9/18/01- Agh, there's way too much confusion in my life lately. First off, school sucks a fatty one, and I just hate the feeling of waking up and knowing I have about 6.5 hours of pain to look forward to. Then there's stupid guys. Why is it that I always fall for the guys who just want to be players? It's so annoying and dumb. Why can't guys just grow up and realize that someday they're probably going to have to be married to one person, so, they might as well practice for it by having one girlfriend at a time!!!!! I didn't go to school today, and that makes me happy, it feels so much more right to just sit at home and actually get stuff done instead of sitting in class and dazing off and not paying any attention. I really try, but after awhile, my eyes glaze over and yeah...I don't get the best grades. That's another scary thought. I hope I can get into at least two colleges so I have a choice. I'm going to look at Montana state next week, where my brother goes. So Î might end up going there next year, if I can get a scholarship that is. Very very doubtful!