these two sides are constantly at war within us. if we find a
girl we
love, sooner or later we're gonna want another one. if we do
nothing
but fuck every girl who piques our dick's interest with no
thought of
love, sooner or later we'll become discontent and want something
more
from these woman.
good little daughters of Catholic priests, pregnant smack
addicts at 15.
the guy from the most immoral upbringing, with a better
understanding
and desire for redemption than most.

how do we handle this internal struggle? we sit the fence. we
try to
let both sides have their way at the same time.
sure ill have a "meaningful" relationship, so long as i can fuck
her
best friend on the side.
sure i'll go to church every sunday so long as i can break every
one
of the fucking commandments on a whim.
sure ill be the shining definition of your pal, so long as it
doesnt
interfere with my plans.
am i wrong in thinking thats fucked up?
im not saying either God or Animal is more right than the other.
all
im saying is that its a fucking WEAK way to live when you cant
decide
which side of the coin you are.
THAT is why ideals arent a reality. people are under the
illusion
that evry fucking emotion they feel is what they truely want.
half of every waking feeling is a lie.

true knowledge is the ability to sort that shit out.

just some thoughts dredged by somethin you wrote called "pain"

later,
chad (aka rob marlo, aka fuckhead)