Title: Forbidden Fruit

Author: Eileen S. Whipple 

Email: whipples@connect.ab.ca

Classification: VA

Rating: R for sexual content

Keywords: Mulder/Other, Mulder/Scully

Summary: "I've always thought about her and now, she 
will haunt me."

DISCLAIMER: Chris Carter owns all the characters in
the X-Files, although Catriona and Moira belong to me.
"Kind Of Woman" belongs to Stevie Nicks, who just
keeps inspiring me. 

Notes: This was written quickly while I was under the 
influence of Tylenol 3; I was tired and jotted this all
down. It came from listening to "Kind Of Woman" several
times.

To Stephanie, Stevie #2, who also inspires me.



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Forbidden Fruit
by Eileen S. Whipple
March 11, 2000
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"I promised myself a long time ago
It would be difficult to let you go
If not at least
Within the touch of my fingers --
It was close to being in heaven..."
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I had always been faithful to my wife in our two years of 
marriage. I love Catriona and our year-old baby daughter, 
but I was propelled headfirst into something I should have 
controlled but didn't. Something I'd wanted a long time ago 
but never had the chance to follow through with it. It all 
became forbidden when I married Cat.

I saw Scully in the Hoover Building halls and I ached inside. 
She hadn't spoken to me since we were assigned to new duties
within the Bureau. I believe she felt it was my fault for 
our separation since I married Cat and spoke to my superiors 
about relocation. 

I caught her alone in the underground parking lot. She hadn't 
changed much in our time apart; her beautiful red hair hung 
past her shoulders now, and her legs weren't as pale as before. 

"Scully," I said. She jumped slightly but kept her back to 
me. We had been so comfortable together until I began dating 
Cat, my raven-haired Scottish beauty.

Scully turned around. "What do you want, Agent Mulder?"

"I wanted to talk to you."

She slammed her trunk. "About what?" She sounded irritated.

"About you...us."

"Mulder, *we* were a long time ago and since we don't work 
together, there's no reason for us to speak."

"I called you when Cat gave birth to Moira but I never 
heard from you."

"You led me on, you son of a bitch! You kissed me, expecting 
me not to react. You kissed me passionately and then you go 
find some other woman."

She was hurt and I felt it in her words, saw it in her flashing 
blue eyes. I remembered the time she mentioned. I had kissed her 
out of the blue one hot day while in our office. That same day 
was when I met Cat.

"Scully, I had no idea I was going to meet Cat after that. You 
didn't seem to feel anything." I reached for her, grabbing her 
by the upper arms.

"Let me go!" she cried out sharply.

"I want to go out to dinner with you. We need to get some things 
cleared up. Cat is visiting family in Edinburgh with Moira." I 
let her go and she stepped back.

She sounded reluctant when she snapped, "Okay. I want to tell 
you what I think about your new family bliss."




I didn't mean for it to happen, but we ended up beneath the 
white silk sheets of my bed, having angry sex. I could still see 
the pain in her eyes as she moaned with pleasure. I wasn't even 
caring about how what I was doing could hurt Cat.

I groaned loudly as Scully scratched her long nails down my back. 
I was deep inside her, somewhere I'd only been in fantasies I 
would've had two years before. She never seemed very interested 
in me so I moved on to pursuing a new love, Catriona Fraser. If 
I had done *this* before meeting Cat, it would be Scully and I 
living together as husband and wife.

Sweat slicked our bodies, allowing our hands to travel easily over 
each other's skin. Her body was nothing like I remembered. Her 
stomach was flat, and her limbs were extremely developed. She 
must have spent the last two years at the gym. She used her 
thighs to keep a tight hold on my hips, causing my thrusts 
decrease in speed but not force.

As she came, she arched her back and put her mouth on my shoulder. 
Then she bit me, the painful feeling of her teeth in my flesh 
triggering my own orgasm. She held me as I flooded her with my 
hot fluid.

I felt the guilt after we were finished. I rolled off Scully 
and began gathering our clothes. In the dim light I saw her 
get up and reach for her panties in the pile of clothes I'd 
created.

She muttered, "I have to get out of here." She dressed completely 
and started out of the bedroom.

"Scully! Wait!" I put on my pants and ran out after her. She 
was slipping her jacket on. "I'll drive you back to your car."

She scowled. "No. Just leave me alone. I get it; you belong to 
Cat in your heart. What we did was only about gratification. For 
me it was about getting rid of my rage. I still feel it though."

She left in a hurry and I didn't want to chase her. She was 
already upset and she had a reason to be.




I feel so awful now as I do my best to hide the scratches on my 
back. Cat and Moira were already on their flight home so I have 
time to think before they arrive.

I called Scully at home and at work, getting no answer at either 
number. I thought about calling her mother's place but Scully 
needs to be alone.

My guilt is still eating away at me. I cheated on my wife and 
enjoyed it, and through that enjoyment, I believe I ruined the 
woman I used to love. I've never thought she was jealous of my 
happiness but it was obvious she hated Cat.

I loved Scully and I know that from now on, I'll have times when 
I regret not going after her. It was hard to let her go two years ago
after she didn't react to my advances but if she came back to me as a 
friend, I'd still care about her. I've always thought about her and now, 
she will haunt me.

I was propelled headfirst into something I *could have* controlled 
but didn't. I tasted the forbidden fruit and may have destroyed 
the lives of two women in the process. 


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"She came to you when you were alone
And yes, she matters to you
Kind of woman that'll haunt you..."
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