To: You
Directly From: My heart
October 29, 2005
Dear YOU,
Three months have passed since you've left, and the pain in my heart still lingers deep within. Things have changed. Life's different without you now. Life's been hard without you by my side, making me smile, cheering me up, telling me that everything would be okay, encouraging me through each and everything I do. Even if you were against it, you'd still be by my side supporting me because you cared. My feelings meant something to you, and I know that through the many things you did/said to me. I want to thank you for that. For making me feel special, making me feel that I was someone in this world, that can mean the world to someone, and change someone's life. I miss talking to you, I miss hearing you call my name. I miss everything about you. But mostly, I miss you. Nobody sees the agony that's deep inside me. Nobody knows me as well as you do. Nobody can ever experience nor understand the effect that you've had on my life. Since I've met you, I've changed in so many extravagant ways that I can ever imagine. I've turn into a better person because of you. I've realized there's more to life than the things I hear, the things people say, and the many things I see in my life. You've made me a stronger person. Through the times you've made me mad, sad, cry over you, I know it was all because of the matter that I loved you. You have no idea how much I miss you. It's amazing, its undescribable, the way you made me feel. Through the time I've known you, I experienced the feeling of being loved, I've learned so much from you, saw life from a different perspective, in the point of view of someone that held on to life with hope, when all was lost. And for your many imperfections, I loved you. I know you are in a better place now, where there is no drama, nor pain. It's been taken away from you so that you're at peace. Although you are gone, I know that deep down in my heart, you will always be by my side, guiding me with each step I take through this journey I call life.
LOve always,
Me.
072989.072905
I haven't forgotten, never have, never will. Never forgotten. Forever Missed.
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;+; I know some of you would read this, and I've held it in for a really long time. I understand that I may get annoying when talking about him, that's why I've stopped. It's just hard for some of you to understand for me that no matter what, there will always be something there, something that once was my happiness, something that has no existence now. I am over him. Course I miss talking to him and everything, but that's apart of this feeling. I'm human, there's going to be phases and feelings as such, I'd just wish some of you would understand and stop assuming the things you are. Cause it's not what you think. I hear the things some of you say about me, you act like I don't know, you think that I'd never find out, but I do know, I'm not stupid. I've understood that I have to move on, and I have, but everytime I hear things that some of you say, it hurts me, it brings back all the memories. You may think I'm crazy and everything, but think what you want to think, cause it's not my problem, it doesn't effect me, it doesn't waste my time, it's your issue, cause love makes you do crazy things. Just please, stop, let me do my thing. I just ask that you to respect how I feel, just this once. Let me feel the way I want to, just let me be me. ;+;
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