*oh lordy*
Mood:
irritated
Oh lordy is all i can say about yesterday....i went to the gym and the mall twice and out to dinner....the i came home...me and ash had another fight....i really dont know whats goin on...i think that it is something that she isnt telling me,but who really knows with her....she says thats its my fault...ok half is prolly my fault....i will take the blame...for half....but she needs to take the other half of the blame....but yea u know what they say im juss a heartless bitch....i talked to joni(ashes aunt)last night...she said that i should give ash a couple of days....i have been doing that,that is the reason i havent been going over to her house...but when i went over there yesterday before i wnet anywhere she seemed like she didnt want me over there..so i left...i really am scared that we arent gonna have a friendship when all this is over...and i dont know whats going on with us...maybe she is juss sick of me or something...oh well its whatever....i am sry for lastnight though...but i dont think that is gonna get us talking again....well today i think that i am going somewhere with megan....and then im comming home and going to bed....cause i havent slept good in three nights....uhhh....well i think i might go to the gym first....im sore from yesterday...lol...but today i can work out my irritation....but its all good...i guess....im going to VA Western....i have to call them....juss more stuff to add on...im looking for a job as of now....but yea its all gonna be fine....im serious about leaving and going back to tazwell and going to school there...everybody thinks that im playing,but guess what im not...i really dont feel that there is anything here for me anymore and i have felt like that for a long time....then ash came back from ohio and i still felt that way....now i feel that way even more...cause we juss fight all the time...all that is here anymore is bad meomerys and a lot of mountains that i really dont like lookig at...lol...but there is always FL...but i dont know if i wanna live there...my dad is moving there in feb..march...something like that....im not sure if imma go...if im in school then im not going..if i dont get into a school down here them imma have to go...but i still have a lil bit....i wanna go to UVA....but its real hard getting in there...and i dont have the money....ill prolly have to pay out the ass....lol...well imma go...byes