Somber

Somber tone and recognition

An endless struggle to complete life’s mission

Tears well up and muscles start to clench

To let go this murder of creation

To never let these fucking nerves flinch

From the roots ill arise and make these eyes

Stop staring into my soul

And keep taking me away once I feel whole

Evaporating into the sky forgetting who I am

And why I must strive

To look into this fog and never let go

What I will become

Ill scratch Ill claw until my nails bloody

And I know Ill fucking fall as well

Searching for my god forsaken destiny

 

Looking in places for the mask I will wear forever

Choosing an identity that I know I will treasure

But the journey is long and hard

Full of traps that seem to ensnare my being

And swallow me whole

Just to find myself getting out and never looking back

At these instances that seem to clasp around my wrist

And try to stick for reasons beyond my knowing

Because thus far I can remember the pain but the happiness

Is lost beyond all reason

Fuck tt cause giving up is no longer written

A word foreign to me

Something that describes what I will never be

Even if the hands come out of the grass to pull me down

Ill fight until the air leaves my lungs and I drown

On the very essence that lets me exist 

Because this sick curiosity of a hell on earth makes me persist

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