wouldn't mind working...I just don't want to have to deal with the mean girl I have to work with. She is just ruthless lemme tell ya. Turns out I also have two more shifts with her next week. Oh well...I am quitting in a few weeks since I plan on moving to Canmore in a month.
So now here I am typing this before I drag myself to bed. I don't like to give in to sleep because it seems like such a waste of time. However, I do really really like sleeping. It's wonderful. I mostly do it to dream though. The only real true purpose of sleep I think is to escape into someplace surreal. If I knew all the words I would write myself out of here (there's some Mraz for ya'll). That's it for now. I'm tired and I am going to bed as I have to be up for work tomorrow morning. See...I knew it...on Thursday I told someone that this weekend was gunna be wicked. As soon as I said it I knew I had spoken too soon and already it's coming back to kick me in the expletive deleted. Bye bye.
~Mel
March 7, 2003
Music of the day:
So I've had no time to write anything for the past two days. All because of an essay I had to write. Those things are so time consuming. Probably because I put them off until the last minute and don't give them my full attention when trying to write. It is finished, now I just have to figure out a way to get to skool. I went to wait for the bus this morning at 8:30 and it didn't come. It was quite the ordeal getting out of the house as well! Mind you I was on the phone so it was partly my own doing, but it was a worthwhile phone call! I ended up scrambling around searching frantically for my rainbow colored mittens but I just couldn't find them...so I grabbed a different pair. As I was walking out to the bus I realise that I had forgotton my money that I needed to buy a bus pass, so back in the house I ran, my glasses steemed up as I came back inside making it incredibly difficult to see what I was doing...and as I reached my hand in my pocket to grab my keys I realised that the mittens I had been searching for were in there! What a way to start the morning. I really have to give myself more time. I work better under stress...maybe it's best this way?! Went back out to the bus stop and some lady ended up driving by and telling me that the bus went off the road and that I should just go back inside. Gah! I was thankful for her information but how am I supposed to get there now? It snowed last night, but there isn't even any snow on the roads so I don't understand how it could have possibly gone off the road?! Icy I suppose. Who know...crazy BC drivers. They should try braving the snow in Newfoundland (see below)!
So as I sit here in my icy state I'm wondering if I'll be able to make it to skool in time to finish all the work I have to do. I still have to edit my essay and print it out and read a story for my class which is at 11:30. Hmmmm. I think I should have gone to bed earlier. Well earlier than 3:30 am anyway.
Last night I worked. From 5pm-10pm I was all alone at big 'ol Sportchek. Which was a tough job even though it wasn't really busy. The customers were very steady and it was my assigned duty to make sure every item at the P.O.S. desk (not to be confused with any other abbreviations since it stands for Point Of Sale) had a UPC on it. Inventory is coming up so everything must have a UPC or else! We also had two new managers in which made things a little difficult. One was training the other and the one training was from a completely different store. Not even a Sportchek! Just one of the stores that is owned by the same people that Sportchek is owned by. So I was being bombarded with question after question all night by the people who are supposed to be there to answer my questions. It did make me feel important though! I ended up getting out of there at 10:15 which isn't bad considering all of the work I had to do (there is more that I haven't included because the technicalities of my job would just bore you even more than the mundane occurances of the rest of my life).
The past couple of nights nothing exciting has happened cuz I've been trying to write my essay. Now it's done so there will be plenty of envigorating (sp?) details for you to read about ha. On that note...I am off to skool. Bye bye :) ....oh look there goes the bus...whoops...back on the road apparently!
~Mel
Music of the day:
So today was wicked! First off I went to my favorite class at school (English), where my prof looks like Hugh Grant and is just as intensly humerous. I found out that my group presentation from last week got an A...so that was all well and good. We had an awesome convo about a story that we were supposed to read, however I didn't read it. None the less I enjoyed the discussion...I think I may have read it before anyway...but it was good. We got out early and I went and picked up an essay that I wrote a while ago that I didn't get back cuz I didn't go to class the day we got them back. Ended up getting a B+ which I was happy with cuz I was sure I had bombed it. And it turns out he was really impressed with it. He wrote a bunch of comments saying that he was "so very impressed" with my essay and that I "exhibit an excellent understanding" of the story I wrote on. He also said it was "well-structured with an internal logic that makes it a joy to read". How sweet is that. He also said "I am very proud for you!" lol. So I'm ringing my own bell here...whatever I was excited for myself! :D
After school I had to go begin gathering citations for my next essay..that was boring. I had to take the bus home and that was terrible. We rode on an old bus...one of those that isn't wheelchair accessible and the whole ride up the mountain to my place was bump after bump after bump. The breaks would screeeeeccch sooo loudly at every stop and the have broke bench seat kept banging against the window. Nice eh. Reminded me of something out of a ghetto movie. That's me...livin' in the ghetto of Abbotsford. It's true! Well...not entirely true.
