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Tuesday, 26 April 2005
lifeterms part 2
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This is my awareness and prevention after I ran from all the things I have done wrong and crimes I did. I finally got caught an went to jail in Jennings county Indiana I asked them to take me to a doctor well they did take me to Indianapolis, Indiana they took me to a HIV doctor an was supposed to go back well guess what they said they had no appointments showing for me to go back in Jennings county jail then I got upset. Do you know that they never took me! The sheriff then showed me a list of bills that made me feel like he was just blowing me off. I thought to myself - why he is showing this to me. I still didn?t get any meds while I was there in that jail. Finally it got so bad I finally had to beg for them to get me out of there. Well I went to prison in New Castle, Indiana and they did give me medication alright. So I asked my mom the other day if she would to get involved with me. The following is what we did together. (Mark) Mom how did you feel when I told you I was HIV+ in March of 1994? How did dad feel about it? (MOM) I was scared to death! I thought you would die within the year. And I believe dad felt the same way. Well mom we still are learning more and more everyday and I love you for getting involved with me writing this. When I got out of prison I couldn?t vote and I truly wanted to.(BUT MY MOM DID) (Mark) How did you feel about my first day out of prison - when certain family members were scared to allow me to stay with them and there children? They were scared to death of the rash on my face combined with blood and scabs? (MOM) I was really glad when you got out son. But I was extremely upset that our family wouldn?t let you stay there tell I got there to pick you up. Ok, stop for a minute. This rash - I had this all the way threw jail and prison an they did give me some cream for my face but it didn?t help, in fact it got worse. Back to (MOM) My Aunt an Uncle felt so bad but the kids said you had sores all over your face and they were scared for there children and didn?t want me around them. Considering the way you looked made them scared. They love you mark! It scared me about they way you looked but more then the rash I was worried that you hade been mistreated and that made me very angry. You looked scared and felt that know one would ever love you. I just want you to know that we love you and if there is anything that you need we are here for you. (Mark) Ok, what really made me angry (and I hope this makes it to every paper in the world) is the following: I finally got a doctor here where my mom lives an got a HIV genotype done and some other lab work. My cd4 was in the double digits and found out that I was resistant to all of the medication I had been taking. I couldn?t believe what I was hearing and ANGRY is putting it mildly as to what I was feeling at that moment combined with the feeling of betrayal. I wanted to sue everyone involved and make them pay for there in ability to properly treat me. This isn?t a game ? it is my life! My mother asked me let it go. I can?t and won?t let it go. This has gone too far and I feel that I must let the world know about it. (MARK) ?How did you feel about me losing weight and my uncontrollable bowels?? (MOM)?How any mother would feel, WORRIED that you were getting worse and that I was going to lose you! That?s my biggest fear!? (Mark) It?s not fun when you lose weight like this cause of wasting away and when I get the night sweats it feels like some one threw a five gallon bucket of water on me and I wakeup that way or have crap all over you in the bed. Let?s now talk about awareness ? the HIV virus attacks the white blood cells. Your white blood cells are what fights infection. Since I been out, I have remained drug free for 3 years. I?ve been told Aids is a sin, well it?s not a sin, it is a disease. I live in a small country town an there is no awareness and prevention. Now how can you prevent yourself from catching HIV? Remain abstinent! A lot of people are not willing to refrain from sex however. Unfortunately no sex is thee only safe sex. Those words especially go out to the teenagers in this world! You have your entire life ahead of you. Think about it ? it having sex worth sacrificing your entire future. Aids can be transferred via body fluids, semen, blood . If you cannot say no to sex or are older and find the right person for you ? get tested first. If you date more than one person condoms are good protection to an extent, but some do break. Don?t be afraid of shaking the hand of someone that has been infected. Sitting next a person with HIV will not make you susceptible to catching it and there is no need to worry. I plan to add more to this revision of my letter. I am hoping this gets published and if it does not then that is one more example of the ignorance in this world. That is an infection in itself ? ignorance. People are not taking heed to what they are being taught about HIV and seem to not take it seriously until it is too late. From Mark Salsman an Alice Salsman

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