Fucking shit
I scream
I scrape at my arms
Nothing, nothing can take me from this harm
It is internal
Not exactly a threat
Just crap hatred and endless shit
My god the blood it streams down my arms
My god the knife is red and warm
No more
No more of this
Why does no one help
There is no one to hear
I’m deserted Fucking nothing is clear
No more time
No more life
No more fucking faith
I have been beaten down and
No more is left
My strength gone and nothing left of taste
No more standing tall
No more fucking life at all
Look at me I have fallen never to arise
No more phoenix in my eyes
This fucking rope is choking me now
I’m hanging from the black cloud
It hurts
But the pain is a release to me
This blood a crimson key
One that opens the door to my soul
One that can stab into the pain and let it all go
My eyes empty
And my stomach turns
A lost fucking sheep as the world churns
I laugh but it is only out of spite
For the this that goes on continuously night after night
An arc on my face demolished by life
An interaction between the tree of life
A blemish on the eternal light
No more no more
And
fucking forever goodnight