When I came home today I left again right away cuz mother is home sick. Shouldn't it be the other way around you ask? Yes, probably...but I left. Maybe I'm a bad child. Probly. I did, however, bring her back cold medicine. Good child. Then I went looking for gold again!! Oh yeah!! I forgot to mention...how could I forget...I got the mail after I got off the terrible bus ride...and to my joy and excitation there was a cd waiting there for me! Jason Mraz "Sold Out, In Stereo"! How sweet is that. I ordered a while ago...and had been expecting it so I was quite ecstatic. It is so incredible. Much better than his over produced studio album...which is great mind you...just not as good as the live stuff.
Anywho...back to the gold. I went and looked at Delair Park which is right by my place because the new clue that was in the paper today lead me to believe it could be there. Cows...soccerball...and such. Apparently not. I searched that place up and down...for like an hour or more...and nothin'...nothin' at all! I'll find it yet!:o
I went to A&B Sound today to make sure they were singing Mraz's praises! They WEREN'T!! I was shocked and appauled. However...good 'ol Cary fixed that right up for me. Good 'ol Cary!:D We had some Mraztacular tunes after my uproar. Like that? I did. Yeah so I'm a dork...whatever he's wicked!
Came home and played some guitar this evening...learned some more Curbside Prophet. It's by far the most difficult song I've challenged yet. But so much fun to play. I'll get the hang of it once I practice it some more.
Went to Vespers (Tuesday night youth gathering to worship God through loud loud music and singing)...that was brilliant. As it always is though. Dean and Jeff showed up...chatted with them for a minute or two...good guys...good guys. I went there with Becky and her friends...Dan and...umm...Aaron..yes that's right. All in all...a good, fun night. Now here I sit in my purple pyjamas and realise that I have to get dressed into some warmer clothes as I am going to Tim Horton's where I can play my guitar loudly. Everyone is sleeping here...sucks to that...I'm leaving. Bye bye :D
~Mel
March 3, 2003
So the crappy weekend is over. Wasn't all bad, but emotionally it sucked some serious rocks! Today I slept until 12 and didn't go to French class yet again. However, I did go to the school and handed in my two assignments. Whether or not she will accept and mark them is another story. Oh well. I just can't wait for the next month and a bit to be over and done with. Then I can finally leave and go back to Canmore. I got my agenda back too! I had lost it and some east indian dude called me up cuz my number was inside of it and told me that he would leave it at the school for me. So I got it back. Thankfully. I went to the library afterwards to look at the old Search For Gold clues. It's this contest in my town. There is a laminated, credit card size certificate hidden somewhere around town. It's in a public place and every week the newspaper publishes two clues as to where it might be. This time around it is worth $5000. I really want to find it cuz hey...I could use a free $5000. No luck yet though. Anywho..I wanted to look at the old clues to see how they might be thinking and what the clues have to do with the actual place that the certificate is hidden. Then I left and played some guitar outside in the sunshine. I went to Tom Lee music as well and played a really nice Taylor guitar. That's my dream guitar. A Taylor 914 or 614. Nice! Tonight I went to bible study at the Gourmet Gallery (a coffee shop) with friends Dean, Jeff and Steph and it was rather interesting. We talked about where we stand as Christians on the current war issue. I, personally, am confused as hell. I mean...how can we justify going to war and killing however many people? We can't! Yet...how can we stand idly by and watch a nation live under a dictatorship and let their leader threaten the lives of others? I mean...Canada...okay doesn't really have a huge part in all of this now...but they may one day. It's just...I don't think war is the answer. It may be the last straw....but I haven't seen or heard anything yet that proves that to me. There was a guy in downtown Van protesting. He was wearing a robe and sandels and had long hair. He was dressed as Jesus and was carrying a big sign that said "Who Would Jesus Bomb?". That made me think. He probly wouldn't bomb anybody. However, according to the world's leaders (Bush, Saddam), someone has to die. I don't get it. And it's all so much more confusing because no one is sure about the reason for war. Oil, justice, power...? Whatever...it hurts my head to overthink this stuff. Kind of depressing as well. After that discussion at Gourmet I came home and played some Mraz. I learned Curbside Prophet. It's such a fun song to play. I'm not pro yet...but soon enough...soon enough ;) Chris called and asked me to come spend the night. I wasn't going to at first..but I figured whatever why not. So his friends Mike and Luke came and picked me up and we all went to see Cradle 2 The Grave. It was stupid...but it was free cuz Mike werks at the theatre. Not my kinda movie...but oh well. Now here I am...after finally getting that picture to work. But that's all for tonight. I'm gettin' tired. Oh yeah...I got new glasses today too! That was exciting...I'll get a pic up soon enough. Goodnight!
