My tea's gone cold
I'm wondering why
I got out of bed at all
the morning rain
clouds up my window
and I can't see at all
And even if I could
it'd all be grey
but your picture on my wall
it reminds me that it's not so bad
it's not so bad
My tea's gone cold
I'm wondering why
I got out of bed at all
the morning rain clouds up my window
and I can't see at all
And even if I could it'd all be grey
but your picture on my wall
it reminds me that it's not so bad
it's not so bad
Dear Slim,
I wrote you but you still ain't callin'
I left my cell, my pager
and my home phone at the bottom
I sent two letters back in autumn
You must not have got 'em
It probably was a problem
at the post office or somethin'
Sometimes I scribble addresses too sloppy
when I jot 'em
But anyways fuck it
what's been up man
how's your daughter?
My girlfriend's pregnant too
I'm out to be a father
If I have a daughter
guess what I'm-a call her?
I'm-a name her Bonnie.
I read about your uncle Ronnie too
I'm sorry
I had a friend kill himself
over some bitch who didn't want him.
I know you probably hear this everyday
but I'm your biggest fan.
I even got the underground shit
that you did with Scam.
I got a room full of your posters
and your pictures man.
I like the shit you did with Ruckus too
that shit was fat.
Anyways, I hope you get this man
hit me back just to chat
Truly yours,
your biggest fan, this is Stan.
My tea's gone cold
I'm wondering why
I got out of bed at all
the morning rain clouds up my window
and I can't see at all
And even if I could it'd all be grey
but your picture on my wall
it reminds me that it's not so bad
it's not so bad
Dear Slim,
you still ain't called or wrote
I hope you have the chance
I ain't mad
I just think it's fucked up
you don't answer fans.
If you didn't want to talk to me
outside your concert
You didn't have to
but you could have signed an autograph
for Matthew.
That's my little brother, man.
He's only 6 years old.
We waited in the blistering cold for you
for 4 hours and ya just said no.
That's pretty shitty man
you're like his fuckin' idol
He wants to be just like you man
he likes you more than I do.
I ain't that mad
but I just don't like bein' lied to.
Remember when we met in Denver
you said if I write you
You would write back.
See, I'm just like you in a way.
I never knew my father neither.
He used to always cheat on my mom
and beat her.
I can relate
to what you're sayin' in your songs.
So when I have a shitty day
I drift away and put 'em on.
Cause I don't really got shit else
so that shit helps when I'm depressed.
I even got a tattoo
with your name across the chest.
Sometimes I even cut myself
to see how much it bleeds.
It's like adrenaline.
The Pain is such a sudden rush for me.
See, everything you say is real
and I respect you
'cause you tell it.
My girlfriend's jealous
'cause I talk about you 24/7.
But she don't know you like I know you
Slim, no one does.
She don't know what it was like
for people like us growing up.
You've gotta call me man.
I'll be the biggest fan you'll ever lose.
Sincerely yours, Stan.
PS: We should be together too.
My tea's gone cold
I'm wondering why
I got out of bed at all
the morning rain clouds up my window
and I can't see at all
And even if I could it'd all be grey
but your picture on my wall
it reminds me that it's not so bad
it's not so bad
Dear Mr.
"I'm too good to call or write my fans"
This'll be the last package
I ever send your ass.
It's been six months and still no word.
I don't deserve it?
I know you got my last two letters
I wrote the addresses on 'em perfect.
So this is my cassette I'm sending you.
I hope you hear it.
I'm in the car right now.
I'm doing 90 on the freeway.
Hey Slim
"I drank a fifth of vodka
ya dare me to drive?"
You know that song by Phil Collins from
"The Air In The Night"?
About that guy who could have
saved that other guy from drowning?
But didn't?
Then Phil saw it all
then at his show he found him?
That's kinda how this is.
You could have rescued me from drowning.
Now it's too late.
I'm on a thousand downers now
I'm drowsy.
And all I wanted was
a lousy letter or a call.
I hope you know
I ripped all o' your pictures
off the wall.
I love you Slim
we could have been together.
Think about it.
You ruined it now
I hope you can't sleep
and you dream about it.
And when you dream
I hope you can't sleep
and you scream about it.
I hope your conscious eats at you
and you can't breathe without me.
See Slim, shut up bitch
I'm trying to talk
Hey Slim
that's my girlfriend screaming in the trunk.
But I didn't slit her throat
I just tied her up
see I ain't like you.
'Cause if she suffocates
she'll suffer more
and then she'll die too.
Well, gotta go
I'm almost at the bridge now.
Oh shit
I forgot
how am I supposed to send this shit out?
My tea's gone cold
I'm wondering why
I got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window
and I can't see at all
And even if I could it'd all be grey
but your picture on my wall
it reminds me that it's not so bad
it's not so bad
Dear Stan
I meant to write you sooner
but I've just been busy.
You said your girlfriend's pregnant now
how far along is she?
Look I'm really flattered
you would call your daughter that.
And here's an autograph for your brother
I wrote it on your Starter cap.
I'm sorry I didn't see you at the show
I must have missed you.
Don't think I did that shit intentionally
just to diss you.
And what's this shit you said
about you like to cut our wrists too?
I say that shit just clownin' dawg
c'mon how fucked up is you?
You got some issues Stan
I think you need some counselin'
To help your ass from bouncin' off the walls
when you get down some.
And what's this shit
about us meant to be together?
That type of shit'll make me
not want us to meet eachother.
I really think you and your girlfriend
need eachother.
Or maybe
you just need to treat her better.
I hope you get to read this letter.
I just hope it reaches you in time.
Before you hurt yourself
I think that you'd be doin'
just fine
If you'd relax a little.
I'm glad that I inspire you
but Stan
Why are you so mad?
Try to understand that I do want
you as a fan.
I just don't want
you to do some crazy shit.
I seen this one
shit
on the news a couple weeks ago
that made me sick.
Some dude was drunk
and drove his car over a bridge
And had his girlfriend
in the trunk and she was
pregnant with his kid
And in the car they found a tape
but it didn't say who it was to
Come to think about it...
his name was...it was you.
Damn.
Tisa_
Copyright © 1999-2001 Tisa_. All Rights Reserved
March 06, 2001.
