My entire life I've been ridiculed and made fun of. In grade school it was b/c I was a nerd. In high school b/c I was still a nerd and also considered to be a freak. I even got made fun of by my friends. Thursday was pick on Ben day. I still get ridiculed today by my friends, enemies and fraternity brothers. I have a good sense of humor about it but you can only take so much of it. What the fuck is it about me that brings this on? Am I that open for punishment? Are ppl telling me that they don't really like me? Or maybe it's because I don't "fight" back. I never make fun of people b/c of what it did to me. It's cruel and I don't see the point. Why would you do that to someone. I understand kidding around w/ your friends but some people do it incessantly. I know I am not completely innocent, but I still abstain from it for the most part. Some days I feel like I'm walking around with a fucking target on my chest. Someone please fill me in.

Sorry.