Sleeper

Not much of a sleeper these days
Afraid I'll dream of you
and those painful words you said.
Stay up killing myself
Chainsmoking my life away
Thinking my sanity away
You always said I thought too much.
I cry in my sleep
Or so I'm told
Racing thoughts won't let me rest
My mind replays the day
in a red-tinted light
And I'm growing blind from the brightness
Need to sleep
But I won't let me
Tired now.
I think I'll stop.
So very tired