I've been sitting here, staring at my computer screen for about 5 minutes, just completely lost in thought about life, love, and everything that matters. Ive been doing a lot of thinking about that today, im not exactly sure why though. It might have to do with my experiences of the last couple of days, or maybe its just my time of the month to contemplate, as so often happens. I've been thinking about people, specifically. What is it about certain people that causes us to be drawn to them? Is it appearances? I think yes, sometimes, but not necessarily good or bad appearances, more so, i like to use the word interesting. If i see an interesting looking person, they automatically look good to me, even if they dont fit into the generic categories of "hot," "gorgeous," or "beautiful." Sometimes people just look like they could carry on a conversation and make it funny, melancholy and exciting. These are the people i seek out to know. On the other hand, why do people have to be such blatant fuckwads so often? Do you people honestly believe you were placed on this planet to piss others off? Or do you believe you are merely testing the boundaries of others? Also, why do people consistently try to succeed in making me feel as miserable as possible? I simply don't understand, and i never will. Last but not least, why cant i find one single person or thing to make me happy?