Has Gone
Has Gone
By C.
A J/C Fan Fic By C.
Disclaimer: I don't own them, Paramount does...Yata yata yata...
Rating:G
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She died an honorable death, not in battle, but honorable no less. I remember the sounds, forever to be associated with her death. The scents, the sounds. Why would I not? It happened a moment ago, no, 5 hours ago, you know, I'm not really sure when it happened. Time's funny that way.
I guess it really doesn't matter now, that she died an honorable death, because, hey, she's dead. But I know Kathryn, and to her, it does matter.
I remember the first time I looked into her eyes, I mean really looked into her eyes. I think I gasped. I had never seen that before. Never seen anyone with their life in their eyes, for all the world to read. Beginning to end, it was there. I doubt she knew it was there, as far as Kathryn was concerned, she'd live to be a 100, surrounded by grandchildren and dogs and love. Only I, at that point knew what was ahead for her. Years after, she must have stumbled onto the secret. Knew her death, accepted it, had let go of the last, very last of her childhood hopes and dreams and it must have hurt like hell.
By saying I saw her death, I don't mean dates and times and weather reports. Hers would have been a violent and vicious one, I knew that, she knew that, but that knowledge didn't stop me from trying to protect her from every paper cut and battle. That knowledge didn't stop her from dreaming.
The only thing that keeps me from joining her, giving up, is knowing that that's not how I'm going to go. I'm going to go in peace.
Didn't I tell you
What I believe
Did somebody say that
A love like that won't last
Didn't I give you
All that I've got to give baby
-Sade "No Ordinary Love"