~ Mel

* Jason Mraz - LIVE AT THE CENTER!
* Chantal Kreviazuk - LIVE AT THE CENTER!

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* Rhett Miller's "Designs On You"
* Concrete Blonde's "Joey"
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* Jason Mraz - Live at Java Joe's
* Finch's "I Miss You" & "What It Is To Burn"
* STP's "Creep"![]()
* The Nixons - Latest Thing
* The Ataries - So Long Astoria
* AC/DC - Highway to Hell
* Snake River Conspiracy's "Love Song" & "How Soon is Now"
* David Gray's "This Year's Love"
This morning I went to my englilish (hehe) class. It was fairly boring. All we did was watch the end of a Hemingway biography (I'm not a big fan of Hemingway, save his short story "Hill Like White Elephants" of course. I highly recommend thata one.) Whoooooo. Sign me up! We did a teacher evaluation where I gave my prof a score of 'very good' for every question asked. He is an excellent prof. Best I've ever had. I would stay in skool just to take his classes, but he's not full time there so he probly won't be there next semester. The head of the english dept. came in and talked to us about other skool stuff. I was highly uninterested. Strung out on OK Computer...mmmmm Paranoid Android. ![]()
* Sneaker Pimps
* Alanis Morissette - Under Rug Swept
* Jason Mraz ![]()
* K's Choice
* Alanis Morissette - Under Rug Swept 
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* Dave Matthews
* Something Jeff was playing in his car ![]()
* Feisty "Night"
* John Mayer "Comfortable"
* Alanis Morissette - Feast On Scraps
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* Jason Mraz - WFMRTC
* Candlebox "Sometimes"
* Tori Amos "Precious Things" ![]()
* AFI
* Myself playing "Better" over and over![]()

* Deftones - White Pony
* Lacuna Coil - Comalies
* Matt Wertz
* Audioslave
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* The Ramones
* STP's "Plush"
* Alice in Chains
* Martial Law
I got called in to work...that sucked but hey it's money. After work I came home and did some stuff, made some pancakes, watched Conan, etc. At around 2am I was invited to Dan's place (see below), so I went and we were "chillin' like ice cream fillin'" and we played some guitar (kinda...as much bass guitar as I could figure out, however, he was all pro)and looked at some picatures and took some picatures and listened to lots of music (mystery Ramones)...and didn't sleep...gah! It was fun fun. Only thing...the next morning I had skool :( That's no good. I could barely keep my eyes open in class. It was terrible! I so badly wanted to pay attention, but I was nodding off uncontrollably. Yuck..I do not enjoy that feeling. Anyway...immediately after skool I went home and slept. I was so tired it was sickening. So I slept till nine...that's six hours. I had to work this morning so I wanted to be well rested, but I ended up not being able to sleep on account of sleeping till nine, so I was up till 4:30am and then I fell asleep again for a few hours before I had to be up for work at 7. Wow...how dull is this. Reading of my sleeping, or lack their of, habits. On to something else...
"Hi, I'm Dan" *waving* (well...maybe not)![]()
* Lacuna Coil's "Cold Heritage" and "A Current Obsession"
* Ani Difranco's "32 Flavors" ![]()
* Lacuna Coil (anything by them but "Purify" especially)
* Stone Temple Pilots' "Plush"
* Matt Wertz (again, anything by him but "I'm Sorry, Mary" especially)

"Hi, my name is Jeff" *waving*
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* Acoustic Jeff Tench :D
* Jarr (new to me but quite enjoyable!)
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* Radiohead's "Paranoid Android"
* Box Car Racer's "And I"
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* Elton John's "Rocketman"
* Sarah Vaughan,
* Steve Poltz's "I Thought I Saw You"
* New Jason Mraz acoustic cd! "Sold Out, In Stereo"
* Jason Mraz "Waiting For My Rocket To Come" now in Canada!